Thursday, July 31, 2014 "I Can't Talk. What is This Mindset Called?"

Thursday, July 31, 2014
Week: Summer
Songs to Remember: #2014POINT1 - SHIMMIXES

        This is why I don't want to go on Instagram but then I do and I'm like "I should not have gone on Instagram". And then my day just goes meh.

        So, today's July 31st. Tomorrow will be August and by that time, prepare for the "summer goes by so fast" and "I don't want to go back to school" posts on Facenovel, Instagram, and whatever social media there is. And, I'd like to address something that I wanted to talk about for a long time but I got kinda lazy.

        About a few months ago (I think), while on the internet browser on my Nintendo DSI (which was my only source of mobile whatever) and just plain typing on Google about what was on my mind, or my problems, and see what other people are going through. Or to just find some advice or the similarities between other people's lives and mine. I don't think I do this anymore, I'm just pre-occupied with watching shows and movies at night.

        I searched up "I can't talk". Because, well, I really can't talk. I can type, but I can't talk. I type as if I'm talking, but in reality, I don't really know how to talk. So, this site comes up called "PsychCentral" which includes a segment called "Ask the Therapist". And there was this user (anonymous person, they didn't give their name) who told about how he "can't talk". I was like "Oh hey, that's just like me". I read on (he wrote like 5 paragraphs about how he's not able to talk to anyone) and I was like "Oh hey, that is just like me". Like, the similarities between that person and me are like, way too similar.

        In one of his paragraphs (I'll refer to the person as a he, since it'll sound better than saying "They" for everything), he talks about how he can't talk, even in his own home. He goes on describing how whenever his dad comes into room, he gets in a bad mood, even though his dad does nothing. And when his family is eating dinner, he waits until everyone's done eating to go eat. Just, like, me.

        This person and I have basically the same lives. We both are on the computer everyday, get in a bad mood whenever our dads come in our rooms, eat by ourselves, and of course, can't talk. As that person had stated, "I speak fluent english but I just have this mind freeze and sudden change of emotions to bad moods that stops my conversation and changes my behavior." Seriously, we are too alike, down to the smallest detail.

        Me (and the person) have both searched up stuff about depression, and we both can't relate to any of them. We both have the same mindsets which are fairly different from everyone else's. As the person had said, "What is this mindset called?"

        So yeah, just something really cool and coincidental. Not sure when it was posted, I think it was 2013. The person's also in a University, as they said in their question. The therapist said it's a combination of social anxiety and depression, and I'm like, "Ehhhh", I mean I guess. I wouldn't really describe this mindset "social anxiety" or "depression". More like, "social depression" heh, or something.

        Anyways, tomorrow is August, I'll be picking up my registration papers early in the morning, f***ing 18 days until school starts, my hair's short, I share the same life as another person, and I'll be watching more Watamote and "The Breakfast Club" tonight. On my phone. Here's the url to the question if you want to read it all:

http://psychcentral.com/ask-the-therapist/2013/05/25/cant-talk-to-anyone/

        And, well, see you tomorrow I guess.

Wednesday, July 30, 2014 "Ehhhhh."

Wednesday, July 30, 2014
Week: Summer
Songs to Remember: Watamote Ending 1 (for the actual song name being too long)
        Well, I guess it's Wednesday. And uh, there is something I'd like to talk about buuut I'm too lazy to type a lot right now and well, it's 10:54 PM, and I'm very tired.

        Today was a relaxing day, I guess. I was working on my new game, then ran into some problems, took a break, ran into some more problems, and finally got it to work again. Also I got to pick up my registration papers on Friday. Starting at like, 8:00 AM, 'cause, they'll have it for 8:00 AM to 3:00 PM and I got tutoring starting at 1:00 PM, and there's a lot of people picking up their registration papers. So uh, I guess I'm going to have to wake up kinda early. Ffffffffffffffffffu-.

         I, am on, episode 7 of Watamote right now. And it's very good. Umm, I don't really know what to write today. Oh- just forgot to mention- I am now, addicted to Puzzles and Dragons, that one game on the app store. Out of all the games I've downloaded and played, including Piano Tiles, Flappy Wings (because Flappy Bird is no longer available and I don't care), Plants vs Zombies 2, 2048, and Guess the Emoji, I never thought I'd be addicted to a mobile game.

        My attention span is too great, far too great, that I get bored of Flappy Wings. 2048 is just boring, Plants vs. Zombies 2 is pay to win, and Guess the Emoji is just boring and too easy. Buuuuut, I love RPG's, I love some puzzles, I love/like anime, and therefore, Puzzles and Dragons is my new drug. By the way I don't condone drug use at all, um, yeah. I don't think I like Puzzles and Dragons too much though (I kinda was exaggerating about it a bit). I think it's 'cause I need something to do while I'm waiting.

        Sooo anyways, it's 11:05 PM, my hair's not growing as fast as I want it to be, paper pickup on Friday, last day of tutoring on Friday (forgot to mention that), school picture and registration on August 8th, first day of school on August 18th, and I'm currently watching Watamote. A lot to do. And, I guess I'll see you tomorrow.

Tuesday, July 29, 2014 "Haircut."

Tuesday, July 29, 2014
Week: Summer
Songs to Remember: K-POP IN 4D - SHIMMIXES

        Well I found out what 5SOS (five-sauce) stood for. It stood for "5 seconds of summer". I still call them five-sauce.

        So today I got a haircut. And every time I do, I have about 2 days to 1 week of regret. My hair's pretty short, not that short, but, short. School starts on August 18th, and today's July 29th, so I have roughly about 3 weeks until the first day of school.

        But, I'm getting my school picture taken on August 8th and that's like kinda about a week away. And I kinda want my picture to be good, 'cause all of my school pictures were horrible. And I'm not even kidding about that. And yes, I am very self-conscious about my hair, I think it's my best asset, and one time, a girl was like "Nice hair" and I was like "Thanks". As you can see.

        That's about it for right now, I re-watched The Purge: Anarchy with my cousin through online streaming, and I'm also working on new game, to, pass time or whatever. Also, I'm on the 5th episode of "Watamote". Seriously, no other show can best describe my life, with none other than that show. Anyways, see you tomorrow. Oh and sorry if these posts don't show, the ones I post from my phone don't have a "share" feature.

Monday, July 28, 2014 "Forgot to put a Title."

Monday, July 28, 2014
Week: Summer
Songs to Remember: Her - Block B

        So I'm writing this on my phone so this is going to be full of errors most likely.

        Last night I had a dream that it was the first day of school of this upcoming school year and I was in my first period class, English, but the classroom was my 6th grade classroom and my classmates were people I knew in 5th and 6th grade.

        I came in first into the classroom, not knowing anything, and just sat down in a random seat. I was hoping some cute girls would sit next to me but instead all the girls sat on the opposite side of the classroom whee I was. The people who sat next to me were a dudes and one guy, who was my best friend I guess, back in 5th grade, my darkest times.

        I was thinking like "Not you again". There were 2 teachers but only one I saw, and he was a dude who I do not remember what he looked like. He gave everyone unfinished notes on binder paper and I was just thinking like " Wait, was I placed in this class because I didn't finish my notes from last year?". Also in my dream, I was like "Hmm, the first day of school doesn't feel as exciting as I thought it was gonna be".

        Anyways, just wanted tell about my dream. I did not really do anything today. I did watch some episodes of " Watamote" last night so that was a blast. Also it has gotten less hot since yesterday so thank goodness for that too. I'll see you tomorrow I guess.

Sunday, July 27, 2014 "Yesterday, Today, Tomorrow."

Sunday, July 27, 2014
Week: Summer
Songs to Remember: Creatures Come Alive (Remix) - Brother Blake

        Why do popular people at my school act like they're "no-life-ing" by being on the computer "all-day", when they post pictures of themselves everyday hanging out with their friends at Starbucks and the mall.

        Like oh my god, like, I seriously have like nothing to do, I'm sitting here watching a goddamn swimming anime while I eat junk-food and gain no weight. That was my impression of one of them. Also people watch that swimming anime for 2 things: the half-naked dudes, and the fact that they swim like it's their job.

        So the beta for the game "Destiny" just ended today. I'm not gonna have anything to play on the PS4 for about a month and a half so it's back to leaving that thing off for another while. There is nothing, and I mean nothing, to play on the Playstation 4, besides loads and loads of indie-platformer games. Of which should belong on the PC and not a console. Seriously, stop putting those games on console.

        Also I'm getting a haircut in a few days, due to my hair being too long (like always) and how I'm going to be taking my school-picture in about 2 weeks. Yeah my school pictures are never that great, I somehow end up looking stupid due to one of 2 things: not smiling even though I'm smiling, or how stupid my haircut at the time.

        My 8th grade picture was horrendous. I did not even remember having that much hair. Just picture coconut head, but even more round than that. That is exactly what my hair looked like at that time. Anyways, I'm going to be re-watching "The Purge: Anarchy" tomorrow morning with cousin. Streaming it online, of course. See you tomorrow.

Saturday, July 26, 2014 "Grinding."

Saturday, July 26, 2014
Week: Summer
Songs to Remember:

        You know what happens when a company creates a game that's a first-person shooter, mmo, rpg elements, customization, and sci-fi characteristics? I play it for way too long.

        So, yesterday was fine. One of my tutees (the name for someone tutored) did not come so I had to tutor someone else, and the person I tutored yesterday had a, great personality.Not much else, I've been playing the "Destiny" beta for about, ehhh, I'd say about 2 and a half days now.

        Seriously, a game like that would rob me of all of what I have left of social life, if any. The beta is going to end Sunday, presumably, so until then, will I be rid of this curse. Anyways, that's about it, not much else.

        Umm, I guess I'll see you tomorrow. Oh and by the way, I messaged Em on Kik the other day, and today she finally replied back. I asked her if she was going to come back this upcoming school-year. She said "Yep xD". Not sure if she'll really come back though.

Thursday, July 24, 2014 "A Bit of Summer Left."

Thursday, July 24, 2014
Week: Summer
Songs to Remember: Nothing much due to no new music

        If there was a time for when I'd like to stay home and not be social while tutoring kids, It'd be now.

        So this is going to be my first post on my phone, since I was a bit too lazy to do it on my computer, and the fact that I was too busy playing the open-beta for Destiny.

        Let's see how well this post will turn out, considering I'm writing this all on my phone. I'm pretty sure I'm gonna get the formatting all wrong. The good part about doing this on the phone is all the autocorrect. I mean, I could type a whole word completely wrong and it'd work. Watch. Garlic bread.

        Alright, so just an update, I received a letter from my school, listing all the dates for paper pick-up, registration, and the first day of school. August 1st will be the day for me to pick-up the registration papers, August 8th will registration, and August 18th will the first day of school. When I first saw these dates I was like "Shhhh, wow, there is not a lot of summer left. And damn, is the shortest summer or what?"

        Like, has it really been 2 months already? What did I even do to make this all seem fast. So, I'm not sure if I like how the new school-year's starring pretty soon. I mean, at first I was excited for it to start, 'cause I was pretty hyped up about proving my social game, but now it's like "Ehhh, am I ready for it?"

        And then the whole school cycle starts over again, how people don't want school to start, then count down the days until school's over, then at the end of the school year, people don't want it to end. Then summer comes, people want school to start again, then repeat.

        I don't know if I'm ready for the school-year to start. First impressions count, that's all I'm saying. Like, you see someone for the first time and they're wearing glasses. When they take their glasses off, they look like a whole new person. I don't know, I've always thought that was weird.

        So tomorrow I got tutoring session with kids from 1 to 4, so that means I got to get up early tomorrow if I want to catch up in playing Destiny 'cause the beta's gonna end on Sunday.

        Just trying to get a bit of summer in just before I got start worrying about school. Ugghh. Anyways, I'll see you tomorrow. My hands are cramping from typing like this on a phone.

Wednesday, July 23, 2014 "A Late Goodbye and Cringeworthy Video."

Wednesday, July 23, 2014
Week: Summer
Songs to Remember: Tried to Walk - B1A4

        Hi, I'm Drew, and today I'll be talking about stuff I find on the internet and my social problems. I hope you'll enjoy.

        You know, that sentence really accurately described what I talk about in my posts. Uh, yeah. So first off, I'd like to say a goodbye to a friend of mine. She helped me with a lot of problems, even though she was dealing with problems of her own. And no, she's not f***ing dead.

        Her name's Em. I've talked about her a while back, how I was thinking of messaging her on Facenovel and talking to her 'cause she seemed like such a interesting person. Of course, my being who I am, I didn't message her. Instead, she messaged me, I guess, after I consecutively liked some pictures that she posted.

        She wasn't what I was expecting to say the least. I expected her to be one of those "Yolo" people, but no, she's actually very fun, interesting (to say the least), and she and I were actually fairly similar. Umm, due to her appearance and makeup, her music choices, and stuff, I guess you could call her "emo". That is, if it's fine with her. I don't really like to label people. Much, at least. I'm trying not to sound offensive than I kinda already am.

        So, I talked to her (as in messaging on Facenovel), a few times, then I didn't hear from her for a like a few weeks. I figured that I annoyed her or she didn't like my presence so I was like "Well, that was that". But then she came back online after those few weeks and I was like "Hey, where ya been?" and she was like "Oh, just came back from a mental hospital". Like, what? I was like "Uh really?" And she was like "Mhmm". Apparently she had suicidal thoughts and so she was put in the mental hospital for a few weeks.

        After that, she told me she was going to be home-schooled from then on. Soon, I guess I talked to her a few more times and then one day she posted a status on Facenovel saying how she's going to be visiting the school early in the morning. And so on that day, I met her in person and we only saw each other for like 5 minutes and then class started and she had to go home.

        She visited again on another occasion and it was basically the same thing again, 5 minutes of seeing each other in person and that was the last time I saw her. I've noticed she had a lot of internet boyfriends. About, eh, all of them whom she had broken up with, due to them cheating on her or whatever. She started a YouTube channel soon after that, I guess to be like her favorite YouTube people like "amazingphil" and "danisnotonfire". She recorded a few vlogs and finally one little "goodbye" video with her walking home with her friends. In the description of the video, she told how she won't be making anymore YouTube videos due to not having enough money for a good camera, and having no personal computer.

        She told me (when she was homeschooled) that she might be coming back to our school for sophomore year, but as of now, her Facenovel's been deleted, her Instagram deleted, she hasn't responded to my message to her on Kik, and the only internet accounts she has yet to delete are her Wattpad and Quotev accounts.

        As of right now, I don't know where she is or what she's doing, I just hope for her to have a bright future and the life she's always wanted. She helped me a lot in a way, by just talking to me, she helped me find similarities in uncommon places. So I just wanted to say thank you Emily O., for keeping my mind on for just a bit longer.

        I have been WAITING to make a goodbye post for her, but I always forget. Now, it's been done, another checkmark off my things to do list (of which I don't actually have). Oh, and for the cringeworthy video. I saw this one video today, recorded by this person who's in Facenovel friends list but whom I never actually spoken to (on the internet or real life), and it is probably one of the most cringeworthy things I've ever seen.

        So basically it's called "Game of the Week: Opinions! ft. Andre D. R.". That's the name of the video, but with the full name for the dude "Andre". She basically has this channel where she does games/ challenges, or something, I don't know. In the video, they both give their like, honest opinions on each other. Oh my god, is it cringeworthy.

        The dude says "V... is... ss-smart, I think you literally are really smart, like, you're really, not-not, you're like really academic". And then the girl's like "You're making fun of me! *hair swipe*". Yes, that was an exact quote from the video. The best synopsis for the video would be hairswipes (if that's what they're called) and things to say to your crush. Seriously, one of the most bootleg videos I've seen recently.

        And by god, how does his hair defy that much gravity? Isaac Newton would be like "Damn son". Anyways, this post is getting (oh my god, I'm listening to the video and it's just, just-oooooooh) a bit too long so I'll talk a bit more tomorrow. So see you tomorrow, and remember, stay bootleg.

Tuesday, July 22, 2014 "Instagram is Another World."

Tuesday, July 22, 2014
Week: Summer
Songs to Remember: 2012 K-Pop Mega Mashup - SHIMMIXES

        You know, I never got why people post pictures of their, what are they called? Weed farm, weed collection? Why do people post pictures of their cannabis, and how are they caught? I hardly doubt their cannabis is used for medical reasons.

        So I actually downloaded and installed Instagram on my phone after I saw one of my friends post a picture on Facenovel with the little text that says "via Instagram". If it weren't for that, I'd probably forget.

        And since I was (and still am) not following anybody, the Instagram home screen was like "Oh hey, find some friends to follow... you lonely son of a b****". And uh, it showed all my friends who had Instagrams and I was "Oh my-" like, is it really that- I mean, eh- it says "You have 249 friends on Instagram" and it's just like "What?"

        I don't really see the point of Instagram. But there's over about a million users so what am I saying? So after seeing a bunch of other people's profiles on Instagram (people mostly from my school and social circle) I was like "Whatever" and made a profile. Oh wait, they require you to make a profile anyway when you first get on Instagram. Oh.

        So instead of naming my profile "Salad Dressing" like I do on any kind of app or website that I don't really care about, I made my Instagram name as "andrewhtrain" 'cause you know, my real name being Andrew, my middle name starts with an H, and my last name sounds like "train". And heeey, the names not taken, yay.

        It wasn't until I saw this one dude's Instagram name (the dude coincidentally being Ez's bf. Or whatever) had "train" in it as well. 'Cause like, his last name's the same as mine. So with me not looking like I'm copying him, and me having a bit of hipster qualities, I decided to be different and changed my Instagram to "mfw". By the way, that's not my Instagram name 'cause I know better and the internet is a scary place.

        I was surprised that a lot of people had their Instagram profiles on private. It's good not to show your face, or too many pictures of your face, on the internet. Anyways, I came across one of my, err, old classmate from 6th and 7th grade's Instagram. I remember him still (I remember like, everything) mostly 'cause of this little event back in 7th grade where he got caught, for having cannabis. The funny part was when his friend tried to hide it in his closet. His F***ING CLOSET. I need to tell his story one day.

        So, his profile wasn't on private, that's nice of him. And when I saw his pictures- well I didn't know what I expecting. This dude took pictures of his cannabis and even filmed himself slapping his friend I guess, with a bag of it. Like, what? I swear, his Instagram could entertain someone for hours. And don't get me started on his raps he recorded on soundcloud, oh my lor- and why aren't the cops looking at people's Instagrams? If they wanna catch people with cannabis, why not just look at Instagram profiles for like an hour?

        Other than that, the rest of people's pictures were like Starbucks drinks, horizons, selfies, milk teas, and just whatever. Nothing really special. The crazy part in all this, was when I had finished signing up my profile for Instagram, a dude just randomly followed me, like instant. His profile says that he's in the class of 2017 at my high school... What was he doing following peoples Instagrams (and for when I just signed up).

        So what's next, ask.fm midnight trolling and shenanigans? Maybe. I feel like my posts are more and more becoming like the posts I made back when I first moved all my document posts to blogger. And that's the era for when I actually liked making posts. So I guess you could say this is fun.

        I, will save my update for tomorrow 'cause this post is already long, and I want to have something to talk about tomorrow in case I forget, which I most likely will. And it's f***ing Tuesday. Great. Anyways, see you tomorrow.

Monday, July 21, 2014 "Entertainment."

Monday, July 21, 2014
Week: Summer
Songs to Remember: Tried to Walk - B1A4

        My mom's phone looks so buji, I swear, heh. Her phone is an iPhone 5S GOLD colored (the most wannabe buji you can get) with a fake rhinestone case. I mean it's rhinestones, rhinestones, F***ing RHINESTONES.

        So having a phone for like, a day and a half now, it's definitely better than not having one. And it's not exactly bad to the point where I need it all the time, but it's only been like... one day. S***. So yeah, with a phone I could do stuff I couldn't do before like, watch videos while I eat dinner, or play puzzle games while in the bathroom 'cause why the f*** not?

        I did not download or will ever use Instagram. Only for seeing other people's pictures, but that's it. But what is there to see on Instagram? It's just... food and selfies. And the occasional movie ticket. And I don't see why people- oh my god, I just remembered this.

        So one time back in English class of freshman year (like several months ago), I sat behind this girl in my class and like, she takes so many selfies just so she can get one that's like decent, I don't know. And I'm just like "Why do you care about how good the selfie is when you're just gonna cover up like 90% of it in filters and effects and sun-flares even when you're inside and, just whatever.

        So uh yeah, I've been kept entertained all night long (up until like, 1:00 AM, but, I do get 8 hours of sleep a day at least). And I forgot what I was going to talk about for today AGAIN. I think that's going to be like a thing for every time I write. Anyways, I'll see you tomorrow.

Sunday, July 20, 2014 "I'm Okay, Phone, and Whatever."

Sunday, July 20, 2014
Week: Summer
Songs to Remember: Keep Your Head Up - Andy Grammer

        Well, this is kinda awkward in the fact that I was bawling my eyes out yesterday over my parents getting iPhone 5S's and me a s****y 5 year old I don't even know phone. But that was like what? Yesterday? And today is today.

        So yesterday my mom pissed me off a lot. Until she finally let me get an actual phone after I told her how the phone she passed down to me was utter s***, I mean, it was 2G only for f***'s sake and no Wi-Fi connectivity.

        I had my eyes on 2 phones, ones that were good, functional, but weren't as pricey as other phones, the LG G2 and the Google Nexus 5. My mom then told me to just get the iPhone 5S, in which I was like "That's so expensive" but then my mom was like "This is phone you're going to have for 7,8 years so choose one that's good" or something like that. Then she made up a bunch of reasons how everyone says the iPhone brand's the best and long-lasting.

        I was like "Whatever" and just went with the iPhone 5S. Then soon my mom changed her mind and was like "Why don't you get the Nexus 5 like you wanted? Only $400" and by that time, I wanted the 5S. Then my mom said that the iPhone was too expensive and that's how I ended up with Google Nexus 5. And I don't regret it.

        So today my parents and I went to this T-Mobile place to get me my phone. My dad talked way too much and for no reason, so the transaction went on for a bit too long, just to buy a new SIM card and phone. After the employee dude (cool dude by the way) explained to my parents how the place where my parents bought the contract at was a corporate and how they could be sneaky (most likely shady too), my parents will hopefully not go to any bootleg cellphone place ever again.

        We went to Best Buy and Walmart looking for cases for all our phones and I ran into my best buddy from school. I was like "Sup Ec" and he was like "Sup Drew". I never ran into my friends from school at public places for like, a long time so I don't really know the feeling. But now I do and I gotta say, it wasn't as awkward as I thought.

        And yeah, I'm okay now, no more crying for longtime, that is, until I see my student id picture this August? I think August. Oh and can you believe it's the 20th of July already? Like, god damn back to school s*** to do.

        So yeah, "lost my phone virginity" as my cousin told me. Also, my parents got 4G LTE Unlimited plan for our contract. What. I was like "What contract did you get" and my mom was like "4G Unlimited" and I was like "OH MY GOOOOOOOOOD" like Spencer (Jerry Trainor) from iCarly when he went like "OH MY GOOOOOOOOOD" in that one episode. Our monthly bill now is like, over $100. What.

        Sooo uh, I don't know what to do now, besides having to add all my songs on iTunes (over 4 GB worth) to my Nexus 5. iTunes, onto an Android. Do you know the hassle I'm going through right now. Also, I forgot something I wanted to say. God damn it, this always happens. Anyways, see you tomorrow.

Saturday, July 19, 2014 "F***."

Saturday, July 19, 2014
Week: Summer
Songs to Remember:

        Fuck

Saturday, July 19, 2014 "I Didn't Think We Were Rich."

Saturday, July 19, 2014
Week: Summer
Songs to Remember:

        Haaahahaahaahhahahahahahahahaha. I'm actually crying right now, so I don't know why I was writing like I was laughing.

        Took one step in the kitchen, I see the phone that my mom and dad got. My mom got the iPhone 5S and my dad an iPhone 5. Funny right? Right? Considering that my mom isn't even going to use half the f***ing functions on it. My mom even stated in the car ride when my uncle was driving my mom and I to my grandma's house that "those type of phones are for people who use it a lot, for like checking stocks and all that".

        Considering my mom stays home and doesn't have a job while my dad makes $60,000 a year, getting the iPhone 5 and the iPhone 5S  was a good choice in saving money. But do I pay bills? No. Do I pay taxes? No. Do I have a job? No. I'm not old enough to get a job (16's the minimum for people here). But when I do get a job, hell yeah I'd pay for everything.

        I'd gladly get a job, work it so I don't have stay in this place I'm supposed to call home, and pay for everything. Gas, bills, f***ing everything. Because why the f*** not? My parents still treat me like I'm 5, I do nothing all day anyway. I don't go out with my friends 'cause I don't have any, and the friends I do have stay home all day too.

        So when do I start?

Saturday, July 19, 2014 "Here's Your Headline."

Saturday, July 19, 2014
Week: Summer
Songs to Remember: The Drug in Me is You - Falling in Reverse

        You know, sometimes when I get upset, yelled at, whatever, I always cry. Is it because I'm sensitive? A bit too sensitive? Most sensitive person in existence? Or is it a condition, that I cry very often? But I'm a guy, and guys aren't supposed to cry, at least, not too often.

        It sucks because it happens on a weekly basis. There's one night, every week, where reality just hits me all at once, and then I have a breakdown while lying in bed. 'Cause right now, I don't know what I'm doing. I'm living life as just "whatever". And not the good kind of whatever either, like the kind where you don't give a s*** about what other people say.

        Even when I'm home (as in, the house I live in), I tell myself "I want to go home". When I'm asleep and dreaming, it feels real, vivid, and I actually have fun. I wake up and it becomes "Oh, it was a dream?" Right now, I'm not home.

        And the crying thing, I'm not making that up. When I say I cry often and for the littlest things, I mean it, literally. Parents give me a lecture? Tear up, in my room, crying. Detention for something that's doesn't deserve a detention? I cried. Yelling at me? I cry. People telling me to not cry? I cry. Parents giving me a 5 year old phone while they get iPhones? Yeah, yeah I cry. Especially when the teacher asks anyone doesn't have a phone to search research material on, and I'm the only one raising my hand, or when everyone gets out their smartphones to take a picture of the notes on the board, and I'm the only one writing it down by hand.

        I do have thoughts on running away every now and then. Just to f*** with everybody who knows me, to see if it makes a difference if I were to be gone. Suicide? Nah, suicide's stupid. Running away? As a temporary solution. And then when the times I do feel like running away, I don't, because I'm scared, shy, timid.

        But if I do run away, do I leave a note? I could just write whatever or whoever's name to blame, to make that person feel bad. If I'd run away for something stupid, I'd write a headline for all the news sites and stations, like "15 year-old boy runs away from home due to cell phone". Or something like that.

Saturday, July 19, 2014 "Anarchy, Tutoring, Unturned."

Saturday, July 19, 2014
Week: Summer
Songs to Remember: Shotgun - Yellow Claw

        I uh, kinda forgot to write something for yesterday 'cause a lot of shenanigans were happening yesterday (in my opinion). In all honesty, I was caught up playing "Unturned"with like 4 other people late at night,

        So, this'll be mainly me talking 'bout what happened yesterday. So I set my alarm (and by alarm, I mean the timer app on my 6th gen iPod nano with the volume cranked up on max with the earphones close to my face) to like 8:00 AM, 'cause I wanted to watch The Purge: Anarchy as early as possible. Mainly because of how I'll be tutoring kids from 1:00 PM to 4:00 PM.

        Well I didn't wake up from my alarm, but luckily I woke up at like 8:30 AM, so that was aight. I then went on the internets for about 45 minutes and I asked my mom if she could drive me to the theaters.

        So, the movie I wanted to see (and I mean really see), was rated r. Uhh, I didn't know if my local movie theater let underage R rated moviegoers slide, like I don't know if they cared about letting a 15 year old (15 and a half to be exact) to get into an R rated movie or not. I always thought it was only in the movies, where the rating on movie actually mattered, heh. But it was actually f***ing true.

        I told my to come with me to the ticket place as people like me need an adult to go see the movie. As in, she'll be with me when I get my ticket, but not watch the movie. The ticket person was like "Yeah, um, you can't watch the movie unless a parent or someone older accompanies you in the movie" or something like that. And I was like "...Really?" Like, I thought you just needed a parent to confirm in letting their kid watch it.

        The ticket person then asked my mom "Do you know about the movie? Violence... gross?" And I was just thinking "What? The Purge was not gross, if you mean by footage instead of quality, hehe. I mean it's not like there are nude scenes or a movie like "Sextape". Anyways, the ticket person got the manager out and the manager was like "Sure, he could watch the movie" and I was just like "Oh thank you kind human". I got my ticket and uh, got in.

        Since it was an R rated movie, I was sitting there watching movie previews and commercials for like 10 minutes and I'm just like "Please no horror movie previews, please no horror movie previews. Aaand wadya know, they showed previews for "Oujia" and "As Above, So Below". Also they showed a preview for this one movie "Into the Storm" and I was like "What? Is this supposed to be like Storm Chasers the movie or something?"

        So i watched The Purge: Anarchy and (don't worry no spoilers) the part where the masked dudes were getting ready to chase, I got chills. I was so hyped up for the masked dudes in the movie, but it turned out to be a bit disappointing. Not the movie, but the masked dude characters.

        I did watch The Purge (the first one), and at that time I never really heard of any reviews or was into the movies at all. But then one day I got into it and now I like the soon-to-be franchise. So for my review of The Purge: Anarchy, uhh, it was okay. It should have been what the first movie was in my opinion. At first I thought it was going to be like a "Trick 'r' treat" movie, where there's 3 different scenarios going on at a time, and then they'd all meet up.

        And it was, just a bit. But they didn't focus much on the scenarios, 'cause like, they're all in a group. And the government was more involved than the masked dudes and I was like "Really?" Like, come on. You know what? There needs to be a Purge movie where it focuses on the bad guys as the main characters, in the scnario of "What if you were Purging?" like the masked dudes.

        So all in all, I give The Purge Anarchy a 6/10, with The Purge being a 5/10in regards to that. James Demonaco made the scenarios like, okay. Also the ending was a bit cool, but a bit disappointing at the same time. So yeah. I'm probably going to go watch The Purge 3 next year, that is if this one is successful in sales.

        Oh and I almost forgot- at the end of the movie, about 10 seconds into the credits, my mom called me asking if I was ready to go yet. What was crazy was that she called at that time, right when the movie ended. What a weird coincidence.

        After the movie, my mom drove me home and I relaxed for a bit until I had to go to the library and do my usual stuff like tutor. It was okay, not as much fun as like, the 2nd time there, but still aight. Then I went home, aaand, got invited by my friends to play "Unturned" with them. Flipping cars over and over had never been more entertaining.

        So yeah, that was my Friday. I'll see you tomorrow 'cause I got to flip some cars in "Unturned". So, see you tomorrow, and happy Purging.

Thursday, July 17, 2014 "Going to Be a Fun Friday."

Thursday, July 17, 2014
Week: Summer
Songs to Remember: Without You Now - Yuna Kim

        Oh hey, I almost forgot about you this time, I actually almost forgot to write something for today, and I was actually carried away with doing something.

        So this whole day, I was hyping up with my cousin (mostly me) about how today is the day of when The Purge: Anarchy releases in theaters. I didn't go, only because of how the movie starts at 8:00 PM, and it's considered kinda late, and the mall near our house where the theaters's at is pretty dangerous (don't wanna get robbed). So, I'm going tomorrow at 10:00 AM.

        I wanna get there like, 30 minutes early, 'cause of the seats, the pricing, and I get to like, I don't know, relax for a while before I get hyped up watching the movie, then after, going home at do whatever for about an hour, then go tutor kids. Then go home and uh, work on my game for a bit.

        Then hopefully, on Saturday, my parents and I will go to the phone place and get a new contract. And my first phone hopefully. Yep, relaxing weekend alright. Sooo uh, yeah. Pretty hyped up for the movie, even though the first one sucked ("The Purge"), but this one will hopefully (and undoubtedly) be better.

        So that's about it, I worked on my game and just whatever all day today. I'll definitely be talking to you tomorrow, so, see you tomorrow. Oh and just to mention, I've been having lotsa dreams lately. Just, just to let ya know.

Wednesday, July 16, 2014 "Tired."

Wednesday, July 16, 2014
Week: Summer
Songs to Remember: Shotgun - Yellow Claw

        So I don't feel like really writing anything for today, I just did whatever all day. And no, I didn't get my phone today. So yeah, just kinda tired right now. I'll see you tomorrow.

Tuesday, July 15, 2014 "Lively Week With Stupid Things."

Monday, July 15, 2014
Week: Summer
Songs to Remember: Good Bye Bye - Nu'est

        Yeah, I didn't really write anything for yesterday 'cause like- wait what. It- it's Tuesday already! Fffff- I thought it was Monday.

        Okay, well, it was late at night and I was sleepy so, there you go. I didn't really do anything yesterday, actually, what did I do? Ohhh right, I did a whole bunch of California driving permit practice tests. I expected the test to be like, uber difficult since like, it's driving. But no, most of the questions were really, really, OBVIOUS, like, how can you not pass these driving permit tests?

        Now when I take tests at school, when I don't know the answer, I just go with the answer that seems the most logical. There's usually one really stupid answer choice which is obviously wrong, then there's one that doesn't really make sense, then there's the two answer choices with one of them being the correct answer. The California driving permit tests have only like, 3 answer choices sooo 33.333% chance of getting it right. Even easier.

        Some of the questions on the practice tests are like "What is the legal percentage of alcohol for someone under 21?" And, I mean, it's obvious you're not supposed to have like any alcohol when driving so uhh, the answer would be pretty obvious. A bunch of questions also have "phone" and "text" as answer choices, I mean, they're making it a bit too easy, hehe.

        Now that I'm finished questioning California driver permit practice tests, last night I found something really, really stupid. Remember when I talked about people's stupidity on social media websites? Yeah, this is gonna be one of them.

        So last night I came upon this one girl (whom I've trolled before on her ask.fm profile) who uhhh, well I'll let you read for yourself. The question and answer are direct quotes by the way. The question she was asked was "Thoughts on zayn and Louis getting high?" Her answer was "Okay so its normal. Like at least 85% of the teenage population gets high. Whatever. BUT PLEASE DONT MAKE IT A HABIT. I dont want the boys im deeply in love with to become druggies. Like no. And well since they are REALLY WELL KNOWN. Dont record yourselfs getting high. Its gonna upset the fans. BUT FANS pls dont hate the boys just bc of that one incident. Yeah they got high and smoked weed but come on. Doesnt almost everyone? Its not exactly the best thing to do but that doesnt mean you should hate them bc of that ONE thing and completely forget the 246291038492 other things they did to make us smile. *rant done*".

        So yeah, that, kinda deserves to be on the front page of r/cringeworthy, heh. Wow. Sooo where do I start? Well, let's identify the main points in all this shall we? So band members of "One Direction" (I mean, I guess it's One Direction? I seriously don't know the names of anyone in these boy bands, like "5SOS" or as I call em', "five-sauce") smoked weed and recorded it. Like, okay. Wow, popular boy band smoking weed, how unexpected, nope.

        She said that 85% of the teenage population gets high, ehhh, I agree. It's true. But getting high is "normal"? Like, what? Since when was it considered normal? If it's normal, uhhh, why is still illegal here? She also implied that it's okay to get high, but to not make it a habit? Oh yeah, smoking weed's fine, getting high's fine, but if it's a habit (better word here would be addiction)? Aww heeell no, s***, where's the 411 on the 911?

        "I dont want the boys im deeply in love with to become druggies." So what? If it were different people, it'd be different? Just 'cause they're "well known"? And there are definitely better reasons to not record yourself getting high, like, oh I don't know, you're getting high? Worrying about your health while recording yourself getting high, or worry about upsetting fans? Tough decision, I know, I know.

        I swear, this is why people need lawyers. The statements she's making as arguments are pretty "lawl" worthy. "Yeah they got high and smoked weed but come on. Doesnt almost everyone" I see she didn't put "everyone" instead of "almost everyone" 'cause then she'd just lose. Just in general. Apparently getting high and smoking weed is okay as long as "almost everyone" does it. You see, I was gonna compare getting high and murder here, but then I was like "Nahhh, nevermind".

        And then she goes by saying how you shouldn't hate them for smoking. Wh- W- Who would hate them when people already do? And now I'm finished. As she had said, heh, "rant done". I clearly stated that my rant is done.

        So yeah, just something I thought was pretty funny and cringe-worthy at the same time. Nowww, for the current news. Yyyyyes, I'm getting a phone. I swear I could hear an angel chorus when I saw a document on the kitchen table with 3 phone lines listed on it. And I know plenty of f***ing people (who are most likely attractive) go: "Heheh, lel, you're excited about getting a phone?! Lel! I've had mine for years and so what?! I could drop it right now and I'd get one in the mail by today! Hahaha, lel, buji-".

        The writing I do to put my voice in my text is atrocious. Anyways, as Joe Jo had said before "I know a lot of good looking people that complain all f***ing day about the stupidest s*** on Earth". Now that is true to an extent. Aaand, back to phones. So my mom wanted to give me her phone, which runs at like 10 fps. I told her that it's slow, and my mom's like "No no, the internet is 3g, very fast". And then I explained to her how it's not the internet (I don't care about the internet with the contract) but it's the phone that's slow.

         My mom then told me how if I get all A's on my next report card, she'll get me the iPhone 6. I'm like "No, I don't want the iPhone 6". First of all, it's an iPhone. It's, f***ing, expensive. Second, it's f***ing buji as hell. Buji by the way, means expensive just to be expensive. Rich people do a lot of buji things, like, playing poker with each playing card being an individual iPhone or something like that.

        My mom then had it so that I'd go with her and my dad to the phone place on Wednesday and figure it out there. Anyways, that is all for now- I just remembered, the k-pop group Nu'est just had their comeback. Just saying.

        Anyways- oh yeah, I'll also be seeing The Purge: Anarchy in theaters and hopefully be able to experience that bootleg thing where people take a picture of their movie tickets and post it onto Instagram. Only for experience, not that I'd like it. Anyways, see you tomorrow.

Sunday, July 13, 2014 "Nothing, But An Update."

Sunday, July 13, 2014
Week: Summer
Songs to Remember: Close to Me - Gentleman Hall

        Hi, it's me again, Drew. And there is seriously nothing to do, like, nothing. The only thing to do right now is write this.

        So I got back home now. I got back here at about 2:30 PM (it's currently 10:19 PM) and 2:30 PM is pretty early. We left my grandmother's house at about 9:00 AM so it took only about 6 hours to get from L.A to here (not including stops which took like 10 minutes). 6 hours is surprisingly quick, and there wasn't really any traffic along the way, probably because every sane person on the freeway moved out of the way as my dad was driving us at about 80 miles per hour in a 70 max limit.

        Uhhh, so I didn't get a phone yet. There's probably a saying where one does not receive what one expects, or something like that, I don't know. Well I haven't been "expecting" a phone until now (I'm 15). I thought my mom and dad renewed their phone contract yesterday, but they still have the same phones. Maybe they renewed it but kept the same phones. HOPEFULLY, they didn't and are going to renew it next week, or else I'm going to have nightmares about weird phones for the next week.

        So like, a few days ago, I had a dream that I had a phone, but it wasn't really a phone. It was like a... phone, but it slides (like those sliding phones, compared to flip phones). And when you slid it, it would slide out like 4 more panels, turning it into a tablet. Very weird, and very scary because that thing looked NASTTTY, the typing on that thing was like 8 frames per second (*shudders*).

        So yeah, I had a nightmare about a phone. That's how much it affects me. So today my cousin told me how he's studying for an online driving test (test, as in writing). And that made me think "Well s***, I'm going to have to drive soon, might as well get the basics down", and by basics, I mean like how to steer and how to start a car basics as I know NOTHING about driving or cars.

        Aaand what's the best way in learning about stuff like that for free... is the internet! Specifically wikiHow. And now I know how to start an automatic car, a manual car, the "push/pull" steering technique/ shuffle technique, aaand the basics of the Prindle and gears for manual cars. Damn is there a lot of stuff.

        Anyways, I played a bit of "Aura Kingdom" today, my cousin studying on driving, and uhhh, here I am sitting here with nothing to do. Like, no matter how much I refresh my YouTube subscription page or my Facenovel feed, there's nothing new or anything to watch. Tutoring isn't until like 5 more days, The Purge: Anarchy isn't until for another 5 days, and, it's pretty difficult finding new songs I like. W- What am I gonna do tomorrow?

        So like I said, there's "nothing" new really. And, I feel like I forgot something I wanted to talk/tell about. Uhhh, I'll see you tomorrow? Yeah, I'll see you tomorrow.

Saturday, July 12, 2014 "Coming Back Home."

Saturday, July 12, 2014
Week: Summer
Songs to Remember: 30Sexy - Rain

        So I'ma be leaving my grandmother's house tomorrow and going back home. Uhh, today I played some more "Unturned" with my cousins and a bit of "Aura Kingdom". Not much to say since it's 11:23 PM. See you tomorrow.

Friday, July 11, 2014 "Influenced Speaking and Smooth Riding."

Friday, July 11, 2014
Week: Summer
Songs to Remember: Where are you? What're you doing? - B.A.P

        Like my cousin's brother had said today, "It's Friday?!" Hell yeah it's Friday. And hell yeah my way of speaking is influenced by Vash12349.

        So my dad's here now, at my grandmother's house. I thought he'd be coming today, but no, he uhh, came here yesterday night probably. I didn't find out he was here until this morning. I'm guessing tomorrow him and my mom and gonna go to a cell phone place (or whatever it's called. I seriously have no idea what a phone place is called. A phone place?) to get a new phone contract.

        So I just finished watching Running Man episode 203 and part 10 of Vash12349's let's play of "Tomogatchi Life" on YouTube and it took me this long to recognize how much Vash12349's commentary has affected how I speak today.

        I first watched Vash12349 (let's refer to him as Vash for short) when I was at my old house, the one where most of the bad things in my life happened. I was just browing YouTube to watch some gameplay of "Little Big Planet", in which I came across Vash12349's video of him and his friend playing it. Oh boy, did I laugh, probably the hardest ever in my life. His comedy in his videos was probably the thing that kept me going after the incident back in 2010.

        After a course of watching Vash's videos from 2010 continuing to now, I've developed a way of speaking similar to his. For instance, I use the word "bootleg" every so often, along with phrases that Vash says in many of his videos. And I've also used Vash's way of quoting people and.. stuff. I'm not sure how to explain the quoting, but, it's very noticeable. I'm prooobably making no sense right now.

        Anyways, Vash influenced some of the things I find funny and the things I say. He also got me through some difficult times. Aaand now onto current events.

        So (as it is my new most used word), since I didn't go to the Math tutoring thing today because I'm still in L.A, my tutoring buddy messaged me on Facenovel and said "Hello is this the dude from math tutoring" and I'm like "Yes this is the dude from math tutoring speaking". I don't know why I'm talking about this, I think it's because I find it funny.

        Also, I found this new game (fairly recently released) called "UnTurned". It's basically like "Minecraft meets Dayz" Ehhh, more like "Roblox with 7 Days to Die". Anyways, fun game, and the best part, it's FREE. At least for right now. I got my cousins to play it because 1, it looks like Minecraft, 2, it's open-world, 3, guns, and 4, it's multi-player. And it's pretty bootleg. As you can see, Vash-influenced talk right there.

        So yeah, things have been going pretty smoothly, I'ma be here at my grandmother's house for 1 more day, tomorrow I'll be playing more "UnTurned with my cousins", hopefully getting a functional phone tomorrow, The Purge: Anarchy coming out in exactly one week, and I still got one Chips Ahoy cookie left. Man those are good. I'll see you tomorrow.

Thursday, July 10, 2014 "I Didn't Do What I Said I Was Gonna Do."

Thursday, July 10, 2014
Week: Summer
Songs to Remember: How R U - Airplane

        You know what day it is; it's Thursday. Also I meant for that part to be in the melody of Rhett and Link's "Good Mythical Morning" Mail Thursday song.

        So in about 3 days I'm leaving my grandmother's house and going back home. Then uhhh, I guess do what I do now which is sit in front of the computer all day. And tutor kids for 3 hours on Fridays until, uhh, August 2nd I think. Then it's only a matter of time before the new school-year starts and that'll be something alright.

        And uh, yeah I kinda didn't watch any "Mekakucity Actors" today like I said I would, but it's because I was caught up in watching "The Colony" with my cousin (over Skype that it). I remembered watching like a short portion of an episode way back when it was on Tv. I didn't remember the name of the show so I just searched up "apocalypse survival show" or something like that. Aaand wadya know, the first thing that comes up is the Wiki for the show.

        Also, I also kinda didn't work on the web-comic like I said I wanted to, so instead I just worked on my game again. I got a bit of motivation for working on it from watching "The Colony". Weird, I know. Also, "Watamote" is certainly the best anime to represent my social life right now. Too bad there's only 12 episodes of it currently. Does that mean my life will only last 12 episodes? They better be long ass episodes alright.

        So I watched about 8 episodes of "The Colony" with my cousin over Skype, worked on my game for a bit, ate Pizza Rolls for the first time in a like, years, and I'm currently watching Running Man episode 203 right now at like, 10:53 PM. And I still have a bedtime (let the laughing commence in 3,2,1).

        Uhhh, I guess I'll see you tomorrow. I feel like I forgot something I wanted to talk about today. Remember when I talked about people's posts on Facenovel/ Twitter? Good times, good times.

Wednesday, July 9, 2014 "Found an Anime and Folder of Screens."

Wednesday, July 9, 2014
Week: Summer
Songs to Remember: Dou Kangaete mo Watashi ga Waruku Nai - Kitta Izumi

        Oh hey, I almost forgot to write something for today too. It's weird because I'm not really doing much all day. Maybe I become too distracted at doing nothing.

        So, apparently it's already Wednesday. Is it really Wednesd- oh my god it's already Wednesday. Good, and bad, but more good than bad. Good, in that I'll be going home in about 4-5 days. Bad, in that I won't be able to have this kind of privacy until, oh, about 5 more months when I come back hereto my grandmother's house for Christmas.

        And the water here tastes pretty different. People are like "Oh, water taste like nothing". But then there's like, so many different kinds of water with different kinds of tastes. Is there even names for the tastes of different waters? First world problems.

        So what was I gonna talk about? Right. So after I've given up (I tried okay, I'm no quitter. Unless it comes to a quitting competition, then I am one) on making 2 games, one un-finished and one only tested for a game mechanic, I decided to spend my time uhh, looking for new anime to watch. Is the plural form of anime "anime", or "anime's"? I think it's "anime".

        I came across this anime called "WataMote" and I was like "Heeey, it's that one girl whom I've seen in so many forum avatars but have no idea where she's from!" Aaand then I decided since creating a game would take a bit too... long I guess, considering I'm doing it by myself, I decided I might want to do a web-comic. No story really, just whatever I think is funny.

        Then I remembered about all the stupid- wait. Wasn't I supposed to talk about something from Facenovel today? Aaand I just remembered so a girl posted "TBH"'s to a bunch of people on Facenovel just because some person revived her "Like for TBH" post from 2013 on Facenovel. There. That was it. So as I was saying:

        With all the stupid and "WTF" statuses, posts, pictures, comments, and whatnot that I've screenshotted and saved into this folder on my desktop from Facenovel, YouTube, and Tumblr, I decided to base my web-comic on those. I'll make like a short 6-panel comic strip illustrating that post or whatever. If I think it's funny, I'm making it.

        Sooo, uhhh, watched re-watched half of "Inglorious Basterds" with my cousin, and uhhh, kinda tried to work on my game, but then was like "Nahhh", then looked up some anime and here I am typing at 10:59 PM.

        Tomorrow I'll probably watch some "Mekakucity Actors" (an anime by the way) and Running Man, then I'll work on the first of my web-comic. Hopefully it won't be too hard, considering it's just squares and squiggles. Because that's Geometry for ya, squares and squiggles. See you tomorrow.

Tuesday, July 8, 2014 "Whatever I Talk About is Already Stalker-ish."

Tuesday, July 8, 2014
Week: Summer
Songs to Remember: Night and Day - Wheesung

        Wait, what was I gonna say? I always, and I mean I always forget what I was going to write when I'm writing these things.

        So these past 2 days I've gotten the best sleep I've ever had in like, a long time. I think it's because my room back home is too big. Or maybe because of the privacy I get in the room I'm in now. My room at home has 2 glass doors, a window to the kitchen, and a sliding glass door to the backyard. Yeah, nothing I could really hide in that room.

        Also, today I emailed that one girl who's in charge of the whole math tutoring thing, I emailed her about how I will not be able to be at the tutoring thing on Friday (this Friday) since my dad isn't driving my mom and I home until Sunday (in which I hopefully get a phone by then).

        Aaand, this one girl on Facenovel (who went to my middle school and is going to be a freshman this upcoming year, and is into K-Pop mhmm) changed her cover photo into a picture of that one dude from The Purge: Anarchy with the "god" mask. Yeah I commented on it, saying how it's "10 days 'till Anarchy". And she's all like "Yes! xD" and that makes me feel a lot better for not regretting doing that.

        You know, sometimes I contemplate (like I just did one paragraph ago) on whether I want to write about something or not, or really, to type it up or not. I think about whether it's too creepy or stalker-ish or just plain overly embarrassing, but then I'm just like "Wait, I'm supposed to talk about what's going through my 15 year old mind"... And the fact that everything I've written so far is already pretty stalker-ish and creepy so it's just whatever, I mean, I've already talked about what people post on their Facenovels and girls in my classes. So, whatever.

        So the game I was working on, I've kinda lost motivation and interest in making it, sooo, I've decided to create a whole new one. It's a good challenge for a 15 year-old mind. Oh, and today I played Adventure Time: Battle Party (a moba which looks very similar to League; actually, scratch that- it's League of Legends re-skinned into Adventure Time and Adventure Time characters) with my cousins (over Skype that is). Fun game though, and broken.

        And so, I will see you tomorrow. And how I'm going to talk about how this girl is doing "TBH"'s on Facenovel after someone commented on their April 2013 "Like for a TBH" post. As you can see, whatever I talk about is already considered stalker-ish.

Monday, July 7, 2014 "What Am I Supposed to Do."

Monday, July 7, 2014
Week: Summer
Songs to Remember: Out of My Head - Zak Waters

        I almost forgot to write something for today. It's 10:23 PM and uhhh, boring to the point where it's not boring, but I still don't know what to do.

        So- Vt (I think those were the letters I used to mention her as) actually got online today. Because it says "Web" on the Facenovel chat bar thing. On the side. I'm on pc because I don't have a phone. And no, it's not stalking. Please don't say it's stalking. I'm just talking literally about what I think in my confusing mind.

        The first thing that came to my mind was "Should I message her? Yes? No? Maybe?" She hasn't been online for like, ehhh, when was the last time I talked to her? Like, a month ago? She hasn't been online on Facenovel since like, a month ago. Does she still remember me ('course not)? I wonder what she'd say when I talk to her this upcoming school-year (that is, if I do talk to her).

        Now I've explained that, now for some introvert time. I first thought I was an introvert, but then I was like "Hmm, I could be an extrovert since like, you know, I like company". Then I was like "Ehhh, right now I kinda like being alone (for like, once a week) so I'm probably an introvert".

        Last summer (I think), I was by myself in this room at my grandmother's house (where I am now) and my mom didn't really give me a bedtime (don't ask why I still have a bedtime) so I think I stayed up 'till like, 4:00 AM. And don't say you stayed you stayed up earlier like "Oh Hooh, I pull all-nighters everyday, I'm too MLG for you). Umm, I don't think there's any benefit for staying awake for that long so, have fun.

        This time, I'm by myself for this week (just 1 week), after my cousins left. I usually have the time of my life by uhh, I don't know, re-collecting my life and thoughts, or just doing whatever comes first to mind. But right now, yeah I don't really know what to do.

        And so The Purge: Anarchy comes out in theaters in about 1 and a half weeks, I'm going back home in about 6 days, school starts in about 2 months (I'm lying, I have no idea when school starts, not a clue), aaaaand, internet all day everyday. Short synopsis of future things to come. See you tomorrow.

Sunday, July 6, 2014 "This Past Week."

Sunday, July 6, 2014
Week: Summer
Songs to Remember: Nichismoke - MowtenDoo

        Sooooo what day is it? Ju- July 6th? Alright, now I just forgot what I was going to write about. I do remember how there's supposed to be a "wow" somewhere here.

        Alright, so my cousins just left, they're going home today while I'm going to be going home next week and hopefully my mom will have a conscience and get a phone that's not impractical. And oh my LAWD is it hot right now, like, WOOO, am I sweaty.

        This whole week I haven't written much partly due to me not having much time, and the fact that my cousins look over my shoulder. I'd kinda like for all this to be kept private, unless I feel like showing everyone all this and that would be, ehhh, I don't know.

        Also, the room we're sleeping in, staying in, basically spend about 3/4 of hour day in, is kinda small. Both of my cousins sleep on the 2 mattresses in here while I sleep on the ground (thank goodness there's carpeting). We could kinda squeeze 3 people onto the 2 small mattresses but there's really not much room to like, move around and whatnot so I chose to sleep on the ground.

        Alsooo, I drank my first Monster energy drink yesterday (so exciting, I know, I know). I have never drank, not even one sip, of a single energy drink. Unless, well, you count Powerade or Gatorade or VitaminWater as energy drinks (lel). So I was kinda expecting something like the god of all energy drinks when I took my first sip of Monster, but it was actually just kinda sour. I was like, "Well, it's very citrus-y".

        Aaaand, I have also been having a few weird dreams this past week, most of them having to do with school. And yeah. I wonder what other people are doing right now? Oh, I almost forgot. Uhh, so, for the fourth of July, we didn't go to our other cousin's house for a pool party and fireworks watching, we just, stayed here.

        Our uncles and aunts (the ones that don't live here at our grandma's house) came here and like, just sat in the living room I guess and just re-watched some old footage of their camping trip or whatever. They laughed pretty loud, my cousins and I heard them from upstairs (the room we're in is upstairs, it's a 2 story house).

        Also, for the past 2 nights or so, my cousins and I heard some dude or kid outside, like, right across from the house (our window is always open so we can hear the yelling) was like shouting and yelling. He seemed pretty pissed off. The night before yesterday night, some dude was yelling "I got work tomorrow!" and yesterday night, we heard some dude yell "Shut the f*** up!". These gosh darn neighborhoods here man, I swear.

        So my cousins and I basically just like, watched videos on YouTube or whatever, played Terraria for a few days, just full on Terraria, then watched Transformers: Age of Extinction, then played Transformers Universe for a day, then watched the movie Kick-Ass 2 (pretty lack-luster) and Holes (I don't know why), aaaaaaand here I am, alone, in this room.

        I'll be getting back to posting actual stuff that people sorta remotely care about soon, 'cause right now, it's Sunday, July 6th, 2014, 12:27 PM, and I got to go to the bathroom. See you tomorrow.

Friday, July 4, 2014 "Fourth of Explosions."

Friday, July 4, 2014
Week: Summer
Songs to Remember: I Don't Know - Fiestar

        Happy fourth of July. We didn't go to my other cousin's house for a pool party celebration like we usually do every year. We just stayed home at our grandmother's house.

        So uh, not much to say. See you tomorrow maybe.

Thursday, July 3, 2014 "Transformers."

Wednesday, July 2, 2014
Week: Summer
Songs to Remember: Chelsea Dagger - The Fratellis

        So apparently my cousins and I have been watching YouTube videos, memes, and played Terraria for all the time since I've been here.

        We'd probably be doing that today too if weren't for our uncle telling us how he'd come home early from work so he can drive us to see Transformers: Age of Extinction. Also, I probably would've finished and posted this yesterday, but my cousins were snooping around and if they were to see all my posts and this blog, then I don't know.

        So we just came back from seeing Transformers: Age of Extinction. The theaters here (we were at an AMC) were like, pretty fancy. The theater near my house is a Century 21 theater I think, and they don't have any reserved seating or whatever. At least I don't know about it, you just buy your tickets and sit down at any spot at the theater.

        The seats here were pretty comfortable, they weren't like seats like a college theater seat or whatever (like my town's theater), they were like big red sofa things. I don't know the name of what they're called so, yeah. Also there was a lot of space, I could literally extend my legs far out in front of me.

        The movie was okay, I first thought that since it would be 2 hours and thirty minutes long. But it was actually kinda fast paced so that was nice. There were also some okay jokes and comedy scenes so that was nice too.

        My cousin has watched like, every single scene, trailer, sneak peak, whatever. He has seen all of that so he basically knew kinda what was going to happen. So I guess my cousins and I are going to play Transformers Universe for a few hours now.

        See you on Saturday I guess, since tomorrow we're going to my other cousin's house for a July 4th party. Also I've finally found this one song I've been looking for: Chelsea Dagger by The Fratellis.

Tuesday, July 1, 2014 "The Dreams Keep On Coming."

Tuesday, July 1, 2014
Week: Summer
Songs to Remember:

        So umm, see you tomorrow. No time.