Wednesday, March 30, 2016
Week: 33
Songs to Remember: Deepened - Brave Girls
It's only 10:30 PM but I gotta get to sleep real quick tonight. Waking up at 5:50 AM is not good, not good at all.
Psychology was just more presentations, pretty self-explanatory. Still haven't done the mock AP test by the way. English was just fucking, writing and answering questions on just like, the social context of "The American dream" and shit like that. I just wanna read the book for now.
Biology was just a nice big lecture, and that was it. Math was just math, and then a quiz, 2 questions, umm, I "finished" quickly, but nobody had went up to turn in their test yet, so I waited. Luckily I did, because I did the 2nd question wrong, as in, I read it wrong. Fixed it, hopefully I get an okay score. Lunch, was lunch. And uh, US History was literally a full-on 50 minutes of straight coloring. I finished the comic book, just had to color, and yes, I did use the full 50 minutes.
And finally, as I was going to the route that Wl (or was it wn?) supposedly goes to get to Chinese class, I happen to run into her. Not literally, but, it was like, she's going forward, I'm going towards her from the front. So by surprise, and instinct, I'm like "Oh hey Wl." Hopefully she interpreted me as going to my locker or some shit. Anyways, since I had already said hi, I couldn't just do it again.
I went from US History class to the L-building, only to go down the stairs and through the P.E blacktop side of the school, basically near the back. I walked, and was like "Yep, there's Wl." And I just walked, slowly, very slowly, apparently she walks even slower than what I was walking, and that was pretty fucking slow. Not sure why I rush to Chinese class, I mean the teacher never marks us tardy anyways. Wl comes in late everyday, like, past the bell 'cause she walks so slow, but the teacher never says shit. So, yeah.
Good news in all of this is: she walks by herself, like, she doesn't go walk with her friends, who sit across the classroom. Anyways, afterschool was just 3 hours and 30 minutes of waiting, essentially. School ends at 2:00 PM, practice didn't start 'till 3:00 PM, KDT doesn't have stage practice time 'till like, 4:30 PM, and then, there was a full dayshow run-through, which went from 5:00 PM to 5:30 PM, in which we were almost the last act.
I was just glad to go home, heh. I think everybody really wanted to go home. What's even worse is that tomorrow and Friday, there's supposedly practice from 5:00 PM to 7:30 PM. Like, really? That late? People got shit to do, like, why not just right afterschool. Who in their right mind would go home to rest, only to go back to school grounds to practice for another 2 hours.
Anyways, theres' this controversy circulating around, about how this junior guy got expelled from our school because he "harassed" somebody, i.e, call him or her a bitch. He was supposedly in a district-transfer agreement thing or something, but then he got suspended for the "harassment" in which that suspension goes against the agreement, thus getting him expelled. There was a petition made on petition.org, which got 176 signatures to prove that people want him back and that shit was unjustified ('cause there's no visual evidence, just facts). Instead, the petition got closed down by the person who put it up (a junior girl who knows nothing about petitions) because she said she had to close it or else the "admin" would get her in trouble.
Not sure if this was the petition.org admin, or, school admin, but either ways, you got 176 fucking signatures/supporters, you did this for a fucking cause and you close it just because someone told you to, stating you'd get "in trouble." I've heard and seen some ignorant shit in my life, but this, this is definitely going in my top 10. It was probably one of the best things to get that dude back in school, but since she closed it, all those signatures, wasted, his chances of getting back into this school, gone in a click of a button.
And yes, I would've done the same. I could've petitioned for my buddy Ec to stay at our school, and if somebody told me to take it down, I wouldn't, alright. Anyways, just something I wanted to talk about. Day show is tomorrow, it's gonna be something alright since I'll be in the front this time for the last 30 seconds or so. And uh, yeah, see ya.
Wednesday, March 30, 2016
Tuesday, March 29, 2016 "Pricing."
Tuesday, March 29, 2016
Week: 33
Songs to Remember: Deepened - Brave Girls
I stayed up playing Minecraft for a shit-ton of hours, and I payed the price for it. By staying up 'till 1:32 AM, organizing my math binder for the binder check tomorrow, as well as finish math work and the bootleg comic book (still uncolored) for US History.
To be honest, no class really stood out today besides Chinese, but ya'll know why already. Good shit, good shit. Wl and the dude who sits in front of me, Qy, even helped me out on the vocabulary quiz today. To be honest, the words weren't in our lesson, and weren't in our flashcards, okay. And uh, yeah.
Ec came over today, he just played a game of League, umm, some Hitman Beta, and then we went on Tinder to see what the hype is all about. You see some pretty fucking unexpected shit on Tinder, not gonna lie. But anyways, see ya.
Week: 33
Songs to Remember: Deepened - Brave Girls
I stayed up playing Minecraft for a shit-ton of hours, and I payed the price for it. By staying up 'till 1:32 AM, organizing my math binder for the binder check tomorrow, as well as finish math work and the bootleg comic book (still uncolored) for US History.
To be honest, no class really stood out today besides Chinese, but ya'll know why already. Good shit, good shit. Wl and the dude who sits in front of me, Qy, even helped me out on the vocabulary quiz today. To be honest, the words weren't in our lesson, and weren't in our flashcards, okay. And uh, yeah.
Ec came over today, he just played a game of League, umm, some Hitman Beta, and then we went on Tinder to see what the hype is all about. You see some pretty fucking unexpected shit on Tinder, not gonna lie. But anyways, see ya.
Tuesday, March 29, 2016
Monday, March 28, 2016 "Attention to Detail."
Monday, March 28, 2016
Week: 33
Songs to Remember: Delicious - Toheart
Oh yeah, it's season 33. I've been getting some attention lately, I'm not accustomed to it, but I'm not complaining.
Psychology was just a free period to do whatever since my group and I have already finished our Google Slides presentation. English was one of the more different things that have happened. We discussed a bit about The Great Gatsby and then we did a small "play" on the 1st chapter of the book, featuring DrewN, me, Pt, and Vb. Very bootleg experience let me tell you that much.
Biology was pretty, not that great, heh. We did like, a visual diagram, umm, using shit like macaroni, beads, etc, for a cell and the sodium potassium pump. I would rather have like an online model thing, rather than a bootleg custom one in order to better understand it to be honest. Also, quiz tomorrow.
Math was really just math, as usual, nothing too special. Lunch was a KDT meeting, where basically the president, cabinet, just talked about what's going on this week, what to expect, some events coming up, etc. Oh and uh, apparently we have 2 new members joining, both of which are guys, so, just sorta means more competition when getting into songs due to the cabinet people having to basically reserve them a spot in a song, whether they practice or not.
But anyways, US History was just a bootleg game and class activity on remembering terms from the Cold War. And finally, Chinese, where we did the bootleg "ask others 3 questions and have them answer them and vice versa" activity. I unfortunately did not go along with my script, err, I didn't expect Wl to come to class that late. I mean I walked pretty fucking slow, but uh, apparently it's not slow enough. Her 5th period class is apparently AP Bio, with the other AP Bio teacher, and is in the same class with Lw, whom I talked to during the KDT meeting.
I think I'ma just go for it, like, just gotta stay calm, make it seem as natural as it is, as casual as can be, and uh, I think, I'll have a 25% chance of success. No more, could be a bit less, but uh, yeah. Anywho, we all know what's going down this week. Umm, my buddy Ec might be coming over to my house tomorrow, we'll see. And uh, yeah. Oh yeah, almost forgot about practice.
So after school we (KDT) were in the theater. We sat and like, waited for bit 'till they started, 30 minutes after 3:00 PM. Ln, Cc, and Ad were there, doing bootleg shit on Snapchat on my phone, heh. And uh, we did a couple runthroughs, both could've been better, but, it was alright. Also, apparently our whole act is only 3 and a half minutes long, while the songs I'm in, the last 2, "Dope" and "Hate," last a whole minute. So essentially, I'm in 1/3 of the performance, which is pretty fucking good. And I'm in the front, for once. Literally, for the chorus of "Hate." Pretty good.
No practice tomorrow, thank goodness, and uh, yeah. Gonna be a hype week, especially with the mock AP test that we gotta set aside 2 hours for this week, anytime, to do for Psych. Not bad, but, damn. Anyways, that's enough for now. See ya.
Week: 33
Songs to Remember: Delicious - Toheart
Oh yeah, it's season 33. I've been getting some attention lately, I'm not accustomed to it, but I'm not complaining.
Psychology was just a free period to do whatever since my group and I have already finished our Google Slides presentation. English was one of the more different things that have happened. We discussed a bit about The Great Gatsby and then we did a small "play" on the 1st chapter of the book, featuring DrewN, me, Pt, and Vb. Very bootleg experience let me tell you that much.
Biology was pretty, not that great, heh. We did like, a visual diagram, umm, using shit like macaroni, beads, etc, for a cell and the sodium potassium pump. I would rather have like an online model thing, rather than a bootleg custom one in order to better understand it to be honest. Also, quiz tomorrow.
Math was really just math, as usual, nothing too special. Lunch was a KDT meeting, where basically the president, cabinet, just talked about what's going on this week, what to expect, some events coming up, etc. Oh and uh, apparently we have 2 new members joining, both of which are guys, so, just sorta means more competition when getting into songs due to the cabinet people having to basically reserve them a spot in a song, whether they practice or not.
But anyways, US History was just a bootleg game and class activity on remembering terms from the Cold War. And finally, Chinese, where we did the bootleg "ask others 3 questions and have them answer them and vice versa" activity. I unfortunately did not go along with my script, err, I didn't expect Wl to come to class that late. I mean I walked pretty fucking slow, but uh, apparently it's not slow enough. Her 5th period class is apparently AP Bio, with the other AP Bio teacher, and is in the same class with Lw, whom I talked to during the KDT meeting.
I think I'ma just go for it, like, just gotta stay calm, make it seem as natural as it is, as casual as can be, and uh, I think, I'll have a 25% chance of success. No more, could be a bit less, but uh, yeah. Anywho, we all know what's going down this week. Umm, my buddy Ec might be coming over to my house tomorrow, we'll see. And uh, yeah. Oh yeah, almost forgot about practice.
So after school we (KDT) were in the theater. We sat and like, waited for bit 'till they started, 30 minutes after 3:00 PM. Ln, Cc, and Ad were there, doing bootleg shit on Snapchat on my phone, heh. And uh, we did a couple runthroughs, both could've been better, but, it was alright. Also, apparently our whole act is only 3 and a half minutes long, while the songs I'm in, the last 2, "Dope" and "Hate," last a whole minute. So essentially, I'm in 1/3 of the performance, which is pretty fucking good. And I'm in the front, for once. Literally, for the chorus of "Hate." Pretty good.
No practice tomorrow, thank goodness, and uh, yeah. Gonna be a hype week, especially with the mock AP test that we gotta set aside 2 hours for this week, anytime, to do for Psych. Not bad, but, damn. Anyways, that's enough for now. See ya.
Monday, March 28, 2016
Sunday, March 27, 2016 :"Week of Shows."
Sunday, March 27, 2016
Week: 32
Songs to Remember:
That feel when you're having a bomb-ass dream and think that it's real but then you wake up and find out it was just a dream so you get all bummed out like "Tsk, man!" That was me this morning.
I had some trouble sleeping last night. My technique to going to sleep is just visualize an opening for this series for each song that plays on my phone. Yeah, weird, I know, but since I'm like imagining, fantasizing, it helps build into a dream, and therefore, lets me sleep soundly. Also it gives me something to think about, I'm a, I'm a visual learner.
But anyways, this week is the week for the VSA show, both day and night. Also, just because I know, there'll be like a test for Psychology on Friday, umm, quiz for math maybe on Wednesday, and a quiz for Bio on Tuesday. Kinda shitty. but, what can ya do.
Also, my buddy Ec has spring break already for his school. For us, it's like the 2nd/ 3rd week in April, from the 11th to the 15th. Sucks 'cause like, that month's filled with finals for AP classes, on the weekends already, and uh, Prom. So I guess it can work both ways, prepare for prom, for a couple finals, but uh, it's spring break, so like, who's gonna spend it studying? And we get free time in Bio anyways.
So today was just, Minecraft with Ec. No League, no nothing, some Amazon browsing though for cheap tux's and dress shoes, which, there were some. Uhhh, practice and meeting tomorrow for KDT. Not sure what, but, just, go along with it. I feel like I'm forgetting to talk about something. Uh, I know that the Funeral Suits' new EP, the "Tree of Life" is being released April 1st, which I am excited for, but that's not what I'm seeming to be forgetting.
Ah well, it'll come to me once I get to bed. Well alright, see ya.
Week: 32
Songs to Remember:
That feel when you're having a bomb-ass dream and think that it's real but then you wake up and find out it was just a dream so you get all bummed out like "Tsk, man!" That was me this morning.
I had some trouble sleeping last night. My technique to going to sleep is just visualize an opening for this series for each song that plays on my phone. Yeah, weird, I know, but since I'm like imagining, fantasizing, it helps build into a dream, and therefore, lets me sleep soundly. Also it gives me something to think about, I'm a, I'm a visual learner.
But anyways, this week is the week for the VSA show, both day and night. Also, just because I know, there'll be like a test for Psychology on Friday, umm, quiz for math maybe on Wednesday, and a quiz for Bio on Tuesday. Kinda shitty. but, what can ya do.
Also, my buddy Ec has spring break already for his school. For us, it's like the 2nd/ 3rd week in April, from the 11th to the 15th. Sucks 'cause like, that month's filled with finals for AP classes, on the weekends already, and uh, Prom. So I guess it can work both ways, prepare for prom, for a couple finals, but uh, it's spring break, so like, who's gonna spend it studying? And we get free time in Bio anyways.
So today was just, Minecraft with Ec. No League, no nothing, some Amazon browsing though for cheap tux's and dress shoes, which, there were some. Uhhh, practice and meeting tomorrow for KDT. Not sure what, but, just, go along with it. I feel like I'm forgetting to talk about something. Uh, I know that the Funeral Suits' new EP, the "Tree of Life" is being released April 1st, which I am excited for, but that's not what I'm seeming to be forgetting.
Ah well, it'll come to me once I get to bed. Well alright, see ya.
Sunday, March 27, 2016
Saturday, March 26, 2016 "Grind, Shop."
Saturday, March 26, 2016
Week: 32
Songs to Remember: Drip Drop - Taemin
Alright so I got some good news and some bad news. The bad news is that I got 4 classes worth of shit due Monday essentially. Good news is: I learned the first 15 seconds to Taemin's "Drip Drop" all by myself (well, with a tutorial), a song I've been wanting to learn for a while.
So I went shopping for some bootleg socks to wear for the VSA day show on Thursday. We're wearing our KDT shirts with denim shorts (oh which I just learned the meaning to today. Denim is actually the material used to make jeans. Also, denim doesn't necessarily mean blue jeans, it can also be black as well), yes actual shorts, no pants, and bootleg socks. Some people are going to wear thigh-high socks, knee-high, umm, socks with animals on them, doughnuts, polka-dot, striped, etc.
I didn't have any bootleg socks, all the pairs I own are either black, or white. So, went to Wal-Mart looking for denim shorts, a plain white t-shirt, and crazy socks. I did find denim shorts, but they were like for fucking gorillas, so they didn't fit me. As for white shirts, my dad said he has a bunch at home, so there's that. And socks, I ended up going with these neon-tie-dye, green-yellow-orange socks. They're made by "Top Drawer" with their tagline being "Life's too short to wear plain socks." I guess that's why their socks looks so fucking crazy, heh.
They looked long, but when I put 'em on, they're like the same size as my other socks. I'm just worried it won't be visible enough, but with the neon coloring, I'm sure people will be able to see it. The socks are like calf-high, so uh, it's whatever. Also, shorts. I have not worn any type of casual shorts (besides swim trunks but that doesn't count) since I have no idea how long. P.E shorts don't count either because they were required.
But yeah, I literally own no shorts at all. And so, my mom proposed that she just cut and sow one of my jeans instead of buying new denim shorts, with her argument being that we could use the money to buy new denim pants as she knows I won't be wearing shorts. Like at all anytime soon besides for the performance. So uh, there's that.
I played Minecraft, pretty much for 2 hours, a fair bit of it going into port-forwarding a server. I also crashed at around 5:30 PM. Still need my naps apparently. And uh, oh yeah, almost forgot to talk about the dentist. So uh, I expected to go to my usual dentist, but apparently not because my dad took me to this new dentist whom I've had once before. Umm, pretty much hate it because, I like my old dentist better. He was more gentle, unlike this dude whom made my mouth bleed the most I have ever witnessed, heh. I went to go rinse my mouth bam, strawberry juice. I was like "Ooh shit." I teared up a bit from the scraping, but I guess the dude didn't see it.
And yeah, I could still like, imagine the metal grinding on my teeth (it was just a teeth cleaning by the way). Also, I was diagnosed with a cross-bite. I think my dentist has told me that before, but I sorta forgot I guess. He says he recommends braces, umm, or like, surgery, shit, whatever. Umm, don't think my parents will be too into that, because shit's not covered by our insurance, heh.
Anyways, it's 12:32 AM right now after looking through Amazon for cheap denim jean pants, and uh, yeah. I'll see you tomorrow, see ya.
Week: 32
Songs to Remember: Drip Drop - Taemin
Alright so I got some good news and some bad news. The bad news is that I got 4 classes worth of shit due Monday essentially. Good news is: I learned the first 15 seconds to Taemin's "Drip Drop" all by myself (well, with a tutorial), a song I've been wanting to learn for a while.
So I went shopping for some bootleg socks to wear for the VSA day show on Thursday. We're wearing our KDT shirts with denim shorts (oh which I just learned the meaning to today. Denim is actually the material used to make jeans. Also, denim doesn't necessarily mean blue jeans, it can also be black as well), yes actual shorts, no pants, and bootleg socks. Some people are going to wear thigh-high socks, knee-high, umm, socks with animals on them, doughnuts, polka-dot, striped, etc.
I didn't have any bootleg socks, all the pairs I own are either black, or white. So, went to Wal-Mart looking for denim shorts, a plain white t-shirt, and crazy socks. I did find denim shorts, but they were like for fucking gorillas, so they didn't fit me. As for white shirts, my dad said he has a bunch at home, so there's that. And socks, I ended up going with these neon-tie-dye, green-yellow-orange socks. They're made by "Top Drawer" with their tagline being "Life's too short to wear plain socks." I guess that's why their socks looks so fucking crazy, heh.
They looked long, but when I put 'em on, they're like the same size as my other socks. I'm just worried it won't be visible enough, but with the neon coloring, I'm sure people will be able to see it. The socks are like calf-high, so uh, it's whatever. Also, shorts. I have not worn any type of casual shorts (besides swim trunks but that doesn't count) since I have no idea how long. P.E shorts don't count either because they were required.
But yeah, I literally own no shorts at all. And so, my mom proposed that she just cut and sow one of my jeans instead of buying new denim shorts, with her argument being that we could use the money to buy new denim pants as she knows I won't be wearing shorts. Like at all anytime soon besides for the performance. So uh, there's that.
I played Minecraft, pretty much for 2 hours, a fair bit of it going into port-forwarding a server. I also crashed at around 5:30 PM. Still need my naps apparently. And uh, oh yeah, almost forgot to talk about the dentist. So uh, I expected to go to my usual dentist, but apparently not because my dad took me to this new dentist whom I've had once before. Umm, pretty much hate it because, I like my old dentist better. He was more gentle, unlike this dude whom made my mouth bleed the most I have ever witnessed, heh. I went to go rinse my mouth bam, strawberry juice. I was like "Ooh shit." I teared up a bit from the scraping, but I guess the dude didn't see it.
And yeah, I could still like, imagine the metal grinding on my teeth (it was just a teeth cleaning by the way). Also, I was diagnosed with a cross-bite. I think my dentist has told me that before, but I sorta forgot I guess. He says he recommends braces, umm, or like, surgery, shit, whatever. Umm, don't think my parents will be too into that, because shit's not covered by our insurance, heh.
Anyways, it's 12:32 AM right now after looking through Amazon for cheap denim jean pants, and uh, yeah. I'll see you tomorrow, see ya.
Friday, March 25, 2016
Friday, March 25, 2016 "Spirits."
Friday, March 25, 2016
Week: 32
Songs to Remember: Fly - GOT7
I honestly do not remember how I felt in the past when I was at the 2 Trojan Olympics rallies in my freshman and sophomore year (also I don't wanna search through 750+ posts). I don't think I was really that spirited during those times compared to, well, today. Probably because I was hyped up from performing with KDT as a group, and so, their spirited natures rubbed off on me, I don't know.
But it was different, I can say that for sure. Anyways, the whole day felt pretty, long? Short? I'm not used to sitting in the gym with my fellow KDT members, participating in cheers, having to smile for 2 minutes straight, get nervous for a rally, excited for a rally, and of course perform in front of half the school, twice, in the most hyped rally of the school year.
So let's break the whole day down. First, Psychology, where we got Chromebooks to work on our peer presentations on a Psychological disorder. Boom, done. English, we go over the first couple pages of "The Great Gatsby," the cover, some background info, etc. Nothing special. Break, this is where it gets juicy. I'm hanging out at the old spot with DrewN, Vb, Bh, all those guys. I notice it's 1-minute 'till break's over, I head on over to the green, which was like, right there. Bell rings, I see about half of KDT there.
They're like "Damn, I like that class color accessory" and all that, heh. I had no pink clothing or accessory whatsoever in my house. Basically. It wasn't 'till like 12 at night or something, I was snooping around to find something pink, I notice a pink fabric strip on one of my mom's doll toy, collectible, antique, thing? It did not fit my wrist, that's how small it was. So, I used tape, and wore that thing for the whole day. It was pretty noticeable to be honest, heh. Believe it or not, I wasn't the only one who couldn't find an article of pink clothing.
We all head inside the theater, sat down on the bleaches, the middle of where all the seniors and freshmen sit. It was essentially a rectangle divided in half. The top left half of the rectangle was where the sophomores sit, the top right was the juniors, bottom left the freshmen, and bottom right the seniors. This was during 3rd period, aka, preparation for the hellstorm, because shit was fucking crazy. The activity director's microphone was so fucking loud, we barely heard each other in our group.
We sat there, talk a bit about which direction we're facing, formations, when to go on, etc, etc. It was literally just one runthrough. Aka, they do a mock run of the whole thing. So, we only got to practice, once. It wasn't that great to be honest, due to us having to adjust to the size of the gym, how we're all a little bit more spaced out than when we practiced, etc. And soon enough, it was 4th period, the double 4th period, and it was the start of the real rally.
They had a bootleg video of last year's rally, played limbo, the bootleg human version of the hungry hungry hippos game, class cheers/ hype buildup, and the bootleg tortilla throwing. I think I talked about this before, but apparently each class in school received a pack of tortillas (because they're able to be written on and are fairly cheap). Each student is supposed to write their name on their tortilla, then during the rally, there were 4 trashcans. You throw your tortilla from where you sat, and if it makes it into one of the bins, you win a $25 gift-card.
Apparently it's a waste of food, considering it's 3000 tortillas. People have proposed paper airplanes, but like, know one if going to fold 3000 fucking paper airplanes, heh. Also, more food goes to waste in restaurants, than fucking, kids throwing 3000 fucking tortillas, okay, heh. Also apparently they calculated the chances of getting a tortilla in, because out of 1500 students, only around 2 or 3 got in, per rally. Also, people at the bottom of the bleaches get pelted with tortillas from people at the top due to weak throws, heh. But yeah, seeing 1500 tortillas flying through the air, I never thought I'd see it happen in my life. Never wanted to either, but uh, got to see it twice, heh.
I was trying to focus on the games, trying not direct my attention to them as to not get nervous. Because, like I've said before, if I get either too nervous or too hyped, my mind blanks out. I just simply forget all the moves and have to rely on muscle memory. Luckily that did not happen. Our performance was after the hungry hippos game, and uh, people were getting pretty nervous when it came on. I was like "Okay Drew, just say 'Fuck me' over and over again to relieve that nervousness, you've practiced at home multiple times, your muscle memory's got this."
And for the first rally, it did. We lined up in reverse order in the far corners, so when we moved in, it looked, clean. And uh, next thing I knew, I had to smile for 2 minutes, doing Kara's "Mamma Mia," 4Minute's "Hate," and Beyonce's "Formation." Mamma Mia was the one I was worried about since it involved a lot of transitions/ rotations. Crazy, I nailed that shit, and Formation, I knew the moves well, except due to having to get accustomed to the spacing of the gym, not even sure if I was in the right place. But either ways, you seriously cannot tell, like, unless you knew the pattern, like a diagram, you wouldn't even notice.
And so, first rally was over. I didn't die, didn't mess up, I did feel like I could've gone all out a bit more, but considering it's my first rally performance (well first for everybody, literally, since it's KDT's first rally performance in the history of KDT), I'll let it slide. Everyone else exited back to class, we sat and waited for the next rally, which took about 5 minutes. Same shit happened except different people playing the games, and second round of tortillas flying. And what a funny coincidence, I wasn't even trying to look for Yn while in my seat, and I somehow got to see her walk in and sit down.
I messaged her "Hey, I see you," but she didn't respond 'till after the rally. She then messaged me "oh I didn't see you lol, But I saw you during the dance thing XD. Is that what you said would happen on Friday??" I couldn't believe she remembered about that shit. But also, what an amazing coincidental mention for my cover-up, heh. "Umm yeah xD." Could've have saved it any better..
Anyways, second round of dancing, was pretty good. I did however spin the wrong way for Mamma Mia, when I was strictly reminding myself "Okay Drew, spin clockwise for first Mamma Mia spin, then clockwise again, then clockwise for Formation." Now that I think about it, it was the exact same direction, but whatever, I was under pressure, heh. I was reassured that nobody even noticed, like maybe people who were watching me for the whole thing, or, whatever, maybe. But since they were focused on me, they didn't focus on anybody else so- you know what, nobody noticed I messed up unless I acted like it, which I didn't so it was good.
Like I was saying, I was reassured that nobody knew I messed up. They saw me, but about 99.9% of people did not pay enough attention to know that it was a mess up. Plus, others had worse. One person had to jump over another person's leg to get to her spot, another forgot that we were doing Crazy so she sat down immediately for Formation. But again, it's so small that nobody will notice, did notice, or will remember. That only applies to the rally though, with show performances, it's more organized, so uh, yeah, maybe they'll notice.
Anyways, that rant on noticing mistakes went on for way too long. Too wrap this post up, we finished the dance, took pictures with MASTI afterwards, headed to lunch 'cause we were all hot and hungry. Ek recorded me, like, damn. Jk apparently was like "AY DAS MY HOMMIE DREW RIGHT THERE" and uh, apparently my math teacher said that she wished I was her son, that I danced so well. I was like "Oh, my. God. Never in my life would I have thought I'd hear that." But yeah, US History was just Chromebooks to research and do a bootleg mini comic book on events from the 1960's.
And, Chinese class was more bonding time. And people saying they saw me dance, heh. It's weird, okay. And after school was practice for some songs I'm not in, formations for BTS' "Dope" and 4Minute's "Hate." The VSA show is next week, I'm going to the dentist tomorrow, shopping for clothes tomorrow for the VSA performance, my buddy Ec's on spring break and probably coming to my house on Sunday, and uh, yeah. Still got some work to do, but, ya'll know I wait to do it. So, I spent a total of about 2 hours on this post. Actually an hour thirty. It's 11:42 PM right now, thankfully it is the weekend. Alrighty, what a day, what a day. Oh yeah, the Trojan Olympics was tonight, umm, not sure who won. Umm, I didn't have a ticket so I didn't go. Tickets were apparently sold out, but those who still had 'em sold them for like, $30 each instead of the regular $10.
Pre-ordering tickets, before the day of the event, would've been like $5. I did not know they were in such high demand, but only after the rally hype. Otherwise, I would've scalped the shit out of 'em, heh. I mean, you could potentially pay for your prom ticket through this, come on. Anyways, enough talking, that'll be it for today. See ya.
Week: 32
Songs to Remember: Fly - GOT7
I honestly do not remember how I felt in the past when I was at the 2 Trojan Olympics rallies in my freshman and sophomore year (also I don't wanna search through 750+ posts). I don't think I was really that spirited during those times compared to, well, today. Probably because I was hyped up from performing with KDT as a group, and so, their spirited natures rubbed off on me, I don't know.
But it was different, I can say that for sure. Anyways, the whole day felt pretty, long? Short? I'm not used to sitting in the gym with my fellow KDT members, participating in cheers, having to smile for 2 minutes straight, get nervous for a rally, excited for a rally, and of course perform in front of half the school, twice, in the most hyped rally of the school year.
So let's break the whole day down. First, Psychology, where we got Chromebooks to work on our peer presentations on a Psychological disorder. Boom, done. English, we go over the first couple pages of "The Great Gatsby," the cover, some background info, etc. Nothing special. Break, this is where it gets juicy. I'm hanging out at the old spot with DrewN, Vb, Bh, all those guys. I notice it's 1-minute 'till break's over, I head on over to the green, which was like, right there. Bell rings, I see about half of KDT there.
They're like "Damn, I like that class color accessory" and all that, heh. I had no pink clothing or accessory whatsoever in my house. Basically. It wasn't 'till like 12 at night or something, I was snooping around to find something pink, I notice a pink fabric strip on one of my mom's doll toy, collectible, antique, thing? It did not fit my wrist, that's how small it was. So, I used tape, and wore that thing for the whole day. It was pretty noticeable to be honest, heh. Believe it or not, I wasn't the only one who couldn't find an article of pink clothing.
We all head inside the theater, sat down on the bleaches, the middle of where all the seniors and freshmen sit. It was essentially a rectangle divided in half. The top left half of the rectangle was where the sophomores sit, the top right was the juniors, bottom left the freshmen, and bottom right the seniors. This was during 3rd period, aka, preparation for the hellstorm, because shit was fucking crazy. The activity director's microphone was so fucking loud, we barely heard each other in our group.
We sat there, talk a bit about which direction we're facing, formations, when to go on, etc, etc. It was literally just one runthrough. Aka, they do a mock run of the whole thing. So, we only got to practice, once. It wasn't that great to be honest, due to us having to adjust to the size of the gym, how we're all a little bit more spaced out than when we practiced, etc. And soon enough, it was 4th period, the double 4th period, and it was the start of the real rally.
They had a bootleg video of last year's rally, played limbo, the bootleg human version of the hungry hungry hippos game, class cheers/ hype buildup, and the bootleg tortilla throwing. I think I talked about this before, but apparently each class in school received a pack of tortillas (because they're able to be written on and are fairly cheap). Each student is supposed to write their name on their tortilla, then during the rally, there were 4 trashcans. You throw your tortilla from where you sat, and if it makes it into one of the bins, you win a $25 gift-card.
Apparently it's a waste of food, considering it's 3000 tortillas. People have proposed paper airplanes, but like, know one if going to fold 3000 fucking paper airplanes, heh. Also, more food goes to waste in restaurants, than fucking, kids throwing 3000 fucking tortillas, okay, heh. Also apparently they calculated the chances of getting a tortilla in, because out of 1500 students, only around 2 or 3 got in, per rally. Also, people at the bottom of the bleaches get pelted with tortillas from people at the top due to weak throws, heh. But yeah, seeing 1500 tortillas flying through the air, I never thought I'd see it happen in my life. Never wanted to either, but uh, got to see it twice, heh.
I was trying to focus on the games, trying not direct my attention to them as to not get nervous. Because, like I've said before, if I get either too nervous or too hyped, my mind blanks out. I just simply forget all the moves and have to rely on muscle memory. Luckily that did not happen. Our performance was after the hungry hippos game, and uh, people were getting pretty nervous when it came on. I was like "Okay Drew, just say 'Fuck me' over and over again to relieve that nervousness, you've practiced at home multiple times, your muscle memory's got this."
And for the first rally, it did. We lined up in reverse order in the far corners, so when we moved in, it looked, clean. And uh, next thing I knew, I had to smile for 2 minutes, doing Kara's "Mamma Mia," 4Minute's "Hate," and Beyonce's "Formation." Mamma Mia was the one I was worried about since it involved a lot of transitions/ rotations. Crazy, I nailed that shit, and Formation, I knew the moves well, except due to having to get accustomed to the spacing of the gym, not even sure if I was in the right place. But either ways, you seriously cannot tell, like, unless you knew the pattern, like a diagram, you wouldn't even notice.
And so, first rally was over. I didn't die, didn't mess up, I did feel like I could've gone all out a bit more, but considering it's my first rally performance (well first for everybody, literally, since it's KDT's first rally performance in the history of KDT), I'll let it slide. Everyone else exited back to class, we sat and waited for the next rally, which took about 5 minutes. Same shit happened except different people playing the games, and second round of tortillas flying. And what a funny coincidence, I wasn't even trying to look for Yn while in my seat, and I somehow got to see her walk in and sit down.
I messaged her "Hey, I see you," but she didn't respond 'till after the rally. She then messaged me "oh I didn't see you lol, But I saw you during the dance thing XD. Is that what you said would happen on Friday??" I couldn't believe she remembered about that shit. But also, what an amazing coincidental mention for my cover-up, heh. "Umm yeah xD." Could've have saved it any better..
Anyways, second round of dancing, was pretty good. I did however spin the wrong way for Mamma Mia, when I was strictly reminding myself "Okay Drew, spin clockwise for first Mamma Mia spin, then clockwise again, then clockwise for Formation." Now that I think about it, it was the exact same direction, but whatever, I was under pressure, heh. I was reassured that nobody even noticed, like maybe people who were watching me for the whole thing, or, whatever, maybe. But since they were focused on me, they didn't focus on anybody else so- you know what, nobody noticed I messed up unless I acted like it, which I didn't so it was good.
Like I was saying, I was reassured that nobody knew I messed up. They saw me, but about 99.9% of people did not pay enough attention to know that it was a mess up. Plus, others had worse. One person had to jump over another person's leg to get to her spot, another forgot that we were doing Crazy so she sat down immediately for Formation. But again, it's so small that nobody will notice, did notice, or will remember. That only applies to the rally though, with show performances, it's more organized, so uh, yeah, maybe they'll notice.
Anyways, that rant on noticing mistakes went on for way too long. Too wrap this post up, we finished the dance, took pictures with MASTI afterwards, headed to lunch 'cause we were all hot and hungry. Ek recorded me, like, damn. Jk apparently was like "AY DAS MY HOMMIE DREW RIGHT THERE" and uh, apparently my math teacher said that she wished I was her son, that I danced so well. I was like "Oh, my. God. Never in my life would I have thought I'd hear that." But yeah, US History was just Chromebooks to research and do a bootleg mini comic book on events from the 1960's.
And, Chinese class was more bonding time. And people saying they saw me dance, heh. It's weird, okay. And after school was practice for some songs I'm not in, formations for BTS' "Dope" and 4Minute's "Hate." The VSA show is next week, I'm going to the dentist tomorrow, shopping for clothes tomorrow for the VSA performance, my buddy Ec's on spring break and probably coming to my house on Sunday, and uh, yeah. Still got some work to do, but, ya'll know I wait to do it. So, I spent a total of about 2 hours on this post. Actually an hour thirty. It's 11:42 PM right now, thankfully it is the weekend. Alrighty, what a day, what a day. Oh yeah, the Trojan Olympics was tonight, umm, not sure who won. Umm, I didn't have a ticket so I didn't go. Tickets were apparently sold out, but those who still had 'em sold them for like, $30 each instead of the regular $10.
Pre-ordering tickets, before the day of the event, would've been like $5. I did not know they were in such high demand, but only after the rally hype. Otherwise, I would've scalped the shit out of 'em, heh. I mean, you could potentially pay for your prom ticket through this, come on. Anyways, enough talking, that'll be it for today. See ya.
Thursday, March 24, 2016 "Without a Doubt."
Thursday, March 24, 2016
Week: 32
Songs to Remember: Quit Playing - U-KISS
I probably should've written this post sooner, rather than at 12:27 AM, but whatever. Also to provide another example of my music identifying skills, I remembered 2 songs of which I knew the romanization to, of just one part of the chorus', and couldn't figure out for the life of me. Until, I thought harder and actually remembered them. U-KISS's "Quit Playing" and Infinite H's "As Long As You're Not Crazy." Holy shit, was I impressed with myself, heh.
Psychology was just notes, English was just discussion on creating bootleg photo poems. Biology was just free time (for a practice worksheet I put off in order to study for math). Math was a test, of which hopefully, I did well on. I think I did well. Lunch was lunch, US History was just paper-folding and watching like the trailer for the new Batman Vs. Superman movie, of which my teacher is sorta a big Batman fan.
Chinese was more of the "Here's your time to shine, Drew" sorta period. The dude sitting in front of me was absent today, and uh, we had Chromebooks. One of the assignments today was to download this bootleg camera filter app that like, tracks faces and puts bootleg ones. So, had some fun with that, interacted A LOT, with the girl next to me. I'll just call her Wl for now. I talked a lot more than I'm used to, and that's for a reason.
Yeah, I admit, it was good bonding. And what is this? The 3rd day in these seats? 4th? 4th. Anyways, no practice today. Did work, a tiny bit of League, and a tiny bit of review of the dances, making sure I wasn't spinning in the wrong direction, whatnot. Oh and uh, this whole I was like "Yeah, I don't feel like asking Yn to prom anymore." This occurred first in like, the morning, mostly because doing something like that is a lot of effort, and in the morning, I dread shit like that.
And so, I messaged Yn one more time if she really does hate prom with all her soul. She gave me another analogy of how she'd breakup with her boyfriend, if she had one, if he asked her to go with him to prom. I then took the chance, hoping she'd understand, and told her "Hmmm alright. I was wondering if you'd like to go as buddies with me to prom but since you hate prom so much, then its okay xD"
She replies "LOL. Im so sorry Drew, I really can't. Its like my mental problem already lol XD. So sorry tho :(, but you still have your friends w you right?" And yeah, I told her I was still going with my buddies so it was alright, no need to worry. And see, from her tone, I knew I was going to get a no, guaranteed, so if I were to put in the effort to ask her tomorrow, I'd say it would've complicated things, especially from her point of view.
Doesn't mean I still won't take chances, I still got plenty more times to take them. Soo, yeah, there's that. Anyways, things will happen, I will guarantee it. But for now, I gotta worry about staying calm during the rally tomorrow, heh. Alright, see ya.
Week: 32
Songs to Remember: Quit Playing - U-KISS
I probably should've written this post sooner, rather than at 12:27 AM, but whatever. Also to provide another example of my music identifying skills, I remembered 2 songs of which I knew the romanization to, of just one part of the chorus', and couldn't figure out for the life of me. Until, I thought harder and actually remembered them. U-KISS's "Quit Playing" and Infinite H's "As Long As You're Not Crazy." Holy shit, was I impressed with myself, heh.
Psychology was just notes, English was just discussion on creating bootleg photo poems. Biology was just free time (for a practice worksheet I put off in order to study for math). Math was a test, of which hopefully, I did well on. I think I did well. Lunch was lunch, US History was just paper-folding and watching like the trailer for the new Batman Vs. Superman movie, of which my teacher is sorta a big Batman fan.
Chinese was more of the "Here's your time to shine, Drew" sorta period. The dude sitting in front of me was absent today, and uh, we had Chromebooks. One of the assignments today was to download this bootleg camera filter app that like, tracks faces and puts bootleg ones. So, had some fun with that, interacted A LOT, with the girl next to me. I'll just call her Wl for now. I talked a lot more than I'm used to, and that's for a reason.
Yeah, I admit, it was good bonding. And what is this? The 3rd day in these seats? 4th? 4th. Anyways, no practice today. Did work, a tiny bit of League, and a tiny bit of review of the dances, making sure I wasn't spinning in the wrong direction, whatnot. Oh and uh, this whole I was like "Yeah, I don't feel like asking Yn to prom anymore." This occurred first in like, the morning, mostly because doing something like that is a lot of effort, and in the morning, I dread shit like that.
And so, I messaged Yn one more time if she really does hate prom with all her soul. She gave me another analogy of how she'd breakup with her boyfriend, if she had one, if he asked her to go with him to prom. I then took the chance, hoping she'd understand, and told her "Hmmm alright. I was wondering if you'd like to go as buddies with me to prom but since you hate prom so much, then its okay xD"
She replies "LOL. Im so sorry Drew, I really can't. Its like my mental problem already lol XD. So sorry tho :(, but you still have your friends w you right?" And yeah, I told her I was still going with my buddies so it was alright, no need to worry. And see, from her tone, I knew I was going to get a no, guaranteed, so if I were to put in the effort to ask her tomorrow, I'd say it would've complicated things, especially from her point of view.
Doesn't mean I still won't take chances, I still got plenty more times to take them. Soo, yeah, there's that. Anyways, things will happen, I will guarantee it. But for now, I gotta worry about staying calm during the rally tomorrow, heh. Alright, see ya.
Wednesday, March 23, 2016
Wednesday, March 23, 2016 "Perspectives."
Wednesday, March 23, 2016
Week: 32
Songs to Remember: Fly - GOT7
Normally I'd be tired as fuck right now and would be lying on the floor trying to take a nap, but I can't because of this one stimulating question that's got me thinking. "Why isn't prom fun?"
The more you think about it, the harder it is to answer. "Well of course it's fun. You dress up all pretty with your friends, dance, spend time with your friends, take pictures, create memories. Why wouldn't it be fun?" And that's the thing. To be honest, I'm all up for spending time with my friends. The dancing thing, I could go without that, and umm, pictures are cool too I guess. But other than that, it's just, hmmm. I can't even explain it, like, what do you do at prom besides those things?
Now this isn't saying I ain't going to prom, I still am. I'm trying to get into the mindset of why prom isn't fun and that doing something else would be a much better way to spend the 5 hours, because, Yn asked me if I was still going to prom, I took my experience from before and told her I'm just going by myself "for now," and uh, she tells me how she does not get why prom is so important to people. She said her friends are forcing her to go (by that she means persuading), even offering to pay for her ticket for her, even going as far as telling her "It's okay if you don't have a boyfriend, just go with friends," which is already a pretty fucking good argument, but alas, she still, and I quote: "Omg, idk how to let them know how much I HATE prom lol"
She made an analogy that even if she had a boyfriend, she would break up with him than to force her to go to prom with him. That's like, ssssss, damn, heh. She says you don't have to create memories with prom, she hates prom because it relates to things she hates, that celebrating the end of high school and going to prom is an American thing, which I agree, and uh, her "favorite person" doesn't go to prom, so, I think I know what she means by that but I don't want her to go into detail about it, and uh, yeah.
I asked her one more time what specifically she hates about prom, she replies: "EVERYTHING ABOUT PROM!! and PROM, and people who tell me to go to prom." Her friends have tried to convince her, I've tried to convince, giving my best fucking, Honors English level of perception and arguments and counterarguments, heh, but, looks like she's not buying it.
It's puzzling for both of us. From her perspective, she doesn't get why people uphold prom as a "must go" or why people like prom so much. From my perspective, I fucking don't get why she wouldn't want to go, even just to hang out with friends. It really is weird, considering I did actually do research on the subject (I know, pretty fucking weird right) and there was barely anything on the phrase "I hate prom." I don't think I could truly understand the hatred for prom without having Yn's mindset.
Incomprehensible to me. I'm assuming it's cultural differences, like, there's no prom or prom portrayal in media in Vietnam, so, just hearing about it recently, one could deem it pretty abnormal. And also, I'd assume that because she grew up in Vietnam, I grew up in the U.S with a somewhat stable finance from my parents. Yn said that highschool isn't that hard, that there are a lot of things that are much harder, and I agree.
And now, after taking like a 1 hour break from thinking 'bout this, I now realize that I'm the one stressing over 'bout this. So what if she hates prom? I won't get a definite answer unless she straight up tells me no. And so what if I might lost out on a potential friend, right? If she chooses to not talk to me anymore because I asked her to prom, hey, it's her decision. I haven't seen her face since what? Since last semester. I don't interact with her at all now besides messaging her. She doesn't even message me unless I message her, so, I literally got nothing to lose. Literally.
That's the fucking spirit, Drew. I mean, you've been through shit like this before! Holy shit, I just realized that now. I went on a limb and told El how I felt ;bout her. Guess what? We don't talk anymore. We're in the same club, we're in the same 6th period class, we're right next to eachother in KDT dances, but we don't talk to each other. And, I found a part of myself that realized "Drew, get the fuck out while you still can. You've got other chances you need to take." Do I regret asking El? No. No. I lost nothing from it anyways, heh.
Gotta use them experiences, Drew, gotta use 'em. Oh and another reason why: she's going off to college, she'll encounter new as hell experiences unlike what she's experienced before. She'll get caught up in all of it, she won't stress out over messaging me, she'll be busy so me messaging her to be like "Hey, how's college going" is just like, whatever really, it's kinda just meh. So keeping the friendship by not asking, like, do I really value it that much? Even though it practically won't last for very long anyways? And who says she won't understand. I could be like "I just wanted a definite answer, no worries, heh. Alright, gotta go practice for the rally, I'll see ya later." Boom, easy, done. One of two crossroads.
Anyways, I talked to Am about it all and she said to just do it, which I also agree. It'll be Friday during break, and uh, just gonna go with it. As for the day, Psych was just notes, English was just some bootleg presentations on 1920's stuff, Biology was just free time on Chromebooks to do this one bootleg online lab. Math was math, test tomorrow by the way, and uh, lunch was lunch. US History was an interesting one. The teacher said that he was planning on taking a trip to Europe and uh, is inviting students to come along. It's sorta like a field trip thing, except it takes place in the next school year, and, it costs around $3200.
He told us stories about his trip about 9 years ago or so with kids from the classes he taught. Apparently he looks for bootleg dares to do while on these trips. Like, for example, "Hey, I'ma give you 8 euros if you, scream 'I love McDonalds' on that balcony there." 'Course, he has to make sure these things are morally good and safe. And pretty fucking bootleg, heh. There was one where he was challenged to convince this girl whom he thought was hot (this was in Switzerland by the way) to let him carry her on his arms and have the students take pictures. She said yeah, heh. Unfortunately, there was a really good pic of it that he liked, but the kid that shot the picture was never able to get him a copy of it, for he was part of a different school's trip. Pretty sad, pretty bootleg at the same time.
And finally Chinese, where we do classwork. After school was practice with MASTI in collaboration for the rally on Friday. Tomorrow there is no practice, so I got some time to rest. 'Cept for the fact that there's a math test and English "quest" tomorrow. And no, haven't studied. Spent the last hour trying to sleep, after having crashed from not having my nap this afternoon. It's 11:32 PM right now, sorta feeling just meh right now. I'll see you tomorrow, see ya.
Week: 32
Songs to Remember: Fly - GOT7
Normally I'd be tired as fuck right now and would be lying on the floor trying to take a nap, but I can't because of this one stimulating question that's got me thinking. "Why isn't prom fun?"
The more you think about it, the harder it is to answer. "Well of course it's fun. You dress up all pretty with your friends, dance, spend time with your friends, take pictures, create memories. Why wouldn't it be fun?" And that's the thing. To be honest, I'm all up for spending time with my friends. The dancing thing, I could go without that, and umm, pictures are cool too I guess. But other than that, it's just, hmmm. I can't even explain it, like, what do you do at prom besides those things?
Now this isn't saying I ain't going to prom, I still am. I'm trying to get into the mindset of why prom isn't fun and that doing something else would be a much better way to spend the 5 hours, because, Yn asked me if I was still going to prom, I took my experience from before and told her I'm just going by myself "for now," and uh, she tells me how she does not get why prom is so important to people. She said her friends are forcing her to go (by that she means persuading), even offering to pay for her ticket for her, even going as far as telling her "It's okay if you don't have a boyfriend, just go with friends," which is already a pretty fucking good argument, but alas, she still, and I quote: "Omg, idk how to let them know how much I HATE prom lol"
She made an analogy that even if she had a boyfriend, she would break up with him than to force her to go to prom with him. That's like, ssssss, damn, heh. She says you don't have to create memories with prom, she hates prom because it relates to things she hates, that celebrating the end of high school and going to prom is an American thing, which I agree, and uh, her "favorite person" doesn't go to prom, so, I think I know what she means by that but I don't want her to go into detail about it, and uh, yeah.
I asked her one more time what specifically she hates about prom, she replies: "EVERYTHING ABOUT PROM!! and PROM, and people who tell me to go to prom." Her friends have tried to convince her, I've tried to convince, giving my best fucking, Honors English level of perception and arguments and counterarguments, heh, but, looks like she's not buying it.
It's puzzling for both of us. From her perspective, she doesn't get why people uphold prom as a "must go" or why people like prom so much. From my perspective, I fucking don't get why she wouldn't want to go, even just to hang out with friends. It really is weird, considering I did actually do research on the subject (I know, pretty fucking weird right) and there was barely anything on the phrase "I hate prom." I don't think I could truly understand the hatred for prom without having Yn's mindset.
Incomprehensible to me. I'm assuming it's cultural differences, like, there's no prom or prom portrayal in media in Vietnam, so, just hearing about it recently, one could deem it pretty abnormal. And also, I'd assume that because she grew up in Vietnam, I grew up in the U.S with a somewhat stable finance from my parents. Yn said that highschool isn't that hard, that there are a lot of things that are much harder, and I agree.
And now, after taking like a 1 hour break from thinking 'bout this, I now realize that I'm the one stressing over 'bout this. So what if she hates prom? I won't get a definite answer unless she straight up tells me no. And so what if I might lost out on a potential friend, right? If she chooses to not talk to me anymore because I asked her to prom, hey, it's her decision. I haven't seen her face since what? Since last semester. I don't interact with her at all now besides messaging her. She doesn't even message me unless I message her, so, I literally got nothing to lose. Literally.
That's the fucking spirit, Drew. I mean, you've been through shit like this before! Holy shit, I just realized that now. I went on a limb and told El how I felt ;bout her. Guess what? We don't talk anymore. We're in the same club, we're in the same 6th period class, we're right next to eachother in KDT dances, but we don't talk to each other. And, I found a part of myself that realized "Drew, get the fuck out while you still can. You've got other chances you need to take." Do I regret asking El? No. No. I lost nothing from it anyways, heh.
Gotta use them experiences, Drew, gotta use 'em. Oh and another reason why: she's going off to college, she'll encounter new as hell experiences unlike what she's experienced before. She'll get caught up in all of it, she won't stress out over messaging me, she'll be busy so me messaging her to be like "Hey, how's college going" is just like, whatever really, it's kinda just meh. So keeping the friendship by not asking, like, do I really value it that much? Even though it practically won't last for very long anyways? And who says she won't understand. I could be like "I just wanted a definite answer, no worries, heh. Alright, gotta go practice for the rally, I'll see ya later." Boom, easy, done. One of two crossroads.
Anyways, I talked to Am about it all and she said to just do it, which I also agree. It'll be Friday during break, and uh, just gonna go with it. As for the day, Psych was just notes, English was just some bootleg presentations on 1920's stuff, Biology was just free time on Chromebooks to do this one bootleg online lab. Math was math, test tomorrow by the way, and uh, lunch was lunch. US History was an interesting one. The teacher said that he was planning on taking a trip to Europe and uh, is inviting students to come along. It's sorta like a field trip thing, except it takes place in the next school year, and, it costs around $3200.
He told us stories about his trip about 9 years ago or so with kids from the classes he taught. Apparently he looks for bootleg dares to do while on these trips. Like, for example, "Hey, I'ma give you 8 euros if you, scream 'I love McDonalds' on that balcony there." 'Course, he has to make sure these things are morally good and safe. And pretty fucking bootleg, heh. There was one where he was challenged to convince this girl whom he thought was hot (this was in Switzerland by the way) to let him carry her on his arms and have the students take pictures. She said yeah, heh. Unfortunately, there was a really good pic of it that he liked, but the kid that shot the picture was never able to get him a copy of it, for he was part of a different school's trip. Pretty sad, pretty bootleg at the same time.
And finally Chinese, where we do classwork. After school was practice with MASTI in collaboration for the rally on Friday. Tomorrow there is no practice, so I got some time to rest. 'Cept for the fact that there's a math test and English "quest" tomorrow. And no, haven't studied. Spent the last hour trying to sleep, after having crashed from not having my nap this afternoon. It's 11:32 PM right now, sorta feeling just meh right now. I'll see you tomorrow, see ya.
Tuesday, March 22, 2016 "Seems Fine."
Tuesday, March 22, 2016
Week: 32
Songs to Remember: Be Right There - Diplo and Sleepy Tom
That feel when you get a 40/50 on a Psych test and your grade goes up by 4%. Feels good man. Now, if only that could happen in Bio.
Psych was what you'd expect: a test. English was just a discussion on the 1920's and using Chromebooks to create bootleg slide presentations on a topic from the 1920's. Break was break, Bio was just free time again (with a practice sheet I actually completed for once, with the help of Ct. Not sure if I used her name for somebody else yet). Math was math, and lunch was lunch.
I asked Ek if she'd be fine with a DIY corsage. I suggested to Ec that he could just make one, it'd be more unique, plus it's cheaper (or so I thought) but he was pretty skeptical about it. Ek said that she'd be okay with it, as long as she gets to see what it looks like beforehand.
I like DIY stuff. The only thing is: I have no experience with making a corsage. Corsages. I'm probably gonna end up just getting one off online, but, who knows. Anyways, US History was just notes on events from the 40's up to the 60's and on-wards through the Cold War. Chinese was just whatever, hand signs practice with the vocab, along with interaction between my group members/
After school was an hour of practice for the rally on Friday. It seemed fine, I know the moves, just gotta work a bit on making it look good, execution, and it'll be dandy. I also messaged Yn today, but she still has yet to respond. Umm, so, that means I'ma have to ask her on Friday, during lunch, right after the rally. Yes, I'm gonna go through with it, while I still got this motivation. And there's that saying: what the fuck could go wrong right? If she says yeah, then I win. If no, then fucking, I'm still going to prom with my hommies. Also, it'll be no biggie, 'cause she'll understand. Hopefully, heh.
So yeah. Everything's definitely up for chance here. It's 12:27 AM, gonna go to sleep. Also, gotta make note that $20 is owed for photo-shoot, okay $30, for photo-shoot and corsage. I mean boutonniere. I'm buying the boutonniere, because I don't think Yn will get me one, heh. Shit, I forgot about whatever the fuck they were before Mc brang it up. Anyways, see ya.
Week: 32
Songs to Remember: Be Right There - Diplo and Sleepy Tom
That feel when you get a 40/50 on a Psych test and your grade goes up by 4%. Feels good man. Now, if only that could happen in Bio.
Psych was what you'd expect: a test. English was just a discussion on the 1920's and using Chromebooks to create bootleg slide presentations on a topic from the 1920's. Break was break, Bio was just free time again (with a practice sheet I actually completed for once, with the help of Ct. Not sure if I used her name for somebody else yet). Math was math, and lunch was lunch.
I asked Ek if she'd be fine with a DIY corsage. I suggested to Ec that he could just make one, it'd be more unique, plus it's cheaper (or so I thought) but he was pretty skeptical about it. Ek said that she'd be okay with it, as long as she gets to see what it looks like beforehand.
I like DIY stuff. The only thing is: I have no experience with making a corsage. Corsages. I'm probably gonna end up just getting one off online, but, who knows. Anyways, US History was just notes on events from the 40's up to the 60's and on-wards through the Cold War. Chinese was just whatever, hand signs practice with the vocab, along with interaction between my group members/
After school was an hour of practice for the rally on Friday. It seemed fine, I know the moves, just gotta work a bit on making it look good, execution, and it'll be dandy. I also messaged Yn today, but she still has yet to respond. Umm, so, that means I'ma have to ask her on Friday, during lunch, right after the rally. Yes, I'm gonna go through with it, while I still got this motivation. And there's that saying: what the fuck could go wrong right? If she says yeah, then I win. If no, then fucking, I'm still going to prom with my hommies. Also, it'll be no biggie, 'cause she'll understand. Hopefully, heh.
So yeah. Everything's definitely up for chance here. It's 12:27 AM, gonna go to sleep. Also, gotta make note that $20 is owed for photo-shoot, okay $30, for photo-shoot and corsage. I mean boutonniere. I'm buying the boutonniere, because I don't think Yn will get me one, heh. Shit, I forgot about whatever the fuck they were before Mc brang it up. Anyways, see ya.
Tuesday, March 22, 2016
Monday, March 21, 2016 "Very Good."
Monday, March 21, 2016
Week: 32
Songs to Remember: Be Right There (Boombox Cartel Remix) - Diplo and Sleepy Tom, Fly - GOT7
Today I learned what the word "exempt' means. I mean, I already sorta knew what it meant, it means "aside from, excluded." In the official KDT VSA show lineup list, my name was under "Exempt" for BTS' "Dope" dance. I was concerned 'till I read the part that said "By being exempt, you are in the show with us." My reaction was, and I quote: "WOOOOOOOOOOOO"
Let's start from the beginning of the day, shall we. Psychology was just a practice quiz, then free time to work on notes and study. English was actually interesting for once. We discussed the school newspaper, the one that was passed out last week that was the April Fool's edition with satirical articles. Apparently some articles caused a lot of controversy, not to students, but to the fucking staff. Like, really? Students, they're laughing their asses off to this, me included 'cause some of it was pretty clever, but uh, guess the administration took it differently.
There was an article that was supposed to be a television show review. The fake television show was called "Keeping Up With the Admins," a parody of the show "Keeping Up With the Kardashians." But, guess the admins haven't heard of that show. Anyways, the articles pokes fun at some of the staff members, who are portrayed as if they were the Kardashian characters. The staff thought they were personally attacked, when all it really was was supposed to be a parody of a show, and, it's a fucking April Fool's day edition of the fucking school newspaper. It'll literally blow away in a week, and, it's satire, a concept some people are not able to grasp.
That's my take on it anyways. Umm, we picked up our new books we're gonna be reading. It's "The Great Gatsy" so, uh, finally something less depressing than Beloved. Or, The Night Thoreau Spent in Jail. We also had other people read our one-pager memoirs we had to write. Biology, there was a lecture and a quiz. Shittiest thing about it all: the quiz was only 2 multiple choice questions. So, it's either an F, or an A. Simple as that. Sucked for me 'cause I got only one out of two of them right, and shit's weighted in Bio, so, my grade instantly went down 1% 'cause of that. And no, the teacher still has yet to put in grades for our other test and projects so far.
Math was just math, lunch was lunch, actually, DrewN and I went to the gym during lunch to watch the Badminton intramural's. Ek and Ag were in it. DrewN decided he wanted to play too, so uh, yeah. I wished there was something like a Yu-Gi-Oh intramural, just so that there was something I could play that I know that I'm good at, heh.
US History was just watching an hour-long documentary of Oswald's supposed mistress. Not sure if it's the movie, or me, because I had trouble staying awake. I think it's the movie, other classes I didn- well, Biology I had trouble staying awake in too, but. Yeah, I think it's the material. Anyways, for Chinese there were new seats and uh, I got #11. At this point i was like "Whatever" for whomever I sat next to me.
That was until we all got seated. I have Mt sitting in the back of me, this one dude who I did not know the name of until today. Apparently he's in my math class too. He sits next to Mt, this dude who sat in front of me in the last group sits next to me to my right, we're all sitting in the bottom right corner of the classroom, group #3. And uh, I knew the teacher was gonna move either me or the dude next to me since we both were (technically not but whatever) in the same team last lesson.
Also the teacher would've moved us anyways since we're both dudes, and she sits us in a boy/girl pattern. So, I stayed, awesome, and this one girl now sits next to me. She sat in front of me once during lesson, uh, 12 or something. Don't remember. I remember it was during one of the times when I had a god seat before. Anyways, not bad. Our group so far is pretty interactive, like, everybody, and that's what I like. If I interact, I get the same if not more interaction from others, and I don't have to be overly-enthusiastic to get interaction from my group members.
Also, that one freshman in our class sits in front of me, just to mention. He considers me a buddy, so I do the same, heh. And so, as a group, we came up with ideas for a project to do this lesson. This lesson's about sickness, so uh, I suggested we do a live autopsy and report on the cause of death, time, anatomy of the subject, written in Chinese. Each group had to go up to the front and present their group's ideas. Apparently the teacher liked mine's the best, I'm not sure she knows what an autopsy is, heh.
But anyways, after school was practice, specifically "Dope" evaluations for those who weren't in the A6 performance. That was at 4:30 PM. In the meantime, people were doing formations for "Twice" and "My Baby," while others practiced "Dope," like me. I actually broke down the dance in pieces, in slow motion, watched it all on my phone, and did it exactly as how I saw it. I refined it during that hour and a half that I was there, and uh, it definitely paid off.
I discovered i was doing the foot thing wrong, I didn't actually see how it was really supposed to be done. No wonder it seemed easier for everybody, heh. I was like "How the fuck do they all do it so well." Well, now I know. 4:30 PM approached, we did evaluations, I calmed myself down so I could focus on executing my moves instead of being nervous and focus on not forgetting the moves, heh. I did my best, we moved on and it was time for "Hate" practice, just a bit. Then moved onto VSA show runthrough. Like, the whole thing.
And yeah, I agree, it was a disaster, heh. The KDT club president didn't really like how we looked, being confused on some moves, skipping some moves, missing our spots, etc. And, I could see why considering the show is literally next week. The rest of this week is pretty much dedicated to the rally on Friday, in which, I'm sorta ready for, about a 7/10 at most.
At home, the VSA lineup was posted, I saw my name under "Exempt," read the rulings and all that, turns, I'M IN BABY. Like, damn did it feel good. I also saw that there were people under "Conditionally in" which meant I guess they didn't sign up or something, or missed some practices, and so they gotta submit a video performance of themselves to prove that they know the dance.
Oh and uh, surprisingly, reading off the names for the "Exempt" list for "Dope", apparently only 13 people are guaranteed in so far. There's like 7 people conditionally in, so, there's that. Also, apparently there's only 6 songs for VSA after cutting "SUBOI." So, technically I'm in 1/3 of the show now, heh. "Dope" and "Hate" are also the last 2 songs of the mix, so that means I'll be in the ending, like, pose thing, heh.
Wait no, fucking, there's only 5 songs in total. The VSA staff totally fucked us over. So uh, technically I'm in 2/5 of the performance now, heh. Oh yeah, almost forgot to add, Ln messaged me today, congratulating me on making it in for "Dope." She told me that she saw how well I did and was like "I knew you were gonna make it in, for sure." Apparently I improved "110%, heh. It was a nice word of encouragement, and uh, that's another thing that keeps me going. Thanks Ln.
But right now, gotta finish some English work, then, off to bed. You know what I just noticed? I got a really positive outlook on the upcoming events happening this week and next. I learned this in Psychology before, forgot what it was but, I know I learned it. I feel like I can be more, productive, focused. And uh, I think it's due to how I made it to the list of performers for "Dope," I really do. And, the atmosphere in some of my classes now. Friendly environments, no kidding. And if you don't know what I'm referring to, it's Chinese and US History. Rest are kinda, meh, or shit, heh.
Also, my buddy Ec has spring break starting this Friday. Which means, he might wanna come to my house. He's planning on to. I mean, why the fuck not. It's spring break, right? For my school it's like, next, next week. Also, guess what. It's March 21st, as in, March is almost over. What, the, fuck. I gotta act now, quickly before my motivation (that's the word I was looking for from Psychology. Motivation) runs out. Alrighty, enough typing, back to writing. See ya.
Week: 32
Songs to Remember: Be Right There (Boombox Cartel Remix) - Diplo and Sleepy Tom, Fly - GOT7
Today I learned what the word "exempt' means. I mean, I already sorta knew what it meant, it means "aside from, excluded." In the official KDT VSA show lineup list, my name was under "Exempt" for BTS' "Dope" dance. I was concerned 'till I read the part that said "By being exempt, you are in the show with us." My reaction was, and I quote: "WOOOOOOOOOOOO"
Let's start from the beginning of the day, shall we. Psychology was just a practice quiz, then free time to work on notes and study. English was actually interesting for once. We discussed the school newspaper, the one that was passed out last week that was the April Fool's edition with satirical articles. Apparently some articles caused a lot of controversy, not to students, but to the fucking staff. Like, really? Students, they're laughing their asses off to this, me included 'cause some of it was pretty clever, but uh, guess the administration took it differently.
There was an article that was supposed to be a television show review. The fake television show was called "Keeping Up With the Admins," a parody of the show "Keeping Up With the Kardashians." But, guess the admins haven't heard of that show. Anyways, the articles pokes fun at some of the staff members, who are portrayed as if they were the Kardashian characters. The staff thought they were personally attacked, when all it really was was supposed to be a parody of a show, and, it's a fucking April Fool's day edition of the fucking school newspaper. It'll literally blow away in a week, and, it's satire, a concept some people are not able to grasp.
That's my take on it anyways. Umm, we picked up our new books we're gonna be reading. It's "The Great Gatsy" so, uh, finally something less depressing than Beloved. Or, The Night Thoreau Spent in Jail. We also had other people read our one-pager memoirs we had to write. Biology, there was a lecture and a quiz. Shittiest thing about it all: the quiz was only 2 multiple choice questions. So, it's either an F, or an A. Simple as that. Sucked for me 'cause I got only one out of two of them right, and shit's weighted in Bio, so, my grade instantly went down 1% 'cause of that. And no, the teacher still has yet to put in grades for our other test and projects so far.
Math was just math, lunch was lunch, actually, DrewN and I went to the gym during lunch to watch the Badminton intramural's. Ek and Ag were in it. DrewN decided he wanted to play too, so uh, yeah. I wished there was something like a Yu-Gi-Oh intramural, just so that there was something I could play that I know that I'm good at, heh.
US History was just watching an hour-long documentary of Oswald's supposed mistress. Not sure if it's the movie, or me, because I had trouble staying awake. I think it's the movie, other classes I didn- well, Biology I had trouble staying awake in too, but. Yeah, I think it's the material. Anyways, for Chinese there were new seats and uh, I got #11. At this point i was like "Whatever" for whomever I sat next to me.
That was until we all got seated. I have Mt sitting in the back of me, this one dude who I did not know the name of until today. Apparently he's in my math class too. He sits next to Mt, this dude who sat in front of me in the last group sits next to me to my right, we're all sitting in the bottom right corner of the classroom, group #3. And uh, I knew the teacher was gonna move either me or the dude next to me since we both were (technically not but whatever) in the same team last lesson.
Also the teacher would've moved us anyways since we're both dudes, and she sits us in a boy/girl pattern. So, I stayed, awesome, and this one girl now sits next to me. She sat in front of me once during lesson, uh, 12 or something. Don't remember. I remember it was during one of the times when I had a god seat before. Anyways, not bad. Our group so far is pretty interactive, like, everybody, and that's what I like. If I interact, I get the same if not more interaction from others, and I don't have to be overly-enthusiastic to get interaction from my group members.
Also, that one freshman in our class sits in front of me, just to mention. He considers me a buddy, so I do the same, heh. And so, as a group, we came up with ideas for a project to do this lesson. This lesson's about sickness, so uh, I suggested we do a live autopsy and report on the cause of death, time, anatomy of the subject, written in Chinese. Each group had to go up to the front and present their group's ideas. Apparently the teacher liked mine's the best, I'm not sure she knows what an autopsy is, heh.
But anyways, after school was practice, specifically "Dope" evaluations for those who weren't in the A6 performance. That was at 4:30 PM. In the meantime, people were doing formations for "Twice" and "My Baby," while others practiced "Dope," like me. I actually broke down the dance in pieces, in slow motion, watched it all on my phone, and did it exactly as how I saw it. I refined it during that hour and a half that I was there, and uh, it definitely paid off.
I discovered i was doing the foot thing wrong, I didn't actually see how it was really supposed to be done. No wonder it seemed easier for everybody, heh. I was like "How the fuck do they all do it so well." Well, now I know. 4:30 PM approached, we did evaluations, I calmed myself down so I could focus on executing my moves instead of being nervous and focus on not forgetting the moves, heh. I did my best, we moved on and it was time for "Hate" practice, just a bit. Then moved onto VSA show runthrough. Like, the whole thing.
And yeah, I agree, it was a disaster, heh. The KDT club president didn't really like how we looked, being confused on some moves, skipping some moves, missing our spots, etc. And, I could see why considering the show is literally next week. The rest of this week is pretty much dedicated to the rally on Friday, in which, I'm sorta ready for, about a 7/10 at most.
At home, the VSA lineup was posted, I saw my name under "Exempt," read the rulings and all that, turns, I'M IN BABY. Like, damn did it feel good. I also saw that there were people under "Conditionally in" which meant I guess they didn't sign up or something, or missed some practices, and so they gotta submit a video performance of themselves to prove that they know the dance.
Oh and uh, surprisingly, reading off the names for the "Exempt" list for "Dope", apparently only 13 people are guaranteed in so far. There's like 7 people conditionally in, so, there's that. Also, apparently there's only 6 songs for VSA after cutting "SUBOI." So, technically I'm in 1/3 of the show now, heh. "Dope" and "Hate" are also the last 2 songs of the mix, so that means I'll be in the ending, like, pose thing, heh.
Wait no, fucking, there's only 5 songs in total. The VSA staff totally fucked us over. So uh, technically I'm in 2/5 of the performance now, heh. Oh yeah, almost forgot to add, Ln messaged me today, congratulating me on making it in for "Dope." She told me that she saw how well I did and was like "I knew you were gonna make it in, for sure." Apparently I improved "110%, heh. It was a nice word of encouragement, and uh, that's another thing that keeps me going. Thanks Ln.
But right now, gotta finish some English work, then, off to bed. You know what I just noticed? I got a really positive outlook on the upcoming events happening this week and next. I learned this in Psychology before, forgot what it was but, I know I learned it. I feel like I can be more, productive, focused. And uh, I think it's due to how I made it to the list of performers for "Dope," I really do. And, the atmosphere in some of my classes now. Friendly environments, no kidding. And if you don't know what I'm referring to, it's Chinese and US History. Rest are kinda, meh, or shit, heh.
Also, my buddy Ec has spring break starting this Friday. Which means, he might wanna come to my house. He's planning on to. I mean, why the fuck not. It's spring break, right? For my school it's like, next, next week. Also, guess what. It's March 21st, as in, March is almost over. What, the, fuck. I gotta act now, quickly before my motivation (that's the word I was looking for from Psychology. Motivation) runs out. Alrighty, enough typing, back to writing. See ya.
Monday, March 21, 2016
Sunday, March 20, 2016 "Mine."
Sunday, March 20, 2016
Week: 31
Songs to Remember: Fly - Got7
So I'm hoping to do accomplish 2 things that I've never done before for this upcoming week. One, an unfortunate uh, "promposal," and two, perform in a school pride rally, in front of, back of, and to the side of, literally the whole school.
I'm willing to put in the effort as long as I know the outcomes are worth it, and to me, they are. Anyways, finished work, played Minecraft with my buddies, umm, grinded on Card Wars, watched a lot of random videos, laid down for a bit, not nap, because of how I always take naps from 5:00 PM to 7:00 PM on weekdays and so in used to feeling tired during these times. I really need caffeine, like, I know it's bad, but, shit, I'd be more productive with it to be honest, like I don't know, practice my dances.
And so, not much to expect tomorrow except, Psych test on Tuesday, and uh, just whatever else for the my other classes. Oh and I forgot to mention, there were a lot of pictures uploaded from KDT's A6 show performance. A lot of before pics, of them just hanging out and shit. Yes it did make me a little depressed, like, why didn't we take that many pics at the Unicef show. Bummed out, but the feeling will pass once it gets near the dates for the rally and VSA show. Alrighty, see ya.
Week: 31
Songs to Remember: Fly - Got7
So I'm hoping to do accomplish 2 things that I've never done before for this upcoming week. One, an unfortunate uh, "promposal," and two, perform in a school pride rally, in front of, back of, and to the side of, literally the whole school.
I'm willing to put in the effort as long as I know the outcomes are worth it, and to me, they are. Anyways, finished work, played Minecraft with my buddies, umm, grinded on Card Wars, watched a lot of random videos, laid down for a bit, not nap, because of how I always take naps from 5:00 PM to 7:00 PM on weekdays and so in used to feeling tired during these times. I really need caffeine, like, I know it's bad, but, shit, I'd be more productive with it to be honest, like I don't know, practice my dances.
And so, not much to expect tomorrow except, Psych test on Tuesday, and uh, just whatever else for the my other classes. Oh and I forgot to mention, there were a lot of pictures uploaded from KDT's A6 show performance. A lot of before pics, of them just hanging out and shit. Yes it did make me a little depressed, like, why didn't we take that many pics at the Unicef show. Bummed out, but the feeling will pass once it gets near the dates for the rally and VSA show. Alrighty, see ya.
Sunday, March 20, 2016
Saturday, March 19, 2016 "Postponed Plamning."
Saturday, March 19, 2016
Week: 31
Songs to Remember: Sting - Stellar
I've been making this weekend a lot more relaxing than it needs to be. I !mean, I didn't have to perform with KDT, spend all day in one place. Technically I did stay in one place by staying at home, but, you get what I mean. I'm looking for positives in not performing alright?
To be honest I'm not that bummed out about it. Sure I coulda been there, I visualized myself being right there on stage after they posted footage of the performance onto the Facebook group. But uh, yeah, there were a lot of people who didn't perform at the Unicef Charity dinner, and they didn't feel so bad about it, and I shouldn't be either. Am I a little salty about how they chose a dude who doesn't even do all the moves to be in one of my most wanted to do dances so far instead of me? Yeah. But it's over now, now I gotta worry about the VSA show, which is in a few weeks, and most importantly, the upcoming Trojan Olympics rally (the Trojan Olympics are like a "Batlle of the Classes" sorta thing) which is this Friday. Yeah. The A6 Benefit Show is nothing compared to having the entire (literally) school seeing you perform. From all angles, so you can't even hide behind others, heh.
I did get Chinese work done, umm, still gotta do Bio and English stuff. Fortunately, my buddies and I did play some vanilla Minecraft after a while. It was pretty fun, getting blasted by skeletons and Zombies initially when we didn't have any source of food, heh. Also a bit League too, and uh, some Facebook Messenger Basketball. Yep, this is the future.
Uhh, Yn replied to my previous message, from yesterday. Apparently she went to sleep at 6 yesterday. 6 PM, and woke up at 9 AM. I was like "Holy shit, wish I could sleep for that long." I actually had a good night's sleep last night in fact. When I woke up at like 8:00 AM, I was like "Man did I sleep for a long-ass time." I looked at the time, it was only 8:00 AM, went back to sleep, woke up at 10:30 AM, was like "Damn it felt like I slept forever." Good shit.
Anyways, it's 12:29 AM, see ya.
Week: 31
Songs to Remember: Sting - Stellar
I've been making this weekend a lot more relaxing than it needs to be. I !mean, I didn't have to perform with KDT, spend all day in one place. Technically I did stay in one place by staying at home, but, you get what I mean. I'm looking for positives in not performing alright?
To be honest I'm not that bummed out about it. Sure I coulda been there, I visualized myself being right there on stage after they posted footage of the performance onto the Facebook group. But uh, yeah, there were a lot of people who didn't perform at the Unicef Charity dinner, and they didn't feel so bad about it, and I shouldn't be either. Am I a little salty about how they chose a dude who doesn't even do all the moves to be in one of my most wanted to do dances so far instead of me? Yeah. But it's over now, now I gotta worry about the VSA show, which is in a few weeks, and most importantly, the upcoming Trojan Olympics rally (the Trojan Olympics are like a "Batlle of the Classes" sorta thing) which is this Friday. Yeah. The A6 Benefit Show is nothing compared to having the entire (literally) school seeing you perform. From all angles, so you can't even hide behind others, heh.
I did get Chinese work done, umm, still gotta do Bio and English stuff. Fortunately, my buddies and I did play some vanilla Minecraft after a while. It was pretty fun, getting blasted by skeletons and Zombies initially when we didn't have any source of food, heh. Also a bit League too, and uh, some Facebook Messenger Basketball. Yep, this is the future.
Uhh, Yn replied to my previous message, from yesterday. Apparently she went to sleep at 6 yesterday. 6 PM, and woke up at 9 AM. I was like "Holy shit, wish I could sleep for that long." I actually had a good night's sleep last night in fact. When I woke up at like 8:00 AM, I was like "Man did I sleep for a long-ass time." I looked at the time, it was only 8:00 AM, went back to sleep, woke up at 10:30 AM, was like "Damn it felt like I slept forever." Good shit.
Anyways, it's 12:29 AM, see ya.
Saturday, March 19, 2016
Friday, March 18, 2016 "Legitimately Trying."
Friday, March 18, 2016
Week: 31
Songs to Remember: Wake Me Up (Conte Remix) - Avicii
Productivity came. Err, just some interesting stuff that advanced things forwards, kept things not boring I guess.
Psychology, I have to admit, I did not hate today's Fun Friday as much as others. We had to be in groups, of course, and uh, each group had 20 minutes to do a skit demonstrating a defense mechanism. For us, it was reaction formation, which is, you do the opposite of what you're actually feeling.
One of the examples was that a gay person would act not gay and would openly criticize gays, even though he/she is secretly gay. So, we went with that. And yeah, I had to be the gay guy, heh. I don't have anything against it, it's just that I never though in my life I would have to portray a gay person. When we went up to present, my best lines would have to be "Oh man, I'm gay. I don't want people to find out I'm gay." Words constructed in a way that I'd never though I would say in my life, heh.
It was good though. The teacher liked it, everyone laughed so it was pretty entertaining, I was smiling during the acting so it meant that I was cool with it. When I'm dancing in KDT, I don't smile. Not sure why, it's harder or something. But this time, it's one of the times I actually smiled when performing in front of others, and uh, very rarely do I do that.
Anyways, English was just discussions about another short story we're reading, work is just writing a one to two-pager over the weekend. Yeah. Break was break, Biology was different, for once. We did an activity where we walked around, marked off on a "diet" schedule list by like, picking up sheets of paper and sponge and putting them into boxes and bowls, representing insulin and glycogen. It was worth it in the end 'cause we all got candy, heh.
Math was math, we got our quizzes back and hey, 6/8, not bad, I'll take it. Lunch was lunch, US History was actually, productive. We spent basically the whole period discussing theories, who really killed JFK, evidence, reasons, etc. The teacher asked for a show of hands of who got really interested into this whole project, that they didn't do it solely for the grade, but because they were legitimately interested in it. I raised my hand.
Yeah, I never thought that JFK's assassination was all that complicated. Thought that a dude shot him, got caught, jail, end of story. Nope, turns out it's way more complex. And uh, rather than being something impractical, the project gave us some practice on like, being a lawyer. So, that's kinda cool I guess, heh. But yeah, anyways, James Files won, CIA got 2nd place, my group (Oswald) got 3rd.
Chinese. There was a test today, and yeah, I did use some hard-ass guessing skills, legitimately tried for 85% of it, and got a 72/100. I'll take it. Next week we're changing seats, hopefully the writers will be looking out for me. Well actually, I don't really care where I sit anymore in Chinese. None of my classes switch seats anymore, it's kinda like, ehhh, whatever, now. Nobody's complaining, nobody cares, hell, in Psychology there are no assigned seats. There weren't any, ever. People just chose a spot and sat in it, 'till now.
After school was KDT practice, where our supervisor (which is a teacher) forgot she was supposed to supervise us today, so only 'till we reminded her did she get to the dance room. We were already around 30 minutes late, so, no runthroughs for the VSA show, but, there was practice for A6 benefit show run-throughs, "My Baby," and 4Minute's "Hate."
All in all, I got my math work done during that time, heh. And uh, yeah. Tomorrow KDT's gonna perform at the huge A6 Key Club benefit show. I won't be there, but, there'll be pics. I'll also be working on Chinese work tomorrow, League, dance practice maybe, and then, oh yeah. Mc booked us a place at the Japanese Friendship Garden near us for 5-8 people. We currently have 5 of us: me, Mc, Ec, Dv, and Ek. There's 4 more spots for flex picks in case anyone else decides to join us.
Alright, that's about it. I'll see you tomorrow. See ya.
Week: 31
Songs to Remember: Wake Me Up (Conte Remix) - Avicii
Productivity came. Err, just some interesting stuff that advanced things forwards, kept things not boring I guess.
Psychology, I have to admit, I did not hate today's Fun Friday as much as others. We had to be in groups, of course, and uh, each group had 20 minutes to do a skit demonstrating a defense mechanism. For us, it was reaction formation, which is, you do the opposite of what you're actually feeling.
One of the examples was that a gay person would act not gay and would openly criticize gays, even though he/she is secretly gay. So, we went with that. And yeah, I had to be the gay guy, heh. I don't have anything against it, it's just that I never though in my life I would have to portray a gay person. When we went up to present, my best lines would have to be "Oh man, I'm gay. I don't want people to find out I'm gay." Words constructed in a way that I'd never though I would say in my life, heh.
It was good though. The teacher liked it, everyone laughed so it was pretty entertaining, I was smiling during the acting so it meant that I was cool with it. When I'm dancing in KDT, I don't smile. Not sure why, it's harder or something. But this time, it's one of the times I actually smiled when performing in front of others, and uh, very rarely do I do that.
Anyways, English was just discussions about another short story we're reading, work is just writing a one to two-pager over the weekend. Yeah. Break was break, Biology was different, for once. We did an activity where we walked around, marked off on a "diet" schedule list by like, picking up sheets of paper and sponge and putting them into boxes and bowls, representing insulin and glycogen. It was worth it in the end 'cause we all got candy, heh.
Math was math, we got our quizzes back and hey, 6/8, not bad, I'll take it. Lunch was lunch, US History was actually, productive. We spent basically the whole period discussing theories, who really killed JFK, evidence, reasons, etc. The teacher asked for a show of hands of who got really interested into this whole project, that they didn't do it solely for the grade, but because they were legitimately interested in it. I raised my hand.
Yeah, I never thought that JFK's assassination was all that complicated. Thought that a dude shot him, got caught, jail, end of story. Nope, turns out it's way more complex. And uh, rather than being something impractical, the project gave us some practice on like, being a lawyer. So, that's kinda cool I guess, heh. But yeah, anyways, James Files won, CIA got 2nd place, my group (Oswald) got 3rd.
Chinese. There was a test today, and yeah, I did use some hard-ass guessing skills, legitimately tried for 85% of it, and got a 72/100. I'll take it. Next week we're changing seats, hopefully the writers will be looking out for me. Well actually, I don't really care where I sit anymore in Chinese. None of my classes switch seats anymore, it's kinda like, ehhh, whatever, now. Nobody's complaining, nobody cares, hell, in Psychology there are no assigned seats. There weren't any, ever. People just chose a spot and sat in it, 'till now.
After school was KDT practice, where our supervisor (which is a teacher) forgot she was supposed to supervise us today, so only 'till we reminded her did she get to the dance room. We were already around 30 minutes late, so, no runthroughs for the VSA show, but, there was practice for A6 benefit show run-throughs, "My Baby," and 4Minute's "Hate."
All in all, I got my math work done during that time, heh. And uh, yeah. Tomorrow KDT's gonna perform at the huge A6 Key Club benefit show. I won't be there, but, there'll be pics. I'll also be working on Chinese work tomorrow, League, dance practice maybe, and then, oh yeah. Mc booked us a place at the Japanese Friendship Garden near us for 5-8 people. We currently have 5 of us: me, Mc, Ec, Dv, and Ek. There's 4 more spots for flex picks in case anyone else decides to join us.
Alright, that's about it. I'll see you tomorrow. See ya.
Friday, March 18, 2016
Thursday, March 17, 2016 "Still Normal."
Thursday, March 17, 2016
Week: 31
Songs to Remember: Lollipop - IMFACT
I'm almost, feeling relaxed. Almost. Really all that's holding me back from a relaxed weekend is English and Chinese work.
Psychology was just notes, just the way I like it. English was reading eachother's fanfics, as well as reading another, yes another, short story. And yeah, we're gonna have to write another like, mini-essay. This one's gonna be like a 2-3 pager. It's gonna be over the weekend so, gonna have some fun with that alright.
Biology was free time again, I'm think I'm the receiving end of doing the bulk of the work for this mini-poster we're doing as a group. Normally I'd complain, but apparently it's worth 15% of our final grade, so uh, fuck it, I made like a fucking Picasso, heh. Uhh, math was just a small quiz (for real this time) and time to do work in class.
Lunch was the usual again, Am joined us today.US History was just wrapping up the last of the presentations. We casted votes for our top 3 each, and apparently the presenters for James Files won. Their case seems probable on paper, but like, it's James Files, we all know he's full of Baloney, heh. But nonetheless, somehow he was voted ad most likely to be JFK's assassin.
And finally Chinese, which is like, I kinda hate it due to the amount of bulk work we do. Like even though I get F's, D's, sometimes C's on tests, my grade doesn't really change due to all the bulk work. And yeah, it does get boring,especially with a group that's not all that interactive, including me, but uh, you get what I'm saying.
No there was no KDT practice after school. Tomorrow there is though. It's just some final runthroughs for the A6 Key Club benefit show on Saturday at another High school, which, I'm not in. There is, however, some practice for 4Minute's "Hate" and a bit of VSA show runthroughs, which includes BTS, which I've gotten down by now so nothing to worry about.
Anyways, not sure what I'm planning for next week, this weekend will consist of 4 things: League, prom planning, work, and planning in general. Sounds about right. Alright, see ya.
Week: 31
Songs to Remember: Lollipop - IMFACT
I'm almost, feeling relaxed. Almost. Really all that's holding me back from a relaxed weekend is English and Chinese work.
Psychology was just notes, just the way I like it. English was reading eachother's fanfics, as well as reading another, yes another, short story. And yeah, we're gonna have to write another like, mini-essay. This one's gonna be like a 2-3 pager. It's gonna be over the weekend so, gonna have some fun with that alright.
Biology was free time again, I'm think I'm the receiving end of doing the bulk of the work for this mini-poster we're doing as a group. Normally I'd complain, but apparently it's worth 15% of our final grade, so uh, fuck it, I made like a fucking Picasso, heh. Uhh, math was just a small quiz (for real this time) and time to do work in class.
Lunch was the usual again, Am joined us today.US History was just wrapping up the last of the presentations. We casted votes for our top 3 each, and apparently the presenters for James Files won. Their case seems probable on paper, but like, it's James Files, we all know he's full of Baloney, heh. But nonetheless, somehow he was voted ad most likely to be JFK's assassin.
And finally Chinese, which is like, I kinda hate it due to the amount of bulk work we do. Like even though I get F's, D's, sometimes C's on tests, my grade doesn't really change due to all the bulk work. And yeah, it does get boring,especially with a group that's not all that interactive, including me, but uh, you get what I'm saying.
No there was no KDT practice after school. Tomorrow there is though. It's just some final runthroughs for the A6 Key Club benefit show on Saturday at another High school, which, I'm not in. There is, however, some practice for 4Minute's "Hate" and a bit of VSA show runthroughs, which includes BTS, which I've gotten down by now so nothing to worry about.
Anyways, not sure what I'm planning for next week, this weekend will consist of 4 things: League, prom planning, work, and planning in general. Sounds about right. Alright, see ya.
Thursday, March 17, 2016
Wednesday, March 16, 2016 "Between the Lines."
Wednesday, March 16, 2016
Week: 31
Songs to Remember: Lollipop - IMFACT
It's a shame I can't put more emotion into late posts like these, because they're late, and, it's late. And I'm tired, heh.
So Psych was just notes, English was just in-class essay online, Biology was a lecture, math was math, lunch was just me getting Mc's guest pass signed, US History was pretty fun (one group decided to incorporate #MemeHistory pictures in their presentation), and Chinese was pretty bland, as usual.
After school was fucking dreadful. I waited a total of 1 hour and 40 minutes, getting 2 tickets. It would've probably been just an hour, had they made it more efficient. By that, I mean, they had 1 giga-line, and 3 sub-lines. One of these sub-lines was for those who had to buy tickets for their guests as well as their ticket, the other 2 were for just their ticket. It wasn't until an hour in that they directed people to the side sub-lines, for those who did not have guest passes.
I unfortunately did, and uh, ended up being 4th to last out of literally, I'm being serious, literally everybody. They had 3 lines, 2 of them were empty because the rest of us here were the ones who had guest passes. They were like "If you do not have a guest pass, go to the side-lines!" And I'm just like "Fuck you! There's nobody fucking left!" Also something really funny was that when I got to the giga-line, I saw Eryka and stood with her 'till she had to bail and go to a badminton scrim, there was this one teacher going "EVERONE, BACK, UP" and it just reminded me of h3h3production's reaction video to Vitaly's "Feeding the Homeless" video, where he's all like "There's enough for everybody just BACK, UP."
"BACK THE FUCK UP." Still fucking gets me. Anyways, got me and Mc's tickets, Ek still needs to buy hers and Ec's, with my money, and uh yeah. I did see a lot of people there, people who I expected and didn't expect to be there. Also, I'd like to give a shoutout to my boy Ad for giving me a slice of his deep-dish pizza while I was in line. He was a true hommie, heh.
All in all, it feels weird 'cause I'm getting a ticket to prom, something I never really thought about 'till recently. It's like "Drew, you're growing old." It does feel scary, but at the same time, holy shit, fucking hyped, heh. Alright, see ya.
Week: 31
Songs to Remember: Lollipop - IMFACT
It's a shame I can't put more emotion into late posts like these, because they're late, and, it's late. And I'm tired, heh.
So Psych was just notes, English was just in-class essay online, Biology was a lecture, math was math, lunch was just me getting Mc's guest pass signed, US History was pretty fun (one group decided to incorporate #MemeHistory pictures in their presentation), and Chinese was pretty bland, as usual.
After school was fucking dreadful. I waited a total of 1 hour and 40 minutes, getting 2 tickets. It would've probably been just an hour, had they made it more efficient. By that, I mean, they had 1 giga-line, and 3 sub-lines. One of these sub-lines was for those who had to buy tickets for their guests as well as their ticket, the other 2 were for just their ticket. It wasn't until an hour in that they directed people to the side sub-lines, for those who did not have guest passes.
I unfortunately did, and uh, ended up being 4th to last out of literally, I'm being serious, literally everybody. They had 3 lines, 2 of them were empty because the rest of us here were the ones who had guest passes. They were like "If you do not have a guest pass, go to the side-lines!" And I'm just like "Fuck you! There's nobody fucking left!" Also something really funny was that when I got to the giga-line, I saw Eryka and stood with her 'till she had to bail and go to a badminton scrim, there was this one teacher going "EVERONE, BACK, UP" and it just reminded me of h3h3production's reaction video to Vitaly's "Feeding the Homeless" video, where he's all like "There's enough for everybody just BACK, UP."
"BACK THE FUCK UP." Still fucking gets me. Anyways, got me and Mc's tickets, Ek still needs to buy hers and Ec's, with my money, and uh yeah. I did see a lot of people there, people who I expected and didn't expect to be there. Also, I'd like to give a shoutout to my boy Ad for giving me a slice of his deep-dish pizza while I was in line. He was a true hommie, heh.
All in all, it feels weird 'cause I'm getting a ticket to prom, something I never really thought about 'till recently. It's like "Drew, you're growing old." It does feel scary, but at the same time, holy shit, fucking hyped, heh. Alright, see ya.
Wednesday, March 16, 2016
Tuesday, March 15, 2016 "Practice and What Will."
Tuesday, March 15, 2016
Week: 31
Songs to Remember: Lollipop - IMFACT
Of course there's tests this week, what week doesn't include at least one. Also I'm out $190 'till my buddies pay back in like a month.
Psychology was just notes which was nice. English is basically a practice test, online, where we gotta write responses and you guessed it, another essay. Even though it is practice, the teacher's gonna add it to our grade. So, yeah. Biology was just free time, which gave me time to prepare a single index card of what I was going to say and a general overview of my group's presentation.
Math was math, we got our "quizzes" back, and you guessed it, a 47/87. Some did well, others got utter shit like me, heh. So, the teacher curved it, my score's now a C for it which is alright, I'll take it. Lunch was prom talk with Am, she told me about how Dv asked her if she wanted to go to prom on Snapchat. I was like "Yep, that happened." And uh, Ek had to do some stuff in AP US History so she wasn't here to discuss shit.
Turns out we gotta get the guest passes signed by the activities director before we can buy the guest passes for our buddies. Hopefully it'll only take a few seconds and that the person won't be like "Come pick this up from me tomorrow." 'Cause tomorrow, is the day of the blow-out sale for prom tickets, and uh, it's the cheapest. Also the line's gonna be long as hell, so, gonna be a while.
Anyways, US History was pretty gun. Lots of debates, our group went up first, and uh, I only had my flashcard. Single, index card. Luckily we were able to open our document up on Google Drive and go off of that. We did alright, we definitely made a lasting scene, umm, compared to others, I think we're in 2nd place right now. Still more to go.
And finally Chinese, where I get tired after reading and reading over and over again. After school was practice for formations for the rally, which is next week on Friday. I had a dress shirt, pants, and tie so dancing in that was pretty, uncomfortable, heh. My buddy Ic was there practicing parkour, so we hung out for a bit. And then I went home to do some League with my buddies.
Now I didn't get to say this before but I did ask Yn about prom. Her friends have told her to go, I did, she said she didn't like having to buy a dress, a ticket, and wouldn't know if she would have fun or not. I tried convincing her, but she was sorta like on a 40% about it. I talked to Am about this and she said that this wasn't really asking her directly, it was more of like I'm "part of ASB and trying to get her to go." And I agree, maybe Yn is just iffy 'cause she doesn't know if I'm going with her or not. She did ask me if I'm going with friends, in which I was like "Aww fuck, I'll say yeah so I don't seem like a loner, heh."
And here comes the part where I might be overthinking this, I might be, but there's no real way to know for sure unless I just fucking DO IT. I think if Dv made the poster, Am would have to say yes. I think if I do a fucking, "prom-posal," then maybe Yn will know for sure if she wants to go or not.
Never thought it'd come to this. Anyways, it's late, gonna go to sleep. See ya.
Week: 31
Songs to Remember: Lollipop - IMFACT
Of course there's tests this week, what week doesn't include at least one. Also I'm out $190 'till my buddies pay back in like a month.
Psychology was just notes which was nice. English is basically a practice test, online, where we gotta write responses and you guessed it, another essay. Even though it is practice, the teacher's gonna add it to our grade. So, yeah. Biology was just free time, which gave me time to prepare a single index card of what I was going to say and a general overview of my group's presentation.
Math was math, we got our "quizzes" back, and you guessed it, a 47/87. Some did well, others got utter shit like me, heh. So, the teacher curved it, my score's now a C for it which is alright, I'll take it. Lunch was prom talk with Am, she told me about how Dv asked her if she wanted to go to prom on Snapchat. I was like "Yep, that happened." And uh, Ek had to do some stuff in AP US History so she wasn't here to discuss shit.
Turns out we gotta get the guest passes signed by the activities director before we can buy the guest passes for our buddies. Hopefully it'll only take a few seconds and that the person won't be like "Come pick this up from me tomorrow." 'Cause tomorrow, is the day of the blow-out sale for prom tickets, and uh, it's the cheapest. Also the line's gonna be long as hell, so, gonna be a while.
Anyways, US History was pretty gun. Lots of debates, our group went up first, and uh, I only had my flashcard. Single, index card. Luckily we were able to open our document up on Google Drive and go off of that. We did alright, we definitely made a lasting scene, umm, compared to others, I think we're in 2nd place right now. Still more to go.
And finally Chinese, where I get tired after reading and reading over and over again. After school was practice for formations for the rally, which is next week on Friday. I had a dress shirt, pants, and tie so dancing in that was pretty, uncomfortable, heh. My buddy Ic was there practicing parkour, so we hung out for a bit. And then I went home to do some League with my buddies.
Now I didn't get to say this before but I did ask Yn about prom. Her friends have told her to go, I did, she said she didn't like having to buy a dress, a ticket, and wouldn't know if she would have fun or not. I tried convincing her, but she was sorta like on a 40% about it. I talked to Am about this and she said that this wasn't really asking her directly, it was more of like I'm "part of ASB and trying to get her to go." And I agree, maybe Yn is just iffy 'cause she doesn't know if I'm going with her or not. She did ask me if I'm going with friends, in which I was like "Aww fuck, I'll say yeah so I don't seem like a loner, heh."
And here comes the part where I might be overthinking this, I might be, but there's no real way to know for sure unless I just fucking DO IT. I think if Dv made the poster, Am would have to say yes. I think if I do a fucking, "prom-posal," then maybe Yn will know for sure if she wants to go or not.
Never thought it'd come to this. Anyways, it's late, gonna go to sleep. See ya.
Monday, March 14, 2016
Monday, March 14, 2016 "Right."
Monday, March 14, 2016
Week: 31
Songs to Remember:
My parents contradict themselves so often because they always want to be right. Their word is supposedly the be all, end all. They always want to get the last say in anything.
When I told my mom I wanted to get a job, she told me "No. You stay home and you study." Whenever I'm being yelled out and accused for something for the wrong reasons, I don't talk back. Why? Because I was raised and my parents were too-protective. I couldn't really say much of anything, and there's this belief that children should not talk back to their parents. It doesn't matter anyways, because if I do talk back, my parents don't consider it. They just "Whatever" or "I don't care about your reason, all that matters is blah blah."
And so I don't sometimes. And in those times when I don't, they scold me for not being more open, talkative, that I don't assert myself enough. Because of all of this, I just remain quiet. There's no point in arguing, because I know that if I speak, it wouldn't make a difference to them. I'm conditioned to think that every time I talk, there's gonna be me ending up on the punishment end.
No wonder I'm not social enough,or lack common sense. It's cause I never get the chance to think for myself.
Week: 31
Songs to Remember:
My parents contradict themselves so often because they always want to be right. Their word is supposedly the be all, end all. They always want to get the last say in anything.
When I told my mom I wanted to get a job, she told me "No. You stay home and you study." Whenever I'm being yelled out and accused for something for the wrong reasons, I don't talk back. Why? Because I was raised and my parents were too-protective. I couldn't really say much of anything, and there's this belief that children should not talk back to their parents. It doesn't matter anyways, because if I do talk back, my parents don't consider it. They just "Whatever" or "I don't care about your reason, all that matters is blah blah."
And so I don't sometimes. And in those times when I don't, they scold me for not being more open, talkative, that I don't assert myself enough. Because of all of this, I just remain quiet. There's no point in arguing, because I know that if I speak, it wouldn't make a difference to them. I'm conditioned to think that every time I talk, there's gonna be me ending up on the punishment end.
No wonder I'm not social enough,or lack common sense. It's cause I never get the chance to think for myself.
Sunday, March 13, 2016 "Daylight Savings."
Sunday, March 13, 2016
Week: 30
Songs to Remember: Carnival - B.A.P
I did not get as much sleep as I would have liked to this weekend. I had to wake at essentially the same time I would for school on Saturday, then on Sunday, I got an hour less of sleep due to daylight savings.
And of course there's school tomorrow, so I won't be able to sleep in really at all for another week. Not really sure what to expect for this week, I know there won't be any tests, that's for sure. All there's left now is to practice and plan. Anyways, see ya.
Week: 30
Songs to Remember: Carnival - B.A.P
I did not get as much sleep as I would have liked to this weekend. I had to wake at essentially the same time I would for school on Saturday, then on Sunday, I got an hour less of sleep due to daylight savings.
And of course there's school tomorrow, so I won't be able to sleep in really at all for another week. Not really sure what to expect for this week, I know there won't be any tests, that's for sure. All there's left now is to practice and plan. Anyways, see ya.
Sunday, March 13, 2016
Saturday, March 12, 2016 "Crash Work."
Saturday, March 12, 2016
Week: 30
Songs to Remember: Gotta Talk to You - Seungri
I felt like crashing after getting home from Saturday practice, from 8:30 to 12:00 AM. I actually got to the library at 8:00 AM and didn't realize the meet time was 8:30 AM instead of 8:00 AM. And yeah, it was fucking cold the whole time.
I worked on Beyonce's "Formation" dance, thinking we would be doing formations for it and practicing, but uh, apparently not. We just did formations for Kara's Mamma Mia, which took an hour, formations for AOA's "Heart Attack," and formations for BTS' "Dope." Now if I knew that there would not be any review formations at the end of practice, I would've left sooner, because we it was literally just an hour of Mamma Mia, and then the rest of the time was dances for the Area 6 Key Club dinner show, which I'm not part of.
And watching that guy skipping moves during practice run-throughs makes me like "What really made them choose blah blah over me?" I know, I know, it could be what I'm thinking, could not, but, damn. And yeah, if I say that I'm so good, better than some, why don't I show it. It's a good reason, and I can't argue with that. Just gimme one day, it's all I need.
Came home, crashed on the couch, see that it's only 3:30 PM, do League, do Chinese online work, bullshitted it from start to finish, I blame it on the sheer amount of bulk-work rather than tests or quizzes. Umm, did some more League, and yeah. Anyways, see ya. Tomorrow I got a bit more work, but they're manageable.
Week: 30
Songs to Remember: Gotta Talk to You - Seungri
I felt like crashing after getting home from Saturday practice, from 8:30 to 12:00 AM. I actually got to the library at 8:00 AM and didn't realize the meet time was 8:30 AM instead of 8:00 AM. And yeah, it was fucking cold the whole time.
I worked on Beyonce's "Formation" dance, thinking we would be doing formations for it and practicing, but uh, apparently not. We just did formations for Kara's Mamma Mia, which took an hour, formations for AOA's "Heart Attack," and formations for BTS' "Dope." Now if I knew that there would not be any review formations at the end of practice, I would've left sooner, because we it was literally just an hour of Mamma Mia, and then the rest of the time was dances for the Area 6 Key Club dinner show, which I'm not part of.
And watching that guy skipping moves during practice run-throughs makes me like "What really made them choose blah blah over me?" I know, I know, it could be what I'm thinking, could not, but, damn. And yeah, if I say that I'm so good, better than some, why don't I show it. It's a good reason, and I can't argue with that. Just gimme one day, it's all I need.
Came home, crashed on the couch, see that it's only 3:30 PM, do League, do Chinese online work, bullshitted it from start to finish, I blame it on the sheer amount of bulk-work rather than tests or quizzes. Umm, did some more League, and yeah. Anyways, see ya. Tomorrow I got a bit more work, but they're manageable.
Saturday, March 12, 2016
Friday, March 11, 2016 "Formations."
Friday, March 11, 2016
Week: 30
Songs to Remember:
It's only been a week since I had to go ham on an essay, and I gotta go ham again this weekend. And the worst part is, I still got work to do, and only today did was I reminded that 10 Cloverfield Lane is premiering. Like, what the fuck.
And I can't really go watch it this weekend, 'cause I got work to do, including waking up at 8:00 AM tomorrow for KDT practice at the library. Also, we did get into the rally with our audition video, and, those who signed up for it are locked in. Which means, I gotta stick it out, even though I don't remember all the moves from that one day of practice, and so I'm doing it tonight.
Anyways, all classes were pretty much the usual, you know, Psychology was group work shit, English was discussion and shit, Biology was free time. math was math, US History was video and research, and Chinese with the absurd amount of work that the teacher thinks we have enough time to finish in class.
KDT practice after school wasn't that bad. First it was 2 dances for which I'm not in, 2nd was formations for 4Minute's "Hate," which I am in. It went alright I suppose, heh. And so yeah, gonna be 30 minutes of practice, then off to bed. See ya.
Week: 30
Songs to Remember:
It's only been a week since I had to go ham on an essay, and I gotta go ham again this weekend. And the worst part is, I still got work to do, and only today did was I reminded that 10 Cloverfield Lane is premiering. Like, what the fuck.
And I can't really go watch it this weekend, 'cause I got work to do, including waking up at 8:00 AM tomorrow for KDT practice at the library. Also, we did get into the rally with our audition video, and, those who signed up for it are locked in. Which means, I gotta stick it out, even though I don't remember all the moves from that one day of practice, and so I'm doing it tonight.
Anyways, all classes were pretty much the usual, you know, Psychology was group work shit, English was discussion and shit, Biology was free time. math was math, US History was video and research, and Chinese with the absurd amount of work that the teacher thinks we have enough time to finish in class.
KDT practice after school wasn't that bad. First it was 2 dances for which I'm not in, 2nd was formations for 4Minute's "Hate," which I am in. It went alright I suppose, heh. And so yeah, gonna be 30 minutes of practice, then off to bed. See ya.
Thursday, March 10, 2016
Thursday, March 10, 2016 "What to Expect."
Thursday, March 10, 2016
Week: 30
Songs to Remember: Drip Drop - Taemin
Almost forgot about making a post for today. Anyways, here's how the upcoming months are gonna play out. End of this month's gonna be the VSA show, so as long as I get in, I can look forward to that being another one of the highlights for my KDT experience this year. April is gonna be a couple finals for my AP classes, as well as CST testing (not sure why we still have to take it). April's also for preparing for AP exams, so there's that.
May is just gonna be all-out, just, go for the gold, risk it for the biscuit, or die trying. Literally. AP tests, and the SAT. Also, prom. It's looking to be a 65% chance probability, now that my buddy Ec's convinced again of going, since our buddy Dv's going as well. Planning for prom, umm, that'll come later. Just gotta get through the threshold first.
And yeah, June's not really a month because school ends June 1st, heh. My buddy Ec's school ends a bit earlier than that, so he can like, come visit us at school or some shit. But during that time, it's just, smooth fucking sailing. I would've taken my AP Psychology final already, and my AP Biology final too. The rest would be pretty easy, besides English of course. And math. But you get what I mean.
I honestly don't know what to expect. There's gonna be specials upon specials coming soon, as well as the first movie premier for any of the series so far. It'll definitely be something else. And uh, just to note, it's 11:32 PM right now, I finished my work in class and/or there's no assigned work and/or there was a test or quiz that I took today so no work on the day of a test/quiz. Other than that, I took the time to relax, played Card Wars all day, and discussed with my buddies on Discord.
Currently it's just the 4 of us guys right now for prom: me, Ec, Dv, and Mc. Others are to be announced. Am I scared for the upcoming seasons? Yeah. Am I also excited? Yeah. Alright, time to get some sleep. Oh and I almost forgot to summarize the day (because nothing really interesting happened that deserved a more thorough written description). Psychology was just a test, English was the teacher reading to us and discussing about this story by Flannery O'Connor, to be honest, these stories so far are pretty interesting, more entertaining than say, The Night Thoreau Spent in Jail or Beloved, so because of that I don't fall asleep as easily now, heh.
Bio was just an optional practice worksheet, so, essentially time for me to study for math. Math was a quiz, which was more like a test really since many people said that they did not get to finish (same goes for me). US History was more research for the debate on Tuesday (in which my group is going first). And finally Chinese, where we work on the Chromebooks, doing our Blendspace and bootleg Travel plan. Tomorrow is KDT practice, then go home to finish work, and then, finally some League most likely. Sounds good, see ya.
Week: 30
Songs to Remember: Drip Drop - Taemin
Almost forgot about making a post for today. Anyways, here's how the upcoming months are gonna play out. End of this month's gonna be the VSA show, so as long as I get in, I can look forward to that being another one of the highlights for my KDT experience this year. April is gonna be a couple finals for my AP classes, as well as CST testing (not sure why we still have to take it). April's also for preparing for AP exams, so there's that.
May is just gonna be all-out, just, go for the gold, risk it for the biscuit, or die trying. Literally. AP tests, and the SAT. Also, prom. It's looking to be a 65% chance probability, now that my buddy Ec's convinced again of going, since our buddy Dv's going as well. Planning for prom, umm, that'll come later. Just gotta get through the threshold first.
And yeah, June's not really a month because school ends June 1st, heh. My buddy Ec's school ends a bit earlier than that, so he can like, come visit us at school or some shit. But during that time, it's just, smooth fucking sailing. I would've taken my AP Psychology final already, and my AP Biology final too. The rest would be pretty easy, besides English of course. And math. But you get what I mean.
I honestly don't know what to expect. There's gonna be specials upon specials coming soon, as well as the first movie premier for any of the series so far. It'll definitely be something else. And uh, just to note, it's 11:32 PM right now, I finished my work in class and/or there's no assigned work and/or there was a test or quiz that I took today so no work on the day of a test/quiz. Other than that, I took the time to relax, played Card Wars all day, and discussed with my buddies on Discord.
Currently it's just the 4 of us guys right now for prom: me, Ec, Dv, and Mc. Others are to be announced. Am I scared for the upcoming seasons? Yeah. Am I also excited? Yeah. Alright, time to get some sleep. Oh and I almost forgot to summarize the day (because nothing really interesting happened that deserved a more thorough written description). Psychology was just a test, English was the teacher reading to us and discussing about this story by Flannery O'Connor, to be honest, these stories so far are pretty interesting, more entertaining than say, The Night Thoreau Spent in Jail or Beloved, so because of that I don't fall asleep as easily now, heh.
Bio was just an optional practice worksheet, so, essentially time for me to study for math. Math was a quiz, which was more like a test really since many people said that they did not get to finish (same goes for me). US History was more research for the debate on Tuesday (in which my group is going first). And finally Chinese, where we work on the Chromebooks, doing our Blendspace and bootleg Travel plan. Tomorrow is KDT practice, then go home to finish work, and then, finally some League most likely. Sounds good, see ya.
Wednesday, March 9, 2016
Wednesday, March 9, 2016 "Where It's Going."
Wednesday, March 9, 2016
Week: 30
Songs to Remember: Press Your Number - Taemin
Today's been better than the last few. The prom ticket blowout sale's happening on Wednesday next week. Ec's pretty much planning to not go to prom just 'cause there's not a big group of us going. Mc's still up for it though.
On the topic of prom, I've learned a couple things about it that I didn't pay attention to before. First of all, it's the pressure. Everybody's talking about it, most people are like "You should go, everybody's going." And now I can see why people don't go. Senior prom's a definite must, just because you won't be able to experience it again, you know, getting dressed up all fancy and stuff.
My Chinese teacher said that her daughter said to her that college dances aren't that great as prom because nobody dresses up. They just grab and beer and party, heh. So yeah, if you think about it, prom's pretty much just for the hype, unless it's for creating some last memories of being a teen, a High school senior. Also, money. People say that prom's pretty expensive and I agree to an extent. Prom can be as cheap as the ticket you paid.
In a lot of media, movies, shows, prom's depicted as having fucking limousines, super sharp tuxedos, elegant dresses, having fucking Picasso be your photographer. It doesn't need to be like that really if you're worried about the money. People go to professional places for their dresses or tuxedos, but in reality, you can't tell a $500 dress from a $50 one. It's true.
But anyways, I'll talk about that a bit more as we close in on it, it's still the beginning of March, got 7 weeks 'till the AP Bio final (final, not exam). Or was it the other way around? Anyways, still far away, but, just a reminder. Psychology was just doing other people's practice FRQ's, English, we discussed more of Flannery O'Connor's story, and Biology we just had a lecture on homeostasis where the teacher proceeds to incorporate her life as examples of homeostasis. Pretty bootleg.
Math was math, lunch was lunch, US History was watching and reading about JFK and the Cuban missile crisis, and finally Chinese where we work on our "travel plan" and re-take the lesson 17 test. I thought I would do worse on it because I honestly forgot all the vocab words for it, but fortunately, I got a 56, which is better than my previous 44 out of 100, heh.
I messaged Yn today after a while and uh, she's doing alright, heh. I asked her if she still has English for 2nd period and uh, apparently she still does. I never see her at all anymore when walking to 2nd period, or after 2nd period. I was like "Do you still have English 2nd period?" and she's like "Yeah, I still have English for 2nd. I see you almost everyday lol XD our class is next to each other."
And in my mind I'm just like "Uh what? I never see her at all. There's no fucking way she sees me like everyday, heh." But I took her word for it and played along and was like "Ohh yeah, I forgot LOL" She also wondered if I would be in the VSA show, and I said it was a 90% chance that I would be, heh.
And yeah, apparently she still works in the cafeteria during lunchtime, this whole time. It's gonna be difficult coming up with things to talk about, I mean I already asked her about her Charizard door painting, her classes, school events, anime, free time, but I'm up for the challenge. Ya'll know where I'm going with this right?
Soooo, tomorrow there's a math quiz, a Psych test, aaand work for Chinese and possibly Bio. For US History, my group's going presenting our case first on Tuesday. Still not sure if we gotta dress up for that though. Friday is gonna be KDT practice, focusing on "Get Out," "My Baby," and "Hate," 33% of which I'm not in, heh. So, putting all my efforts on those 2 songs. And the 3 songs for the rally. Anyways, see ya.
Week: 30
Songs to Remember: Press Your Number - Taemin
Today's been better than the last few. The prom ticket blowout sale's happening on Wednesday next week. Ec's pretty much planning to not go to prom just 'cause there's not a big group of us going. Mc's still up for it though.
On the topic of prom, I've learned a couple things about it that I didn't pay attention to before. First of all, it's the pressure. Everybody's talking about it, most people are like "You should go, everybody's going." And now I can see why people don't go. Senior prom's a definite must, just because you won't be able to experience it again, you know, getting dressed up all fancy and stuff.
My Chinese teacher said that her daughter said to her that college dances aren't that great as prom because nobody dresses up. They just grab and beer and party, heh. So yeah, if you think about it, prom's pretty much just for the hype, unless it's for creating some last memories of being a teen, a High school senior. Also, money. People say that prom's pretty expensive and I agree to an extent. Prom can be as cheap as the ticket you paid.
In a lot of media, movies, shows, prom's depicted as having fucking limousines, super sharp tuxedos, elegant dresses, having fucking Picasso be your photographer. It doesn't need to be like that really if you're worried about the money. People go to professional places for their dresses or tuxedos, but in reality, you can't tell a $500 dress from a $50 one. It's true.
But anyways, I'll talk about that a bit more as we close in on it, it's still the beginning of March, got 7 weeks 'till the AP Bio final (final, not exam). Or was it the other way around? Anyways, still far away, but, just a reminder. Psychology was just doing other people's practice FRQ's, English, we discussed more of Flannery O'Connor's story, and Biology we just had a lecture on homeostasis where the teacher proceeds to incorporate her life as examples of homeostasis. Pretty bootleg.
Math was math, lunch was lunch, US History was watching and reading about JFK and the Cuban missile crisis, and finally Chinese where we work on our "travel plan" and re-take the lesson 17 test. I thought I would do worse on it because I honestly forgot all the vocab words for it, but fortunately, I got a 56, which is better than my previous 44 out of 100, heh.
I messaged Yn today after a while and uh, she's doing alright, heh. I asked her if she still has English for 2nd period and uh, apparently she still does. I never see her at all anymore when walking to 2nd period, or after 2nd period. I was like "Do you still have English 2nd period?" and she's like "Yeah, I still have English for 2nd. I see you almost everyday lol XD our class is next to each other."
And in my mind I'm just like "Uh what? I never see her at all. There's no fucking way she sees me like everyday, heh." But I took her word for it and played along and was like "Ohh yeah, I forgot LOL" She also wondered if I would be in the VSA show, and I said it was a 90% chance that I would be, heh.
And yeah, apparently she still works in the cafeteria during lunchtime, this whole time. It's gonna be difficult coming up with things to talk about, I mean I already asked her about her Charizard door painting, her classes, school events, anime, free time, but I'm up for the challenge. Ya'll know where I'm going with this right?
Soooo, tomorrow there's a math quiz, a Psych test, aaand work for Chinese and possibly Bio. For US History, my group's going presenting our case first on Tuesday. Still not sure if we gotta dress up for that though. Friday is gonna be KDT practice, focusing on "Get Out," "My Baby," and "Hate," 33% of which I'm not in, heh. So, putting all my efforts on those 2 songs. And the 3 songs for the rally. Anyways, see ya.
Tuesday, March 8, 2016
Tuesday, March 8, 2016 "Enjoy."
Tuesday, March 8, 2016
Week: 31
Songs to Remember: Beach Walk - Whitewoods
I just wanna say thanks to Ln for messaging me. And Tu too for just saying hi and bye. Even though they didn't know it, they helped me immensely and reaffirms the notion that KDT is one of the only things left that's keeping me remotely social.
Psychology wasn't that bad, even though we were in groups again. We came up with ideas for practice FRQ's so that we can do them tomorrow. English wasn't that bad either, with the teacher essentially reading to us a short story, which happened to take up about half of class time. Biology wasn't so bad either 'cause nothing's really due yet, except for this one poster next, next week. Also, I got a C so far on that test. Not bad.
Math was the same old, lunch was interesting to say the least. There's a story that Am told about that one dude who asked her to prom last year. She said yes and the only reason he asked her was because he thought she liked her. He was like "You like me right?" and she was like "I thought we were going as just friends" and then the dude was basically like "Go get your own damn tickets." I was like "Daaamn dude, riperino free ticket. Also riperino that dude's senior prom. He probably thought he was set, but actually he just played himself." Just a fumy story, and a forgotten question answered.
US History was pretty bad for me. It was just research on like events during the cold war, but uh, during SSR, I essentially fell asleep. I was daydreaming 'bout something game related, next thing I knew I woke up in a flash, my body essentially popped up like a jack in the box. Not literally, but, felt like it. I was like "Oh shit, hope nobody saw that. Fuck I need my sleep," And so that's why I'll be going to sleep by 12:30 AM tonight. I'm getting there, getting back to a better sleep routine, rather than 2:00 AM like that one weekend and onwards.
And finally Chinese, where we just read. After school was KDT practice, one of the things I've grown to love and enjoy. Err, one of the things left I've gotten to enjoy. We were in the dance with this other dance group called "MASTI" which instead of Korean Dance Team, they were essentially the Indian Dance Team. We practiced Beyonce's "Formations" song, which is unfortunately named formations, which is the word we use, for our dance formations, heh. Dance was pretty long and most of the moves were the same-ish, so I got kinda confused.
But with a little practice, I'll memorize it. We also filmed our audition tape to be in the rally. I messed up a couple times, but I blame it on having just learned a dance an hour prior. Anyways, it's 11:17 PM, new record, and uh, finishing up some stuff. So until then, see ya.
Week: 31
Songs to Remember: Beach Walk - Whitewoods
I just wanna say thanks to Ln for messaging me. And Tu too for just saying hi and bye. Even though they didn't know it, they helped me immensely and reaffirms the notion that KDT is one of the only things left that's keeping me remotely social.
Psychology wasn't that bad, even though we were in groups again. We came up with ideas for practice FRQ's so that we can do them tomorrow. English wasn't that bad either, with the teacher essentially reading to us a short story, which happened to take up about half of class time. Biology wasn't so bad either 'cause nothing's really due yet, except for this one poster next, next week. Also, I got a C so far on that test. Not bad.
Math was the same old, lunch was interesting to say the least. There's a story that Am told about that one dude who asked her to prom last year. She said yes and the only reason he asked her was because he thought she liked her. He was like "You like me right?" and she was like "I thought we were going as just friends" and then the dude was basically like "Go get your own damn tickets." I was like "Daaamn dude, riperino free ticket. Also riperino that dude's senior prom. He probably thought he was set, but actually he just played himself." Just a fumy story, and a forgotten question answered.
US History was pretty bad for me. It was just research on like events during the cold war, but uh, during SSR, I essentially fell asleep. I was daydreaming 'bout something game related, next thing I knew I woke up in a flash, my body essentially popped up like a jack in the box. Not literally, but, felt like it. I was like "Oh shit, hope nobody saw that. Fuck I need my sleep," And so that's why I'll be going to sleep by 12:30 AM tonight. I'm getting there, getting back to a better sleep routine, rather than 2:00 AM like that one weekend and onwards.
And finally Chinese, where we just read. After school was KDT practice, one of the things I've grown to love and enjoy. Err, one of the things left I've gotten to enjoy. We were in the dance with this other dance group called "MASTI" which instead of Korean Dance Team, they were essentially the Indian Dance Team. We practiced Beyonce's "Formations" song, which is unfortunately named formations, which is the word we use, for our dance formations, heh. Dance was pretty long and most of the moves were the same-ish, so I got kinda confused.
But with a little practice, I'll memorize it. We also filmed our audition tape to be in the rally. I messed up a couple times, but I blame it on having just learned a dance an hour prior. Anyways, it's 11:17 PM, new record, and uh, finishing up some stuff. So until then, see ya.
Monday, March 7, 2016
Monday, March 7, 2016 "The Cold."
Monday, March 7, 2016
Week: 30
Songs to Remember:
It was around 51 degrees Fahrenheit today. My weather app said the highest was going to be 72 and lowest being 52. Instead, it was actually 62 and 42.
I cannot recall the amount of times where I felt like either dying, running away, or disappearing off the face of this Earth. My school day was generally okay, it was the same as usual, nothing too spectacular, nothing too shitty, just the same old, same old. After school there was KDT practice which I was looking forward to.
When they were calling out the names of people to be places in their specific spot for formations for MIN's "Get Out" dance, I thought that I would be in that last of names, but after it looked like everyone was at their spot, I inferred "Yeah, they're using the VSA signups list with everybody's names AFTER the evaluations changes." And yes, my name wasn't on the list.
Not gonna lie, I was pretty bummed about it, knowing that I'm only going to be performing in basically 2 songs for the VSA show (it's not even guaranteed even, I still have to go through evaluations for both of them still). But, that changed after we started learning 4Minute's "Hate" for the first time, and the instructors were pretty impressed at how in sync we were. I was actually proud of myself for being able to not lose pace, heh.
Things felt pretty good, I had the whole week planned out: homework, then extras, then dance practice on any song I wanted. I wanted to prove my own point that KDT's just for peer-to-peer learning, interactions, and for the experience in a social gathering. If I really wanted to learn a dance, I gotta do it myself, for any song that I want to do. Wanting to prove something to others isn't necessarily a bad thing. For me, it's to prove that I'm capable of such feats, like a learning a K-Pop dance all by myself and through my ways.
And so after practice I got home. I went into my room, changed, came out and my parents ask me "Is it okay if you stop doing dance practices?" I was caught off guard, wondering why they asked me that question. They said I would need to drop my dance practices and start going to tutoring for my grades. In my mind, it was a literal "Not this fucking shit again."
They had already called a private tutor for me to learn Biology just because my progress report, not a report card, which is a flawed system anyways, had an F in AP Biology. Now my parents don't know a single thing about how the school system works. What do they emphasize to be success? The SAT, GPA, and grades in general. Don't care if it's a 5th grade math or a NASA level physics class. They do not understand what an AP class is, the grade bump it gives, how my cousin received a lower score on the SAT, took lower level classes, and still got into a college.
Even after explaining how my AP Biology class only has 20 assignments put into the gradebook, compared to something like my Chinese class which has 60, that the total score and everything is biased, that it's just the progress report, that the progress report itself is wrong because I do not have an F, that my parents are spending money and wasting everybody's time for me be tutored in a weekend when I should be spending it relaxing and relieving stress that I get from these specific events on material that I've either already learned or could get for free using online resources to study in ways that work for me, they still give me the lecture that "Oh, we care about you, we're not pushing you. We just want you to get into a good college because if you get into a good college, you'll get a good job, 'cause that's how the world works. A good college equals a good job. Trust us, we didn't attend college and attended High school in Vietnam, which is completely identical to the curriculum that's offered here." 'Course, they didn't say it exactly like that.
There are many quotes saying to just not worry, that apparently, that's easy. And I could see how and why, but when you're living in an environment like this, essentially caved into a confined space where you don't get many choices due to many factors, ready for that nerve to just snap and lose it, it's hard.
And yeah, of course there are countless other people the same age as me who are going through worse things. Way worse things. Their father could be an alcoholic and abuser. Their home could be living in a car. Their best friend could have committed suicide. My parents want me to be at least one of the best of the best, at least up there with all the other smart kids. But guess what? I'm different.
Many, many times I have heard from teachers, the ones who grades us and basically decide our young future, that your life is not defined by a number. With all the tutoring classes and centers around now, the amount of homework, extracurricular events that we must attend, balancing school with work, or school and sleep, or vice versa, yes, you are.
Sunday, March 6, 2016 "To Write and Win."
Sunday, March 6, 2016
Week: 29
Songs to Remember: Tell Me (What is love) - Yoo Young Jin (유영진) × D.O. (디오 EXO)
Not much has really happened today, it mostly consisted of me sitting her and typing, A LOT.
The results were released today for the BTS "Dope" evaluations, as well as the poll for voting whether KDT should drop SUBOI or not. And as expected, I didn't make it onto the list for Dope. What really bothered me was how Cc was able to ger on there, even though she showed up late to practice and was still learning the moves to the 2nd part.
What bothered me even more was that that guy was able to get in. Like, seriously, there's some favoritism going on here. I'm kinda pissed about it, but at the same time, that anger motivates me to prove them wrong, that they should put me on there. So, that's what I'm gonna do. Since so many people were evaluated and were cut, there's gonna be a 2nd evaluation before VSA. Not sure if after the 2nd wave of evaluations that people are gonna be able to perform for the Area 6 charity dinner thing event, 'cause like, that's on March 19th, 2 weeks-ish away.
Not gonna lie, I'ma be pretty depressed if the 2nd evaluations is only for the VSA show and not including the A6 show, 'cause Dope is the only dance I'm doing for A6, and since I'm currently not on the list, I won't be performing there, heh. But anyways, this whole week is gonna be full of practices, so basically I just gotta focus on practicing. Tomorrow there's a Bio test, I've turned in the essay (which took a full on 2 and a half hours of writing), Psych test tomorrow, for the rest of the week is just gonna be very calm, besides practices of course, but nothing rigorous. Unless you count my dance practice routines at home for this week, 'cause I'ma be going pretty ham to achieve what I want.
Also, the SUBOI poll. Currently, about 17 people have voted yes in getting rid of the song for VSA, and nobody has voted no in keeping it. Welp, there goes my current legacy, it was nice while it lasted, heh. So yeah, it was very work-heavy today, not gonna be as heavy this week hopefully. See ya.
Week: 29
Songs to Remember: Tell Me (What is love) - Yoo Young Jin (유영진) × D.O. (디오 EXO)
Not much has really happened today, it mostly consisted of me sitting her and typing, A LOT.
The results were released today for the BTS "Dope" evaluations, as well as the poll for voting whether KDT should drop SUBOI or not. And as expected, I didn't make it onto the list for Dope. What really bothered me was how Cc was able to ger on there, even though she showed up late to practice and was still learning the moves to the 2nd part.
What bothered me even more was that that guy was able to get in. Like, seriously, there's some favoritism going on here. I'm kinda pissed about it, but at the same time, that anger motivates me to prove them wrong, that they should put me on there. So, that's what I'm gonna do. Since so many people were evaluated and were cut, there's gonna be a 2nd evaluation before VSA. Not sure if after the 2nd wave of evaluations that people are gonna be able to perform for the Area 6 charity dinner thing event, 'cause like, that's on March 19th, 2 weeks-ish away.
Not gonna lie, I'ma be pretty depressed if the 2nd evaluations is only for the VSA show and not including the A6 show, 'cause Dope is the only dance I'm doing for A6, and since I'm currently not on the list, I won't be performing there, heh. But anyways, this whole week is gonna be full of practices, so basically I just gotta focus on practicing. Tomorrow there's a Bio test, I've turned in the essay (which took a full on 2 and a half hours of writing), Psych test tomorrow, for the rest of the week is just gonna be very calm, besides practices of course, but nothing rigorous. Unless you count my dance practice routines at home for this week, 'cause I'ma be going pretty ham to achieve what I want.
Also, the SUBOI poll. Currently, about 17 people have voted yes in getting rid of the song for VSA, and nobody has voted no in keeping it. Welp, there goes my current legacy, it was nice while it lasted, heh. So yeah, it was very work-heavy today, not gonna be as heavy this week hopefully. See ya.
Saturday, March 5, 2016
Saturday, March 5, 2016 "The Voices."
Saturday, March 5, 2016
Week: 29
Songs to Remember: Tell Me (What is love) - Yoo Young Jin (유영진) × D.O. (디오 EXO)
As you might know, it's the weekend, and with weekends, there's usually nothing to really talk about except for when there's practices or performances or whatever rare event that happens. So, might as well just talk a bit more about my current self, as well as whatever else I wanna talk about,
I've been meaning to talk about my interaction levels for a while now. I'm not sure how to really describe "interaction levels," it's like uhhh, the way I act around people, what I'm really like. And the truth is, I'm not sure what I "really" sound like. I think even for these posts, I talk in a personal manner. You could see that because I don't really insert a lot of memes, whereas with my buddies, I do that a lot, heh.
So one of the "voices" I use is when I'm talking to my buddies either in person (rarely though, since they go to different schools. You know them, it's Ec, Mc, etc) or in the Discord group chat, or Discord calls. We use a lot of slang that we've been accustomed to and understand, I actually use the racial African American slur, that we all know which one that is, frequently with my buddies, sad as it may sound, heh. For us all, we know that we're joking and it ain't ever really serious. I first started using it as a form of satire, to make fun of people who use that word and aren't African American. Soon enough, it became incorporated into my vocabulary and uh, the rest is history. I only use it with my close close buddies though.
Next is the voice I use is when I'm with the cast, and as the cast have said, I use a lot of sarcasm. That's, that's basically it really. I mean, I tease Ag and Ek with it, that's about it, heh. Also DrewN counts as one of my buddies so, I talk to him as I would my online buddies. Also, just noticed, guess I talk to people differently based on closeness, and, sense of humor. My buddies and I find a lot of dark humor funny, so, there's that. Others, I'm either not sure if they do, or, if they don't find it funny at all.
The next voice is with my cousin, whom I make a lot of video references with, we sorta developed a way of speaking to each other where we both could understand each other's slang. It consists a lot of "Ay boy" and uh, yeah, heh.
And finally, the voice I use in pretty much all my classes or people I'm not THAT close with. I try not to be too enthusiastic on things, I see what they like and try to roll with it. It's 'cause I'm not sure what things they're comfortable with so, don't know the ballpark on the extremity for how I can act.
And of course there are other voices I use such as when I talk to my parents, adults, teachers, etc. Now after looking over all of this, apparently I change the way the I act to like, conform to others, which is a pretty bad thing to be honest. In some situations, yeah, you gotta be respectful and professional, but most of the time, you just do you. So, there's that.
Alright, enough talk about voices, there's been some drama with the VSA cabinet and KDT and this one other group, which I've mentioned before, "BEAT!." Apparently the color-guard performance group, BEAT!, is only in the day show performance for the upcoming VSA show and not in the night show performance. Oh and by the way, KDT did get in the VSA show, thank goodness, heh. Anyways, this caused a lot of controversy (especially within the KDT group chat) because another group, this band, auditioned late and still got into the show.
The VSA cabinet said that they couldn't put BEAT! in due to how tight the schedule is for the show, that there'd be too many acts. Counter arguments for this is that last year, there were around 18 acts for the VSA show, also, the band that got in is only going to sing English songs and that isn't exactly "traditional" as how the VSA cabinet wants the show to be.
The VSA cabinet further contradicted themselves when an act which consisted of these 2 girls singing Vietnamese songs didn't get in, due to the reason from VSA that they were "too traditional" and that it wasn't modern enough. So, with all that, BEAT! has dropped out of the list of acts for the VSA show. KDT is thinking of dropping out as well, due to the fact that with all this, we had to choreograph and do Vietnamese songs instead of K-Pop songs in order to be more "traditional."
We're also planning to drop out and boycott the VSA show because apparently all performers have to sell a certain number of tickets. Like, required to. Still not sure if we're gonna drop out, still waiting for the drama to completely draw out, I think there's been a total of about 400+ messages today in the group chat just from these issues.
In all honesty, I think it's due to poor work ethics and favoritism within the VSA cabinet. They said they were gonna post the VSA act admission results Friday, then it got moved to Friday night, and only today did they post it. I heard that some of the members were going all out Friday night instead of planning out and informing VSA performers the situation and shit. Also, bias. The band is a boy band, their music is okay in my opinion, and uh, ya know, compared to general Viet songs and their songs (which are of course in English), people at our school would most likely want to listen to stuff they'd understand.
Compared to BEAT's act, which consists of visually appealing and artful (if that's even a word) flag manipulations, to the VSA cabinet, the band would be more appealing, apparently. So, the VSA cabinet's picking a modern act over a traditional act (which is what they initially wanted for the VSA show to be) just because they liked them more. Also, 4 fucking hat dances, heh. There's 4 hat dance performances in the show, like, damn.
One thing that funny to me in all of this was that the KDT president was thinking of dropping the SUBOI dance because we'll get made fun of if do perform with that song. I laughed 'cause I was like "Damn, the only dance that I got recognition for, my bread and butter, and they're deciding to remove it completely, heh." They didn't though, or, at least not yet. The issue's still going on, all this drama, and sure it'll blow away once everything settles, it'll be a story to tell for sure next year when we're preparing for the VSA show, but uh, its nice to record all this 'cause what if future wonders "Hey, was there any group chat drama?" Well future, there you have it, heh.
This actually brings me back to the series So Don't Be on With Her, where I talked about stuff I found online. Good times, good times. Well, not exactly good, but, exciting during it's era, just 'cause it was new. Now, it doesn't compare to the specials and events that are premiering now, heh.
Anyways, gonna try to finish most work from other classes besides English 'cause that essay that's due tomorrow will require my full concentration, heh. I'ma give myself a full on 2 hours straight. 'Course, easier said than done. Also the drama hasn't stopped, there's messages upon messages that when I try to read and catch up, the chat automatically scrolls down to the bottom, Fucking Facebook man, heh. Alright, see ya.
Week: 29
Songs to Remember: Tell Me (What is love) - Yoo Young Jin (유영진) × D.O. (디오 EXO)
As you might know, it's the weekend, and with weekends, there's usually nothing to really talk about except for when there's practices or performances or whatever rare event that happens. So, might as well just talk a bit more about my current self, as well as whatever else I wanna talk about,
I've been meaning to talk about my interaction levels for a while now. I'm not sure how to really describe "interaction levels," it's like uhhh, the way I act around people, what I'm really like. And the truth is, I'm not sure what I "really" sound like. I think even for these posts, I talk in a personal manner. You could see that because I don't really insert a lot of memes, whereas with my buddies, I do that a lot, heh.
So one of the "voices" I use is when I'm talking to my buddies either in person (rarely though, since they go to different schools. You know them, it's Ec, Mc, etc) or in the Discord group chat, or Discord calls. We use a lot of slang that we've been accustomed to and understand, I actually use the racial African American slur, that we all know which one that is, frequently with my buddies, sad as it may sound, heh. For us all, we know that we're joking and it ain't ever really serious. I first started using it as a form of satire, to make fun of people who use that word and aren't African American. Soon enough, it became incorporated into my vocabulary and uh, the rest is history. I only use it with my close close buddies though.
Next is the voice I use is when I'm with the cast, and as the cast have said, I use a lot of sarcasm. That's, that's basically it really. I mean, I tease Ag and Ek with it, that's about it, heh. Also DrewN counts as one of my buddies so, I talk to him as I would my online buddies. Also, just noticed, guess I talk to people differently based on closeness, and, sense of humor. My buddies and I find a lot of dark humor funny, so, there's that. Others, I'm either not sure if they do, or, if they don't find it funny at all.
The next voice is with my cousin, whom I make a lot of video references with, we sorta developed a way of speaking to each other where we both could understand each other's slang. It consists a lot of "Ay boy" and uh, yeah, heh.
And finally, the voice I use in pretty much all my classes or people I'm not THAT close with. I try not to be too enthusiastic on things, I see what they like and try to roll with it. It's 'cause I'm not sure what things they're comfortable with so, don't know the ballpark on the extremity for how I can act.
And of course there are other voices I use such as when I talk to my parents, adults, teachers, etc. Now after looking over all of this, apparently I change the way the I act to like, conform to others, which is a pretty bad thing to be honest. In some situations, yeah, you gotta be respectful and professional, but most of the time, you just do you. So, there's that.
Alright, enough talk about voices, there's been some drama with the VSA cabinet and KDT and this one other group, which I've mentioned before, "BEAT!." Apparently the color-guard performance group, BEAT!, is only in the day show performance for the upcoming VSA show and not in the night show performance. Oh and by the way, KDT did get in the VSA show, thank goodness, heh. Anyways, this caused a lot of controversy (especially within the KDT group chat) because another group, this band, auditioned late and still got into the show.
The VSA cabinet said that they couldn't put BEAT! in due to how tight the schedule is for the show, that there'd be too many acts. Counter arguments for this is that last year, there were around 18 acts for the VSA show, also, the band that got in is only going to sing English songs and that isn't exactly "traditional" as how the VSA cabinet wants the show to be.
The VSA cabinet further contradicted themselves when an act which consisted of these 2 girls singing Vietnamese songs didn't get in, due to the reason from VSA that they were "too traditional" and that it wasn't modern enough. So, with all that, BEAT! has dropped out of the list of acts for the VSA show. KDT is thinking of dropping out as well, due to the fact that with all this, we had to choreograph and do Vietnamese songs instead of K-Pop songs in order to be more "traditional."
We're also planning to drop out and boycott the VSA show because apparently all performers have to sell a certain number of tickets. Like, required to. Still not sure if we're gonna drop out, still waiting for the drama to completely draw out, I think there's been a total of about 400+ messages today in the group chat just from these issues.
In all honesty, I think it's due to poor work ethics and favoritism within the VSA cabinet. They said they were gonna post the VSA act admission results Friday, then it got moved to Friday night, and only today did they post it. I heard that some of the members were going all out Friday night instead of planning out and informing VSA performers the situation and shit. Also, bias. The band is a boy band, their music is okay in my opinion, and uh, ya know, compared to general Viet songs and their songs (which are of course in English), people at our school would most likely want to listen to stuff they'd understand.
Compared to BEAT's act, which consists of visually appealing and artful (if that's even a word) flag manipulations, to the VSA cabinet, the band would be more appealing, apparently. So, the VSA cabinet's picking a modern act over a traditional act (which is what they initially wanted for the VSA show to be) just because they liked them more. Also, 4 fucking hat dances, heh. There's 4 hat dance performances in the show, like, damn.
One thing that funny to me in all of this was that the KDT president was thinking of dropping the SUBOI dance because we'll get made fun of if do perform with that song. I laughed 'cause I was like "Damn, the only dance that I got recognition for, my bread and butter, and they're deciding to remove it completely, heh." They didn't though, or, at least not yet. The issue's still going on, all this drama, and sure it'll blow away once everything settles, it'll be a story to tell for sure next year when we're preparing for the VSA show, but uh, its nice to record all this 'cause what if future wonders "Hey, was there any group chat drama?" Well future, there you have it, heh.
This actually brings me back to the series So Don't Be on With Her, where I talked about stuff I found online. Good times, good times. Well, not exactly good, but, exciting during it's era, just 'cause it was new. Now, it doesn't compare to the specials and events that are premiering now, heh.
Anyways, gonna try to finish most work from other classes besides English 'cause that essay that's due tomorrow will require my full concentration, heh. I'ma give myself a full on 2 hours straight. 'Course, easier said than done. Also the drama hasn't stopped, there's messages upon messages that when I try to read and catch up, the chat automatically scrolls down to the bottom, Fucking Facebook man, heh. Alright, see ya.
Friday, March 4, 2016
Friday, March 4, 2016 "Exclusive."
Friday, March 4, 2016
Week: 29
Songs to Remember: Press Your Number - Taemin
So I just wanna put it out there, things are still unknown to me, I get a lot of mood swings. I don't remember who said this, but I remember the quote was like, "As you grow up, you'll experience emotions you've never felt before." And it's true.
Psychology was what you'd expect. We were in groups again, and the projects don't stop. We have to create a motivational poster and diet schedule for a theoretical couple who want to lose weight. Last week we had to film a skit, now we gotta do this as well. I think I've had more projects in this class than any other.
English was another instance where things don't go as planned. I was ready to take the exam, but uh, apparently like, half the class is missing since there's like a band performance at a college, so uh, yeah. So, the teacher has us vote whether we wanna take the exam today, or, on Monday. Since we wasted around 10 minutes discussing about it, we basically just voted for Monday. And also 'cause it wouldn't be fair for us since the people who are gone today get like an extra 4 days (which was when the make-up exam day was scheduled). We just watched more of the Beloved movie and worked on our essays in the meantime.
Biology, where we essentially get more free time. We weighed our plants, have to take 'em home and like, measure the surface area of the leaves, my group members didn't want it so I took it and put it in my locker 'cause it was starting to attract insects, and I didn't want that in my house, heh. Test on Monday, which means I'll have to add studying to my list of what I gotta do this weekend. I'm just glad KDT practice got moved to next week.
Math was the usual again, lunch was the usual again, the cast is planning to have a game night tomorrow but, with the amount of shit I gotta do, not sure if I can do it. Anyways, US History was just us researching other conspiracy theories, writing it on paper, all the while we watch a James Files interview. Chinese was no different, except as we were doing work and practicing how to write Chinese characters, the teacher showed us bootleg Facebook videos.
Now, here's when shit gets a bit deep. There was KDT practice today, and uh, you know, I practiced a lot last night, I was ready to be evaluated for the BTS "Dope" dance. It was said that practice today was going to be for more of BTS' "Dope," and I thought we'd do the evaluations before, then learn the new parts. Apparently not, we spent an hour and a half learning new content, and then, when it came to evaluations towards the last 5 minutes of practice, we had to do both the part we learned on Monday, and, the new content.
I've said this before, that I don't like how we gotta take in the new content we just learned in amidst of just 1 and a half hours of practice and be evaluated on that. If they'd give me a day to practice at home, sure, I'd be confident and would sure be able to do it. But I guess they prefer doing it this way and that's fine. So for evaluations, I got the first part down, the one we already learned, but I don't think I did well on the 2nd part, the one we just learned in the course of an hour and a half.
Some people are faster learners, I consider myself to be slower, just need personal time to practice on my own. They releasing the list of the ones who passed on Sunday, so, hopefully I did get in. Considering how many people were there, I'd doubt it though. Anyways, there's a lot of new people who've joined KDT apparently, like this one guy, I'm guessing he's a freshmen since he hangs out with the other freshmen in KDT.
The head of KDT was like "Hey, you came to the practice on Monday right?" And he was like "Yeah" and she's like "Ya gotta introduce yourself or else we won't know who you are, heh." And then uh, everybody's like "Oh damn" to the guy who started coming to practices like, since Monday. And towards the end of practice, the president was like "Ay, welcome our new member" and he was put in the middle of our group circle huddle thing.
So the thing that bothers me is that, why didn't they do this to other new members? Like, there's a fair bit of others who've recently started coming too, but they only bring attention to him, and I really don't want to think that it's because he's a guy and all the girls (which are around 95% of KDT) are like "Mmmm finally another dude in KDT," but I just can't help it.
So why don't I get praise like that? That's a question I'd wanna know. And yes, I have gotten it before when Th brought the group's attention to my dancing in SUBOI in the group chat, it felt really good, my confidence was through the fucking roof from that. But that'll be just a one time thing probably. I appreciated the support, but I've been supporting others my whole life I feel like, on the sidelines. Maybe I'm just being selfish and jealous, and envy's got me again.
I just don't know what to do. The only cast member I really connect to now is DrewN and the only social hobby I'm trying to get into is KDT. I do feel very special when we do performances, because it feels exclusive, just like what the president of KDT says, KDT family, but with more and more people joining, it's hard to stand out.
My emotions are hard to be put into words, because you can't read feelings, you gotta feel 'em I guess, heh. Maybe I am being a fucking crybaby again, heh, I don't know man. Call me a hypocrite, selfish, jealous, whatever you want, it's true for now 'cause I think this is just another phase for me, and I'm looking forward to what I'm gonna experience next.
Oh and uh, if I do get to stay in "Dope" when they post the evluation results, I take allll of this back, heh. I think that's one of the driving forces why I feel this way right now, 'cause I'm confident that I wasn't confident enough to not mess up during evaluations. But anyways, it's 11;37 PM, I am going to bed to catch up on sleep, see ya.
Week: 29
Songs to Remember: Press Your Number - Taemin
So I just wanna put it out there, things are still unknown to me, I get a lot of mood swings. I don't remember who said this, but I remember the quote was like, "As you grow up, you'll experience emotions you've never felt before." And it's true.
Psychology was what you'd expect. We were in groups again, and the projects don't stop. We have to create a motivational poster and diet schedule for a theoretical couple who want to lose weight. Last week we had to film a skit, now we gotta do this as well. I think I've had more projects in this class than any other.
English was another instance where things don't go as planned. I was ready to take the exam, but uh, apparently like, half the class is missing since there's like a band performance at a college, so uh, yeah. So, the teacher has us vote whether we wanna take the exam today, or, on Monday. Since we wasted around 10 minutes discussing about it, we basically just voted for Monday. And also 'cause it wouldn't be fair for us since the people who are gone today get like an extra 4 days (which was when the make-up exam day was scheduled). We just watched more of the Beloved movie and worked on our essays in the meantime.
Biology, where we essentially get more free time. We weighed our plants, have to take 'em home and like, measure the surface area of the leaves, my group members didn't want it so I took it and put it in my locker 'cause it was starting to attract insects, and I didn't want that in my house, heh. Test on Monday, which means I'll have to add studying to my list of what I gotta do this weekend. I'm just glad KDT practice got moved to next week.
Math was the usual again, lunch was the usual again, the cast is planning to have a game night tomorrow but, with the amount of shit I gotta do, not sure if I can do it. Anyways, US History was just us researching other conspiracy theories, writing it on paper, all the while we watch a James Files interview. Chinese was no different, except as we were doing work and practicing how to write Chinese characters, the teacher showed us bootleg Facebook videos.
Now, here's when shit gets a bit deep. There was KDT practice today, and uh, you know, I practiced a lot last night, I was ready to be evaluated for the BTS "Dope" dance. It was said that practice today was going to be for more of BTS' "Dope," and I thought we'd do the evaluations before, then learn the new parts. Apparently not, we spent an hour and a half learning new content, and then, when it came to evaluations towards the last 5 minutes of practice, we had to do both the part we learned on Monday, and, the new content.
I've said this before, that I don't like how we gotta take in the new content we just learned in amidst of just 1 and a half hours of practice and be evaluated on that. If they'd give me a day to practice at home, sure, I'd be confident and would sure be able to do it. But I guess they prefer doing it this way and that's fine. So for evaluations, I got the first part down, the one we already learned, but I don't think I did well on the 2nd part, the one we just learned in the course of an hour and a half.
Some people are faster learners, I consider myself to be slower, just need personal time to practice on my own. They releasing the list of the ones who passed on Sunday, so, hopefully I did get in. Considering how many people were there, I'd doubt it though. Anyways, there's a lot of new people who've joined KDT apparently, like this one guy, I'm guessing he's a freshmen since he hangs out with the other freshmen in KDT.
The head of KDT was like "Hey, you came to the practice on Monday right?" And he was like "Yeah" and she's like "Ya gotta introduce yourself or else we won't know who you are, heh." And then uh, everybody's like "Oh damn" to the guy who started coming to practices like, since Monday. And towards the end of practice, the president was like "Ay, welcome our new member" and he was put in the middle of our group circle huddle thing.
So the thing that bothers me is that, why didn't they do this to other new members? Like, there's a fair bit of others who've recently started coming too, but they only bring attention to him, and I really don't want to think that it's because he's a guy and all the girls (which are around 95% of KDT) are like "Mmmm finally another dude in KDT," but I just can't help it.
So why don't I get praise like that? That's a question I'd wanna know. And yes, I have gotten it before when Th brought the group's attention to my dancing in SUBOI in the group chat, it felt really good, my confidence was through the fucking roof from that. But that'll be just a one time thing probably. I appreciated the support, but I've been supporting others my whole life I feel like, on the sidelines. Maybe I'm just being selfish and jealous, and envy's got me again.
I just don't know what to do. The only cast member I really connect to now is DrewN and the only social hobby I'm trying to get into is KDT. I do feel very special when we do performances, because it feels exclusive, just like what the president of KDT says, KDT family, but with more and more people joining, it's hard to stand out.
My emotions are hard to be put into words, because you can't read feelings, you gotta feel 'em I guess, heh. Maybe I am being a fucking crybaby again, heh, I don't know man. Call me a hypocrite, selfish, jealous, whatever you want, it's true for now 'cause I think this is just another phase for me, and I'm looking forward to what I'm gonna experience next.
Oh and uh, if I do get to stay in "Dope" when they post the evluation results, I take allll of this back, heh. I think that's one of the driving forces why I feel this way right now, 'cause I'm confident that I wasn't confident enough to not mess up during evaluations. But anyways, it's 11;37 PM, I am going to bed to catch up on sleep, see ya.
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