Tuesday, May 16, 2017 "Guiltulative."

Tuesday, May 16, 2017

Week: 41

Songs to Remember: For Real (진짜를 꺼내봐) - OVAN (오반), Drawing the Line - Royal Pirates, 

        Nope, it's just Tuesday, and yes, it is 12:03 AM. I only now realized that, since there ain't gonna be anymore seasons or pre-seasons after next next week, that means the series will be ending on season 43.

        So I got some work done today. Got some design finished, got some bits and pieces of work done. Still got a lot though. These days I've just been way too tired. There's just been so much that's happened the past couple months, there's still so much that's yet to happen or are going to happen these few weeks.

        In terms of, events outside of school that is. 'Course school events too, but. Coursework, I should say, is, really nothing at this point. I mean, in Chinese, we've literally ran out of stuff to do. We've already done our final as well so, nothing really to prepare for. Same goes math, and uh, yeah.

        Okay so I was gonna end this post here but there's actually some stuff I can talk about now, I just remembered. Today, there's been some drama, some, really, necessary drama. I told Jk about how me, Cc, Tm, and Cc's friend (KDT member, he was only in the Lunar Show performance and that was it). Her friend actually added me on Facebook yesterday. It was kinda out of nowhere but I was like "Alright." He asked me how things were going and I was like "It's been alright." And then he's like "So I heard you and Cathy are gonna be sharing a hotel room. Do you have any extra room for one more?"

        And I'm thinking like "tsk, BOI." Like, heh, I mean alright. Now I didn't mention this before but there's been some conflict, some under-ground conflict, between him and DrewH. DrewH and him, we'll, actually I think I gave him a name before. It was like, Xn, or something. We'll just use that for now. So, him and Xn, they're, they've both been trying to get at Cathy for a while now. I know because of, DrewH's snapchat stories. I also asked him about a something that he shared on Snapchat, and he gave me access to read this one anecdotal story he wrote with the names "censored out," buuuut, it was pretty obvious who the characters were, heh.

        And he really hates Xn too. Like, really hates him. I know because, he made some lists that were posted on his Snapchat story, detailing some of the dislikes that DrewH has for Xn. Some, err, more so, most, was pretty just plain mean, mean things. Uhhh, yeah, so there's the backstory on that. Anyways, Xn asks if he can join in on the hotel stuff and uh, I asked Cc if she was alright with it and she was like "I'm fine with anything," so I was like "Alright," and gave him the okay. Well, today, I uh, told Jk about my Fanime plans, he inadvertently told DrewH about the Fanime plans (I don't think he knows about Xn staying in the hotel room with us, so that's good), and uh, DrewH told Cc that he's not going to Fanime anymore.

        So now there's this whole dilema, with words being tossed around, details, all between me, Jk, Cc, DrewH, and Xn. Xn's asking me like "Can you help a brotha out" and like, Jk's helping Cc keep tabs on DrewH's actions, DrewH ain't responding to Cc's responses over text, and, it's just, all stemming from DrewH really. From Cc and Xn and Jk's details, DrewH got some people to try to guilt her into like, begging or asking DrewH to re-think his decision on not going to Fanime. And that's, where my personal input comes in.

        When Cc told me that DrewH is getting people to guilt-trip her and shit to get her to beg him to go and shit, that made me feel bad. I thought to myself "Aw fuck, that's, kinda what I did too." I did not know that, what I did before, with the whole, you-know, situation, wasn't actually going in the direction where I wanted it to. It veered off and instead, just, made somebody feel bad, worried, etc. It wasn't, improving, my situation, it was lowering hers. And in the end? Shit still didn't go the way I wanted things to.

        Shit like this kind of manipulation, I would now suggest to, not try it. On the off-chance that it works, hey, good for you. But really it's, just shady stuff. You first have to consider the other person's existing feelings, and then how all of that would affect them. You gotta, ask yourself "What if this was done to me, with me already feeling blah blah etc, how would I feel after?" So yeah, if there's something that I did wrong, another, mistake, that I made in that all, it was definitely the manipulation part. If there's any justification at all (which there never should be), it was the detail given to me that mutuals and outside sources had an impact on it all.

        But anyways, back to this situation. Cc feels like she doesn't know what to do. I reassured her that she's not obligated to do anything and that really, this is all stemming from DrewH. If he chooses to not to go, that's his decision. He just has to put aside the fact that just one, single person he dislikes, is going to the same location as he is, nearing the person he appreciates. And it does seem that he cares about Cc, but from Cc's detailing, it's kinda just controlling at points, and is he's just being, immature. Manipulative at times, like this, to get his way.

        From her recollection, this ain't the first time. Back in October, he did the same exact thing, and only because Xn was going to be going with them. Shit's, he's getting on her nerves, from what Cc told me. All this is just stemming from one person, and yes, this is unecessary. All of this. Like, it was all going well, Cc was feeling all good today, and then after that she was just, ehhhh. It's, unfortunate, that these things happen, and like, even Cc's trying to talk to him about it, like, ask the reasons behind some the shit, but so far he has not responded or from Jk's intel, he doesn't want to talk.

        So it's just like ??? Like, the Nick Young face. Anyways, hopefully time will, make things, change minds. It's 1:07 AM, I'm tired, see ya.