Thursday, November 17, 2016 "Keep Going."

Thursday, November 17, 2016
Week: 15
Songs to Remember: It's Raining - SNUPER, Strange - MASC, Press Your Number - Taemin

        Maybe I won't be painting a majority of the hoodies because after the first one it's, kinda turned to shit. So, ordered the same amount again, except this time they'll be professionally printed and uh, now I'm left with several blanks, including my mind.

        I was supposed to go to the play today and scope out for Cy when she arrives. I didn't as you'd might have guessed, and the reason for that, is because shit's, going, down. Hill. I'll get into that later. Dance, that was just more learning and refining and shit. Math, as you'd expect, the same, exact, shit, as every day. Also, tests and quizzes are gonna be after the break so, it's both a good and bad thing. Break, that was the same. Digital Art, more or so me working on Chinese work.

        It's funny how my favorite period from the beginning of the year, has now turned into one of the more boring ones. Umm, English, we actually talked, told and heard some neat stories. One, in particular, was how when the teacher was peeing in the bathroom and, you know how guys pee right, standing up. And uh, his nephew who was like maybe 4 at the time, crawled under between his legs and looked up. The door was open and so that was how he got in. I was like "Geezus, that's, that's pretty bootleg." But yeah, funny story and I hope, more of those come within the rest of the year.

        Now lunch, this was where I was like "I think it's time, I'm wasting my time, I gotta go hard in the paint, and maybe even risk it for the biscuit." I didn't see Cy so I just went ahead on my route, slowly, to meet up with Ag to get lunch. I meet up with her, we turn back around, I see Cy, I'm like "Uhh, see ya" and go on ahead and walk with Cy. She's been less talkative since the first few times I sat with her in the library. She's now always been on her phone, either looking at info and news and updates and shit on Twitter, or, messaging this one dude, her "friend" who goes to another school. She sometimes chuckles or whatever, I'm guessing whatever this dude's talking about actually entertains her compared to me. I asked her "Hey, you're going to the play tomorrow right?" "Yeah I'm going with a couple of my friends." "Blank's going right? Is blank going?" Blank referring to that girl whom we were with a couple days ago. "No it's just a friend, and, a guy friend who doesn't go here."

        It's that same fucking guy. And yes, I am keeping in mind the experiences I've learned. I KNOW what this whole thing is called. "So don't be on with Her." Yeah. About halfway into lunch, she goes to do homework with her philosophy class buddies or whatever, moving tables (like, to the one next to the one we were sitting at) so as to be together. At that point I had Chinese homework on the line (I did not want to risk another 0 and dropping my B- to a C+), and the fact that, she's just, Lt level now. Not specifically Lt level, but close. Seeing as how I had 10 minutes of lunch left, I was like "See ya Cy" and left to go back to the cast.

        This all got me thinking "I talk to Ag easily and without a care, I talk to Ek, Lw, Cc, my KDT buddies without a care." But when it comes to people like Cy, although we have extreme, extreme common grounds in terms of K-Pop and like, anime, video games really, I still can't come up with shit to say. So my plan is this: I still say hi's and bye's to her, no, instantaneous ignoring, because I still want to keep the door slightly open. On days or times when I do get the chance to talk to her, I wanna make my presence known. Talk to her, not with how I feel, not how I talk to Ag or Cc, but how I talk on here. I don't think I've ever tried that. Maybe, probably, but I obviously forgot the instances that I have.

        And since I forgot, probably didn't TOO bad, so, it's worth a shot again. What I gotta or can say to her, I wanna make it representative of "I'm Drew." If she won't say shit besides "I'm so tired" then, fuck you, heh, I'ma say shit then. Not like, shit-talking, but, stuff. You get what I mean. Anyways, there was that. I didn't go to the play since, I was just unmotivated after this all. I will, however, go with some cast members on Saturday, so there's that. Back to today, there was Gov. We did a simulation of legislature and shit, and uh, just voted on stuff. Fairly boring, some weren't really trying (also me) and some took it more seriously. And finally, Chinese, we took a quiz and although I remembered all 25 vocabulary phrases, on the quiz about half of them weren't in the flashcards, so, I ended up getting my usual 12/20. Nice.

        Its 12:10 AM, I gotta finish mash work and then whip up a mix for KDT real quick for the A6 show. Alrighty, see ya.