Tuesday, March 7, 2017
Week: 31
Songs to Remember: YEAH - BLANC7, WITHOUT U - ROMEO, Bad Things - Machine Gun Kelly
It's Tuesday. Only, Tuesday. It's also March 7th, only March 7th. I was expecting to go home today, and uh, I am, after a bit of, venturing. Now my schedule's filled, I'm making promises that might be a bit tight to keep, playing with fire, gaining much more info than I can use, and uh, it's 9:26 PM.
So where do I start? Should I just sacrifice sleep for tonight and get as much done as possible before things start shaking? Well things are already moving but you get what I mean. Let's just recap with some intel from yesterday that I did not get to say. So, Kt and I were practicing right next to each other, she couldn't focus 'cause there was a lot of shit running through her mind and I don't blame her, it's certainly a lot. And, I couldn't really focus because what she was thinking, as well, planning and shit. And the teachers (no disrepect to Bp and Rh who were teaching) who were going a bit too much on the moves and less of overall reviewing.
Kt was like "I'm thinking of breaking up with him blah blah blah," or something. And me, with my quick thinking, go "Why? What for?" and she's like- her reason for breaking up with him (or maybe one of the reasons) was, and I sorta quote: "He acts like I'm too good for him." And, ya know, I've heard A LOT of reasons for break-ups before, and uh, this is probably the most obscene one. I have never, ever heard something like this before. 'Cause like, I... what? Is it even fixable? Isn't, isn't it good that somebody upholds you so much? I don't know, maybe that shit pisses her off and she's tired of it. Everybody's preferences are different. I don't have the full full story, but so far it sounds kinda snake-y, continuing to add to the snake theory.
She also said to go get milk tea on like, Thursday or something, so I was planning that. But today (disregard the rest of every single class, shit doesn't really matter anymore. I'ma be saying the same fucking thing every day like "digital art was the same, math was the usual." It's a given by now that my classes suck ass and are boring. Shit's about what's outside, now), shit got stirred up. For good, for bad, or for even worse. Jk and I were walking from our lockers during break to our table, like we usually do, and, I see Kt hanging out at the spot/benches located in front/in the general area of where we hang out at. I'm like "Hey" and she's like "Hey," and proceeds to ask me to go get free iHop pancakes ('cause today was national pancake day) with her and her buddies after school, like, today. I'm like "Uhhhh, sure. Can you give me a ride though?" and she was like "Yeah sure" so I was like "Alright, looks like I'm getting pancakes after school."
Fast forward to lunch and, me and Ag were standing in line to get lunch. She mentions "So, what's with you and Kt?" and I'm like "Okay, what did she say." 'Course, Ag doesn't say shit, heh. Apparently Kt and Ag are in the same class for AP Psych 1st period. Umm, so that, I can deduce from that that Kt's been asking 'bout me or some shit. Fast forward to lunch, I'm eating at our table, aaand, Kt comes on over with Mp, you know, Mp, our mutual KDT friend. Kt's like "Hey do you wanna go to my house after getting pancakes?" It was just, so sudden. Like, first plans for dinner, then milk tea, then pancakes, and all-of-a-sudden-fam, move on to, going to her house.
Very all of a sudden, heh. But uh, of course, I said yeah, and uh, it was settled. This, this probably, I don't know what I did to start all this. Probably from doing that fucking, dinner thing asking during the cast and I's KBBQ lunch. That was like a door opening slightly and she's like "peekaboo." But yeah, I was, the whole rest of the day I was waiting for school to end so I could go on this venture, see where it takes me. Turns out, it took me a lot more places than I thought. Ain't spoiling shit yet, at least not in this paragraph.
I meet up with Kt and her buddies, which were one of Mp and Kt's mutual friends, whom, I think was in KDT for the VSA show. And, Mp. And her, and then there's me. Her dad drove all 4 of us to the local iHop, the same one where we ate during lunar show, and uh, we ate some free fucking pancakes, heh. Tasted just like, regular pancakes. Saw Jh there too, who, obviously came for free pancakes as well. The whole time she and I were getting closer and closer, for her at least. I was really just going along with everything, like, she's splashing water and I'm splashing back (metaphorically of course). Things were mellow, Mp shared our same sense of humor, etc.
We drove to a park to think about where to go next. It was either her house, or, the park, or, Target, to, pick up shit. Very obscure place to go to. Apparently they've done this before as when we got to Target, Mp and their friend got straight into a shopping cart for Kt to push 'em around in like their 12, heh. It transferred to me pushing them around while Kt was leading the way (stil pulling the cart too though). We went to the different food aisles, consumables, house products, makeup, etc.
One thing I do not like to talk about, nor do I ever really talk about, on here, is about my face. It's my lowest insecurity and when people bring it up, I, I just wanna brush it off. This time, we were in one of those beauty aisles, ya know, with the facial washes and the salicylic acid and shit, and, Kt asked me what products I used. Now normally I'd be extremely, extremely, uncomfortable about all of this, especially, in a place like this. But, considering that she's open to stuff about this, ain't uncomfortable about stuff like this, and is basically (in her view) almost the same situation as I am, I went along with it and showed that, yes, I am using a scheme, a schedule, of products, that I am trying to make things better for myself and my confidence.
And, she does want me to get better. And I think, having the ability to support that, something I'm really insecure about but is offering to be open about it, that's, that's one of the redeeming qualities about her so far. The rest, well, you can judge that yourself. After Target, we were in the car and we were driving to go drop off Mp and then go pick up Kt's mom (her dad was driving btw). On the way, Kt was talking about, err, asking if I was going to prom. I was like "Hmmm, I don't know, not sure if I have anybody to go with." And in reality I had a... shit ton of options, heh, but I was testing the waters. I'm going with what this Reddit user said (I know, but hear me out first). He/she said that you want to show that you have interest, but don't chase. It's as if it's like a bull coming at you. Scary right? So what you do is you just show that you're interested, and if the other person is interested as well, they'll do something about it, even the littlest of things.
There are rare cases that they are so fucking shy that they don't but, those are rare. Anyways, she said "You could go with me" and I was like "Do you wanna go?" Do you really wanna go? I'm all for it if you wanna go?" And the rest, is history. Mostly because I do not remember anything else she said. She said something 'bout the prom blow-out sale being tomorrow, and uh, yeah, it is tomorrow so that means we'll be waitjng a FUCK-TON long, of time. And, ya know, considering I wanna experience all the High school tropes, I, don't wanna have the prom asking be like "I was in her dad's car. She asked me if I was going. I said I wasn't sure who to go with, she said herself, I said okay. Like, sounds bland doesn't it? Sounds bootleg too, heh. So I told her I'd do like a promposal thing, just to spice shit up, even though we were going.
She later asked me if we really were going and I was like "Yeah, as long as you're up for it." Oh and both her parents were in the car as they were driving me home. I know Kt doesn't really like her mom's attitude 'bout stuff lately, so, I tried to make myself all high-caliber and all that, buttering myself up as a nice, high-achieving student... which I am obviously not. Arriving at my house, Kt wanted to say high to my mom so, brought her in, she said hi, and yeah. Day was over. For now. She started asking me 'bout dresses and shit, like, I, I don't know much, but what I do know, is that the best I can do is give her sovereignty. I'll let her choose whatever dress she wants. And for the record, she ain't going with high-high heels, so uh, THANK THE LORD.
She's almost my height, btw. If it weren't for my hair adding some inches, I don't know man. Anyways, forgot to mention 'bout snake theory. Right now, not sure who to trust anymore. Why? Well, Kt talked to me 'bout DrewH while we were at iHop. She said that he hated me (like what?) because I always hung out around Cc. He thought that I liked her, and uh, yeah. Apparently he "liked" her since sophomore year. And like, I could sorta see where he was coming from, but, me and Cc have pretty much been nothing more than just meme buddies. I never hang out with Cc except during KDT practices, and like, overall, I see DrewH on some days, especially day, and like, he didn't seem to have any bad blood with me at all.
Probably because just today, he asked out Cc to prom, and of course, knowing Cc, she said yes. Jk was like "I saw DrewH with cakepops today. He's probably asking out Cc." And uh, yep. That was correct. What Kt also told me was that DrewH was a bit abusive? Like, he made Koby and whoever else make the prom poster for him, do uh, choreograph a dance for him to perform for Cc? I don't know. what to believe, that, doesn't sound like him. And I'm not sure anybody would just, ensnare manual labor like that on anybody for, just, a random reason.
So it could just be Kt making me want to hate DrewH, but I understand him, and I've done, nothing, nothing to make him absolutely hate me, nor I don't think he's that type that would, make people work for him as if they were slaves. Sounds very, very unbelievable. I'm still cautious, don't worry, still keeping my grounds and keeping watch for more intel on the snake theory. Until more personal shit starts coming in, I uh, I'm keeping close to this snake theory as I can. And besides, she's been showing interest signs ever since, Lunar Show. And uh, she also described to me 'bout how she was asked not once but twice to prom during her sophomore year. And yeah, she turned both 'em down, only because she wanted to celebrate her birthday and her sister being home.
I'm like "Holy fuck, is that rare." As you can see, she's definitely top-tier, and, only a very cautious fool would want to pass on something like this. I am uh, I am unfortunately not one of those. I am, however, cautious. Still waiting on the fool part. Oh and I also apparently signed up to tutor her in math on Thursdays, at her house, after school, for like an hour or shit. That's uh, that's, yeah, heh. This is definitely one of the most, most bizarre, trashy, messiest posts, I have ever written. But you know what? This is exactly what this series needs and wow, did the viewer count shoot up, like, holy shit. I know I'd wanna watch this. Even more so, I wanna watch and see what happens.
Tomorrow there's a make-up test I gotta do for English, only gonna take 'bout 20 minutes, during lunch time. Also math quiz, and, math test, and, Econ quiz, and, buying prom tickets, and, tutoring at Kt's house, and, teaching Seventeen's "Boom Boom," which is apparently her favorite group Also another redeemable quality 'bout her is that she likes a lot more groups than Atr. Or, more open, I should say, considering her Spotify playlist that she played in the car.
Did I mention she was cold though? The one thing I was fearing this whole time, well, one of the things, was Kb's reaction to this whole thing. She said she'd be breaking up with him/ breaking the news to him tomorrow, but just about 5 minutes ago, she, she fucking messaged him about it. It's, it's 10:43 PM. She was like "Kb said it's fine. It went surprisingly smooth." I'm thinking like "Holy fuck, she just fucking broke up with him over text bruh. How fucking cold is that." I mean sure it's only been a month, but like, godamn. Jee, fucking, zus. I can only imagine Kb fucking, crying his eyes out dude, I'd, I'd do just the same.
Holy. This is a, this ain't a snake we dealing with here. It's a Hila-monster, and dare I don't get bitten because, holy fuck. I replied "oooo, I mean alright." She was like "You can't take that back!!!!" I'm like "Take what back?" and she's like "That 'oooo'." I'm like "oooo" again and she's like "OMG pls, wdym by alright? Is there another motive?" And at this point, I'm fucking, I was about to get bitten and so I just brushed it off with "I'm like, 'alright, i was expecting it to be done tomorrow in person, but over text works too.'" She's like "Eh I thought I should just get it over with." I'm thinking like "This, this advanced, cold. This, this is sub-zero."
I mean, tomorrow's in just, 10 hours. 10, fucking hours. And, she can't wait that long? Over text is as cold as can be, both metaphorically and physically. Metaphorically as in not taking it as serious to do it in person that you send it via an electronic message, and physically, with, not having the person be in front of you to see it happen, rather, just, holding a cold piece of metal in your hands with the words "it's over" or something on it.
So it's 11:04 PM. And uh, apparently we AIN'T, I repeat, AIN'T. Or whatever. Kt said that Kb still "ships" us and I was like "Hopefully he supports us" and she hits me with the "wait what." I'm thinking like "Oooooooo fuck. Okay, apparently everything so far doesn't equate to dating, sooooo BACK IT UP." I was like "Hopefully he supports us going to prom together." And she's like "I'm still confused." I tried and change her train of thought, and, it worked thankfully. I was like "What does he mean by he sheips us?" and she was like "He thinks I liked you, even though I never talked to you." And that just, I needed a moment, to think, comprehend, what the fuck was all of this going on.
So, wh-what are we? See ya.
