Tuesday, March 14, 2017 "Pi."

Tuesday, March 14, 2017
Week: 32
Songs to Remember: Girlfriend - Big Bang, Paradise - NCT 127

        Gotta love the bipolar weather with 70's and 80's this week, only for it to rain in the 60's next week.

        Also gotta love how I ain't getting much sleep. Now partially it ain't my fault, I, because of how I don't take my afternoon naps anymore, I take 'em at night, resulting in me, going to sleep at like 9:00 PM, and waking up at 11:00 PM to finish shit that I didn't even start. Like just this night. It's 1:31 AM, I took a nap from 10:00 PM to 11:00 PM, had to finish making two mixes (relatively short ones) for KDT, as well as finish math work.

        As for the day, shit's not giving me a break, heh. Apparently 15 minutes can turn into a "stay after school 'till 7:00 PM" and a dinner can turn into a "wait in line for 2 hours to get some discount pizza." I gotta say though, that was the most bomb pizza I've had in my life so far. So, the day was the usual, except that it was, fucking hot, considering the weather we've been having recently.

        After going from math class to the lockers with Jk, I traversed through to the block where Kt and Mp and their friends hang out. Kt was of course, happy to see me, considering I, I told her I'd date her after yesterday's shenanigans. We walked to her next class whilst holding hands (all not my idea btw). We hugged, and then I left. Again, not, not really feeling anything, and not making a big deal out of it all because I don't, I don't think of it as special, especially in these circumstances, heh. It's kinda just "eHHHH," sorta feeling.

        A short opinion on holding hands: shit ain't shit, heh. It's not something that's- it's not as special as you'd think. Basically you're just, visually showing to those around you "Hey look, I'm with somebody." Literally it. Anyways, after the hug and me trying to walk to my 3rd period, Jk confronts me and he's like "So, what was that all about, huh." I'm like "Oh my fucking- why did you recon the whole situation."

        After school was when things got spicy. Kt messaged me like, 15 minutes before 6th period ended, and I couldn't really respond 'cause we can't have our phones out in 6th period, at all. She meets up with me after school, she's like "Are you free after school?" and I'm like "I mean, I guess, for like 15 minutes." 'Cause ya know, my mom was already parked and waiting to pick me up. Had she messaged me earlier, maybe one period earlier, I could've told my mom not to come at all. However, I did end up staying for a lot longer than 15 minutes.

        Kt was like "Mp and I are gonna go eat dinner, you wanna come with." I'm like "Oh dinner. Sure, just, lemme ask my mom about it." And then blah blah, I'm staying 'till 7:00 PM to eat dinner with Kt and Mp. However, didn't really get to eat until I got home from it all. We went to this pizza place, this pizza place that specializes in pizza pies, because of course, today was "pi" day, and they had pizza pies on discount for only $3.14 (which is a steal considering the regular price is like, $11 for a pizza pie). We stood in line for like, 3 hours, which, turned out to be not really worth it, heh.

        A lot of hand-holding, a lot of poking, lots of head-on-shoulder action, all, were not my ideas, heh. Oh yeah, forgot to mention that, as me and Kt were going to meet up with Mp, Kb and his buddy were there, just leaving after getting books from their lockers. Kt and I were holding hands at this time and I'm just like "D-oh, shit." I really don't want bad shit between me and Kb, but, eHHHH. Timing couldn't have been any better.

        Anyways, we got our pizzas, picked up Kt's mom from work, dropped Mp home, and then I got dropped off home. And, Kt wanted to say hello to my mom, again. Long, long day, even longer with all the waiting. Tomorrow, I'm staying after school 'till like, 5:00 PM, because we are filming our audition video to be in the Trojan Olympics rally. You know, the pride rally before the night of like, a "battle of the classes" sorta thing event, at school. We'll soon be doing BlackPink's "Boombayah," BTS' "Fire," Red Velvet's "Russian Roulette," and the intro to Red Velvet's "Rookie."

        And just for clarification, Big Bang's "Girlfriend" is just a coincidence that it's added to the Precisely Refined OST now, not planned or scripted this time actually. And NCT 127's "Paradise," currently is the 1st song to be added in the fan voting for series end theme. It's now 1:56 AM, see ya

Monday, March 13, 2017 "Oh, my, god."

Monday, March 13, 2017

Week: 32

Songs to Remember: That's What I Like - Bruno Mars, Girlfriend - Big Bang, Take It (선택해) - MVP (엠브이피)

        My best remedy right now is sleep, because I've been awake for too long. I've STAYED WOKE FOR TOO LONG.

        Besides pointless school work (currently it is pointless, there's nothing much I can do, my grades have been stabilized for a while now), uhhh, there's some more shit going down. So besides the deadlines I've talked about yesterday, nothing much new.

        Except the fact that Kt asked me to date her, and it went a little something like this. She held my hand, we were side by side, near the under-stairs of the L-building, during KDT practice during break time, and, she was like "Wanna hear a joke?" I'm like "Sure I guess" and she's like "Knock knock" and I'm like "Who's there" and she's like "Date me." I was like "That did not sound like a very good joke."

        I'm just there thinking like "Oh, my, god" Kinda like how that one dad said in the movie "Big Fat Liar," when Marty was at the kid's birthday party. And I did proceed with caution, as always. I was like "Hmmm, gonna need some time to think about it." She's like "How long do you need" and I'm like "Hmm, gimme like an hour, or, maybe 'till 5:30 PM." Fortunately it worked out. It allowed me to recollect my thoughts, allowed my, my KDT buddies to express what they thought of everything, especially Rh, Ln, and Bp.

        I had, basically no determination in learning the dance today, just, just wanted to get home and, think it all out. During practice, however, because I told Kt that I needed time, apparently she got pissed about that, about that very rational request, and told Cc "What a dick. He said he needs time to think about it." And like, Cc told Ln and Bp and, like, and then they told me, and I'm just like "Oh, my, god."

        Usually I don't give a fuck what people call me, it's the reason, for calling me shit, that pisses me off. Kt's reason was just, absurd. I was really ready to go off on her. At home, i carefully compiled a nice, philosophical message of questions, asking why she would call such a positive person who has done nothing at all wrong, a dick." Luckily I did not go through with it all. I thought it all over, I talked to Cc about it (talked to her on Snap for like, the entire day basically, only because she's my only recon for this situation I'm in 'cause Kt trusts her and keeps on ranting to her about everything going between me and her, good or bad, so, it's Kt's fault that Cc's involved in all this, heh).

        And uh, decided that, the best possible outcome for anybody here, is for me to just, go with it. She's gonna break up with me eventually, there's no doubt about that. So, instead of creating catastrophe at this instant when things are still rocky, I'll just play along. The worst is that I get too attached and she pops me, but fortunately I ain't feeling shit right now, so, can't, can't really get hurt at what you can't feel.

        The series dance movie can really go either ways, or, any ways really, and, it's, it's my fault it's heading down this path. The path of, as my Discord fam says it, hit it and quit it. Not the ending I'd choose, but it's an ending nonetheless. Okay not ending, but, ending experience-ish. You get what I mean. I'd compare this to a uh, choose-your-own-adventure book. And I guess this is what I've chosen.

        You can call me a dramaqueen, I agree that I do stir up drama, although not as much as some other people that I know. And uh, yeah I deserve this I guess. I asked, I received. This'll just be a life lesson: YOU LOOKING FOR A HEART OF GOLD, DREW, OR YOU LOOKING TO HIT IT AND QUIT IT. Anyways, it's 11:03 PM and I really, really need sleep, because my eyes were closed for two periods today. And so, see ya.

Sunday, March 12, 2017 "Jam."

Sunday, March 12, 2017
Week: 31
Songs to Remember: OUTRO: WINGS - BTS

        Finally some time to reflect upon the shit that's been coming along, coming and going, appearing, happening, and so on.

        Shit's kinda, kinda been going down, heh. Not sure what to really say. Umm, things moving, moving fast outside of class, slow within, especially because, classes aren't my focus anymore, at least for right now. I'm not gonna slack off too too much, but I will slack off when shit ain't necessary for me to work.

        I got college forms to turn in (fuck you, IRS, for fucking me over with your useless call system and transcript identification pre-requisites), I got, prom services to manage/ schedule (corsages, boutonnieres, photo-shoots, transportation). I got, dances to learn, mixes to make, dances to teach, shows to perform. During spring break I'm hoping to get my driver's license on a whim, so as to not have my dad drive me from and to prom, or, anywhere else for that matter.

        And like, there's only 3 months left of school. So all that, fit into 3 months. It's, it's jam-packed. An update on my health: it's, it's going alright. My health improvement schedule is being circulated, being changed, will be improved upon this upcoming week with the delivery of a few more items. Ummm, but yeah, it's been going alright. Water drinking, I've, since conditioned myself to drink well enough, much more than i was about, a month and a half ago now.

        But yeah. Tomorrow there's KDT practice, we'll be learning MIN's "Shine Your Light," which is another Viet-pop song, meaning, the dance can't be too hard, right? Then uh, yeah, rest of everything's gonna hopefully not be too too crazy 'cause this week was just, a whole bag of jargon already. Also, new soundtrack tracks, finally, getting some new shit up in here. It's been a while and I've gotten sick of listening to the same shit over and over.

        Anyways, yeah, it's 12:23 AM, fuck daylight savings, see ya.

Saturday, March 11, 2017 "Paper Lights."

Saturday, March 11, 2017
Week: 31
Songs to Remember:

        Long story short, snuck out at 10:00 PM to play some pool with Dv and Ec. Then went to 7/11 to get some food, we came back to my place to watch Sausage Party as well as Face-time with Kt, which, it's 3:22 AM right now because of daylight savings. Fuck me, see ya.

Friday, March 10, 2017 "Boom."

Friday, March 10, 2017
Week: 31
Songs to Remember: Boom Boom - Seventeen, DayDay - BeWhy

        Okay, I'm definitely gonna have to re-fuel this weekend because I have been missing my sleeps for a while now.

        Today was just a few more L's, such as a math test, but that's okay. Not much else besides a lot of dancing, and a lot of boom booms. It worked out though, just, just a little tired. And hot. And sweaty. When I say that when and if I become a millionaire, the first thing i'ma spend my money on is an AC system for the dance room of my school, because godamn is it hot with 30+ people exerting heat.

        But yeah, nothing much else. Very tired, took a nap from like, 9:00 PM to now, which is like, 1:05 AM, of which, I will now go back to sleep. See ya.