Wednesday, May 4, 2016 "Motivational Writing."

Wednesday, May 4, 2016
Week: 38
Songs to Remember: Pogo - Digitalism, Find Me - Jun Hyosung

        I'm really just hoping for the bare minimum right now, I'm trying to do the bare minimum, just to get it all over with.

        Psych has currently been just for finishing (and starting math work). Not that great or efficient, but, it works. Tomorrow we're gonna be turning in our books back to the book-room. It feels real good to do so 'cause you know "Yep, never gonna touch this shit ever again."

        English has been on and off in turns of drowning me. Like, literally. I was at a 69%, a dangerous 69% 'cause that's a C-. Well, now I'm at a 67%, all because my feminist essay got a 65/100. And no, it wasn't just me. Others got the same, or around the same, majority of course. There were some, SOME, who got around an 80, but that's it. We all discussed this shit in the group chat and damn, it feels good to know that you aren't the only one getting fucked over.

        And no, like, it shouldn't be any of our faults. 3 essays within 6 days of each-other? And during AP exams week? I mean it's only Honors English, like, Jesus. I do blame some of it on the teacher for being a to harsh on us. I mean, it's the primary reason I ain't doing AP English. Compared to other Honors English classes, we just happen to get the one who's the most hardcore out of all of 'em. And it's proven, the grades prove it. People are averaging low C's to mid-tier B's in our class right now, compared to hard B's in other Honors English classes.

        I just hope, hope, that shit gets curved. 'Cause like, what the hell am I supposed to do? Go in after school to re-write essays? Some in the class are still working on essays from the past and they still haven't finished, all to raise up their grade. And it ain't helping that participation accounts for a shit ton too. My current grade for homework/assignments in there is 65%, which is partially caused by participation being shit, so, yeah, and there's only 2 straight categories: assignments (I don't even consider this bulk work, he grades each assignment as if it were a test. Like, he literally goes through each individual word or scribble we print on the sheet of paper and critiques it) which account for 25% of our weighted grade, and quizzes, tests, essays are worth 75%.

        So, kinda pissed. Pissed as in, I'ma have to waste time in my summer possibly, in order to spend 6 weeks doing summer school. I already got college apps to worry about (have not yet started of course) and learning how to operate a mobile vehicle, aka driving. And you know what's the shittiest thing about all this? My feminist essay got a 65/100, and I consider that my best essay out of the 3. If that's my best, my shittiest is probably gonna yield nothing, heh.

        Let's hope the trend in failing rates for others in my class show the admin and the teacher that maybe there's shit that needs to be changed. Alrighty, moving along, Bio was another time for working, this time on both math and History. Math, consisting of classwork and work. Lunch, which is now just, whatever. History, we continued watching "All the President's Men" (which is a real nice movie by the way, I like the actors) and finishing up work for Chinese.

        And of course Chinese, where we did the new bootleg Quizlet Live game, then work on online work in class using Chromebooks. Tomorrow is just gonna be the same thing since we're having Chromebooks again. Tomorrow, uh, possibly a math quiz.

        Enough 'bout academics, time to talk 'bout speeches. Yeah, I'ma have to come up with a speech of which I'ma have to recite in front of the KDT members. Why? It's 'cause I signed up to be part of cabinet. There are currently 15 people (including me) running for spots to be in next year's cabinet. There are supposedly only 4 spots, which are 2 presidents, 1 vice president, and 1 secretary. Those were what were listed on the form, but on the group page on Facebook, there's 6 roles, including honorary secretary and honorary secretary.

        Now concerning the campaign (yeah, I'm referring to this thing as a campaign), about 2 of these people are gonna be president, so I don't have to worry about that, it's kinda already decided to be honest. Vice president, not sure who that will be. Umm, I'm running for secretary, and uh, a bunch of people are running for that spot as well.

        Some have not been as active in KDT as others, like, they haven't performed in a while I guess, but they're running regardless. I was only running for secretary in the case that people did not take initiative, and so if nobody had wanted to, I'd step up to it. But, considering now that there are a lot, I wanna prove that hey, I can handle this. Efficiently.

        One other thing that's driving me hard right now to go all out with my speech is that El is running for a spot in cabinet as well. I'm like "Yeah, no." Way to be a hypocrite on what you've said in the past, Drew. Yes, I know, but, here's the thing: I want this now more than her, just 'cause I have and will, put in more effort.

        So, my speech will consist of lots of like, compelling vocabulary, I'll want to base mine off on let's say, a speech from Obama's inauguration. I think that if I make my points clear enough, make it seem as if I have complete control, I'm confident, passionate, have a "I won't let you down" attitude, then uh, I think I'll have a good chance of mowing down the competition.

        One thing you probably didn't notice is that I'm kinda into this competitive thing. Like, I'ma work hard on this speech, writing it out, planning, etc. Why? Because I have motivation. There's something that motivates me and it's competition, and it's for something I enjoy too. Now if only this could apply to essays in English class, oh man, would my work ethic be different. But no, heh.

       Anyways, it's 12:13 AM, this sucks, luckily tomorrow's the last day of school for this week, we're good. See ya.