Tuesday, March 28, 2017 "Could."

Tuesday, March 28, 2017
Week: 34
Songs to Remember: WEEWOO - PRISTIN (프리스틴), Long Time - X.Q

        "The Things That Could've Been" would make a really nice and edgy name for a teen angst novel. I'm pretty sure there's a book already out there with a name like this.

        I ran into Cl today (or was it Cn, pretty sure it I had her name be Cl).You know, the one I interacted with during the rally performance for Dance class. The one, who's a junior, and is in KDT? She actually hasn't been in any performances or practices since Lunar Show but uh, I think it it's just due to classwork and shit, and I agree, junior year's hard as fuck.

        She' still as friendly as ever, she was always friendly. I'm like "Fuck man, if only I knew she broke up with her BF earlier, I might be in a totally different situation right now." I would've asked her instead to prom, and uh, ya know, things might be different had I had done that. Probably would not move as fast as me and Kt right now, but at least in those circumstances, as in, with Cl, I'd feel much more secure knowing I can put 100% of trust in things.

        Whereas, it is still, I'm not expecting things to last. Even with all the shit going on, you know, despite all the new experiences that one can ask for, that one can dream of, there's still that part in my mind reminding me "Remember all the shit that happened before this, don't forget that one episode." I agree, that was one emotional episode, heh.

        Not the make-out one, the one where I felt like I betrayed my friends. That one. But uh yeah, things've been, different. Besides the guillotine hanging over my head, I've gotten some things done, as well, some things coming up. Such as, I got about 80% of my choreography figured out now. I am going to be honest and say that it is not mine, umm, it is parts of Romeo's "WITHOUT U" that is sped up to match the BPM for Taemin's "Press Your Number." However, it does fit pretty well, not gonna lie, and I like it a lot.

        I've spent quite a bit on clothing and shoes that I've gotta tone it down for now. I was $2000 on my account, now I'm at around $500, which is, could be better. I settled with my mind (whilst showering of course) to the notion that, I shouldn't really pay attention to what others are wearing (and I only should if necessary), but rather focus on what I personally wear. It came to me that, I cannot compete with these topdogs and so I should just relax, take the opportunities to make a profit when and if I can, and just, profit.

        Math final on Saturday, gotta study the day (or night rather) before, there's VSA practice on Thursday after school this week for some reason, uhhh, Kt asked me if I was free tomorrow, and I guess I am since my driving instructor won't arrive 'till around 5:00 PM, so, me and Kt gots until 5:00 PM tomorrow. Oh yeah and, driving practice tomorrow from 5:00 PM to 6:00 PM or something. Trojan Olympics rally performance on Friday, uhhh, VSA show and practice next week, then a week of nothing, then spring break, and theeeen the week leading up to the premier of the last movie for these series.

        Lots of shit, lots of stuff happening. Uhhh, I'll keep ya'll updated. For now, it's 11:06 PM, see ya.