Monday, December 15, 2014 "Live."

Monday, December 15, 2014
Week: 18
Songs to Remember: If I had 50 Pence For Every Time You Stabbed Me in the Back I'D Be Looking At At Least £8.60 - Cavaliers

        My mom tells me that the cause of my stress is lack of sleep, when it's really just her. Also it's final week and I'm working my a** off on writing down notes, reading, and finishing homework (in which teachers are still giving us when they expect us to study).

        She thinks I should be able to finish my homework in like a couple hours when she has no idea how much work we students have to. She has no idea. I worked all day today, no laptop, just music, and I managed to finish at 10:50 PM. And I started at about 4:00 PM today. Then she threatens to take away my PC and phone and I'm like "Alright, if I fail because I can't do my online homework in some of my classes, it's your fault". I already have enoighs stress doing work, I don't need more s*** from her.

        She akways f***ing yells too and I'm expected not to say anything back. Even when my points are well supported, she always trues to make it so that she's always right, that everything's gotta be done her way. On the car ride hone today, she was like "Wait until I get home to tell your father so he can yell at you". I was thinking about running away again. I mean, why not right right? I got nothing to lose. I have nothing that I care about... *sigh* I just want to f***ing live. Live. Just f***ing breathe, do stuff, whatever. But look at this s*** that I get.

        Anyways, I'll just talk about my day and be done with it for today. First period was boring again, we just worked on our notes sheet. 2nd period was boring too, we just discussed the movie and compared it to the book we read. 3rd period we had a pop quiz, which was quite unexpected. I f***IH panicked knowing that I was busy writing writing down notes on my note sheet from early lessons and not the recent ones. Therefore, I didn't get to study so I was "Are you f***ing kidding me, who gives quizzes on finals week. My math teacher possibly, but seriously?" But thank based Nye that the teacher let us use our notes written from class (about 2 weeks ago) on the quiz. I most likely would've gotten like a B on it if it weren't for the notes. Actually now that I think of it, it wasn't that hard.

        4th period P.E was the same as usual. We started another doubles tournament today and I threw... pretty hard. My partner hit most of all the shots, I mostly just hit the ball off the table. So like, this girl whom I know for a while (friend only), she forgot her jacket and so I proceeded to pick it up and give I back to her and I'm just like "S***, I hope she didn't leave yet" but she came back and I was like "You forgot this" and she was like "Thanks Drew" and gave me a hug. Strictly friends, I just wanted to talk about it. Quite possibly one of the realest hugs I've gotten in a long time. Well, at least as far I can remember.

        And uh, while I was walking from the locker room and gates, I was walking and from my left side someone was looking at me (quite possibly peering into my soul. I think you can feel a stare) and I was like "Hi" and it took me a couple seconds for me to see that it was Vt. She was walking with her friend and she and her friend were walking about a couple feet in front of me now, then she stopped, I continued walking, than started walking next to me. She then said something which I didn't really discern what she was saying, closely sounds like "Did you just do laundr?" is what I recall hearing. I was like "No" and she was still smiling and walked up back with her friend and uh, yeah. Very, very unusual. As in, I don't get events like this everyday.

        I was eating lunch at my usual spot and Vt passes me with her friend again and she's like "Ay Drew" and I was like "Hi". And I was just thinking like "Well, looks like I'm not Martin anymore. Hopefully she does not remember that". Anyways, we received that 3rd quiz back and that chapter 6 test back today for math. I got a 32/46 for the quiz and a 67/10). Yikes. When the teacher said that the scores weren't good, Iwas hoping mine wasn't one of them. Even this one girl in front of me who regularly gets A's and B's got a 65/100 on the test. But damn, I was like "Aww f***, are you kidding me". I looked back over what I did wrong and I was like "S***, so many problems, I did careless mistakes". I mean, it was 32 questions, we only had like 45 min to work on it. It wasn't hard, just time-consuming. Each question was 3 points each so i didn't do as many careless mistakes as you were thinking.

        To compensate for low scores (and the fact that if she imputed them, they would destroy our grades at the last minute), she gave us point boosts depending on our score. We took our score, subtract it from 100, then divide by 3. We add that back into our old score, and that becomes our new score. With the boost, it became a 78, which is pretty much a B-. Probably barely a B-. I'll take it over a D anyday. Soo, she assigned us more work to do in class and home, aaand it's on the week of the final too. I know that it's to review, but I prefer to study at my own pace rather than knowing that if I don't finish it by today, my grade will turn to s*** at the last minute.

        Chinese, we just previewed lesson 6 by doing hand gestures (or "Physical body response") for the vocabulary. There was this one word which had to do with counting money, so everyone just thought the sane thing: to do the "make it rain" gesture. Great minds think alike. Make it rain. Anyways, friend might not transfer, Yue's gonna move to another period for chemistry, I'm working my a** off and tired as f***, my mom stresses me out, and I find I hard to focus on all this. I hope my mom's happy for making her son cry and sob today. See you tomorrow.