Thursday, September 1, 2016 "Rush 2: Guilty."

Thursday, September 1, 2016
Week: 4
Songs to Remember: Strange - MASC, Egg - The Garden, Look (a starlight night) - Nu'est

        I'm pretty much constantly changing (or trying to change, or want to change) my image every few days or so. I look in the mirror, I'm like "What if I do this, what if I do this" because I grow tired of the same look every single day.

        And I wouldn't say it's a bad thing, but I wouldn't say it's a good thing either. Just, a bit too self-conscious I think. But anyways, I had a pretty crazy-ass dream last night. I don't wanna get into the specific specifics of it, but it did have to do with Lt, and, an anagram that I made which rearranged into "I'm sorry. I love you." Yeah, that's all I'm gonna say, heh, really, really do not wanna delve into this shit again. It's, it's in the past. It's, in the last series actually.

        Alright, Dance. Well, we reviewed stuff, practiced some more, and, that's about it. Apparently we're gonna go through a lot of units this semester, including Hip-Hop. During the next semester, that will be focused on the recital, which is like, the final for Dance, with you performing on-stage. The thing is though, you can choose to be a choreographer and well, choreograph. You can also pick out any style of dance you want, any song, as long as it contains no vulgarities in it, it's good to go. You already know what I'ma do: I'ma go ham, on my own choreography, that's what I'ma do.

        But for now, I got Dance, and, math, in which we do the same thing as yesterday. We got our tests back to review. I did make some stupid mistakes, and completely got shit-on for a graph, but, I got a smiley-face on mine so it's okay. Break was what you'd expect, and, Digital Art was just us working on our designs for about half the period, then the rest was on the teacher demonstrating to us how to use the animator in Photoshop. English, where, we discussed the same poem again. I actually got a bootleg mandala to draw for tonight, due tomorrow, so that's nice.

        It was finally lunch, and, it was abou the same as yesterday. Maybe a bit more people but, it was roughly the same. Still a nice experience though. If I'm not mistaken, there's one more CLOG rush event during the beginning of the second semester, for those who wanted to join a CLOG but didn't. So, this won't be my last (and first) time promoting a club during CLOG rush. Also, I didn't get to mention this in the last post, but godamn, there are some people who have their mind set on very bizarre goals when planning to join a club. Take for example, KDT. During the group chat yesterday, there was a small discussion about a dude. Describing it wouldn't really do it justice (nor would it be easier to understand with my "word vomit"), so here's the chat log of it.

[Red]: so i hear duylam is kdt's sex toy???
[Blue]: WAT?!
[Green]: LOL
[Yellow]: Oh
[Green]: He told me that too In different words.
[Yellow]: Guilty pleasure
[Blue]: Wait idgi KDT is his guilty pleasure?
[Green]: He said if we need someone to be like sexualized or smth he volunteers Like how they have a big group of girls and rhat one guy in the middle or smth Idk
[Blue]: Oh so he wants to join?
[Green]: Idek LOL
[Yellow]: I guess he wants to be used in kdt performance but not rlly be in it We can use him for a performance whem we need to beat someone up

        The colors represent different people by the way. So as you can see, shit's pretty fucking bad, heh. A dude wants to be part of KDT so he can have his own fucking in-real-life harem? Huh? It's fucking like, what? First of all, why did he think it was a good idea to tell KDT members this? KDT is not full of horny chicks, as he might've thought. But yeah, it's just, both weird and really, really cringey, hearing about it this. For example, let's say you're just, minding your own business, promoting your club, out on the green field during CLOG rush. A dude comes by, and, you sorta know him, he's, sorta semi-popular. He tells you "Hey, ya'll can use me as a fucking human stripper pole if ya'll want, 'kay?"

        How would you react to that? Because that's exactly what I heard today. Close. I was standing there, with the KDT fam, and then that dude comes on over. He tells [Yellow] (like, again) that "Oh, I volunteer to be used for sexy acts" and shit. Then he makes an example of how like, some or most dudes in KDT (or just, one), would be like "Ugh, why am I here with all these girls" and just having a really boring or shitty time or whatever. And so, to compensate for that, he'd be willing to participate and like, be used or, whatever.

        It's like, total creep status, man. I don't know any other way to explain it, it's just really cringey, it'd be fine if he was gay, but he ain't. And you know, I'd understand him and his motives for telling people this, if he was single. But uh, no, I'm sure he has a girlfriend, and, I do know her. Not sure if they've broken up or shit, or he's just kinda horny right now, but, he definitely is feeling pretty eager to participate in a club with a 20 to 1 girl to guy ratio. Also, domination much? I was wondering about that harem shit that was discussed and I was like "Fuck, what if he wants to fulfill his fucking shitty domination fantasies or shit."

        Crazy stuff, crazy stuff. Anyways, that was one of the more "bizarre," shit that I've encountered so far. Back to, the episode. After lunch was Gov, where we listened to a presentation, wrote notes, discussed shit, the usual by now. I didn't say this yesterday, but the teacher has been playing this exact same video for 2+ days now. It's this "Sexy Sax Guy" prank video, and, I'm not sure why but he's been playing this video every time I come into the classroom. I always see it playing.

        And last but kinda maybe least for now, heh, is Chinese. In which, I got fucked over by a pretty hard Chinese test, and yes, I did study. During SSR. It's okay though, 'cause the teacher said it was the hardest test for the year, which, I agree, it's probably the hardest Chinese test (or one of the hardest) I've taken. And I'm not comparing this to AP shit, I'm comparing it to, the teacher's other tests that she's had us take, from Chinese 1 to now 3.

        So there's that. There's a KDT meeting tomorrow during lunch, in which it's being held in a pretty small room, in which, we got 98 sign-ups from CLOG rush (including current members), and, about half will show up (at least), so, yeah, it'll be pretty, pretty cramped. Also, 3 day weekend coming up, in which plans with Et, Ec, DrewN, and some others have risen up. I'll update on that shit when it comes. And, yeah. Unfortunately, the first KDT practice will be on the 12th, and that's for Red Velvet's "Ice Cream Cake." Also unfortunately, EXO's "Monster" practice will be on the 16th, more than 2 weeks away right now, heh. But fortunately (I guess), a KDT "bonding day" will be next week on Friday.

        That's what's been happening so far, at least to my memory. Right now, I got a mandala to draw. See ya.