Tuesday, August 16, 2016 "Initial Tive."

Tuesday, August 16, 2016
Week: 2
Songs to Remember: Teenage Tendencies - Blank Banshee, How's This - HyunA

        I had essentially no work today (besides bulk work) and so, I promised myself (sorta) that I'd spend some time catching up on updates and details I left out on some previous posts.

        So that's what I'ma do (along with the usual stuff). And boy, do I have a lot of stuff to catch up on, including pre- and post-stuff. Starting with, Dance. Unfortunately, although it is the 4th day of school already, I guess it's always a great time to do more icebreakers, eh? 'Cause that's what we did. And it wasn't even a typical ice-breaker either, there was no "game" involved, it was literally just "You got 1-minute with each person, start talking."

        Not even kidding, everybody had to talk to everybody at least once. Everybody was in a circle, there was an inner circle within that circle, that circle rotated, and, you talked. Thinking that was over, the teacher had us split again and talk tho those who were in our circle, therefore, allowing us to talk to everybody in the class. The usual questions were "How was your summer," "Do you like your classes," and "What grade are you in." So many times I had to answer and ask those, I essentially said the same thing to everybody.

        And you know that one girl who I said was in KDT and was also in the class? She was like "You're in KDT right?" Now normally I'd be fine with people not keeping track of people, mostly because sometimes it's impractical, but uh, I mean come on. I was thinking like "C'mon fam, I was, I was in it from the beginning, of Junior year." But I don't blame her. She's actually had to take some time off from KDT due to her parents wanting her to focus a bit more on her academics, which is understandable.

        Also I didn't notice until now but the Dance teacher really reminds me of my middle-school Social Studies teacher. There was something about the Dance teacher but I couldn't put my finger on it, but uh, now I know, heh. Anyways, tomorrow we'll be getting our clothes lockers and picking out shoe sizes from the select amount of shoes available (both tap and jazz shoes). And thank goodness Jazz shoes are provided by the school (on the syllabus it only said Jazz shoes were provided), because I did not want to spend money on tap shoes, only to wear them for like, a few weeks.

        Next up was math, and yes, that was the usual again, which consists of homework check, lesson, practice, and then time for work. Very standard so far, also the teacher doesn't actually collect homework, but instead just sees if you did it or not. Interesting teaching choice. Anyways, it was break, and then Digital Art, in which I get cockle-doodle blocked once again. It never ends. Currently this week will be just drawing, working on a bootleg drawing of a letter with our interests drawn into them, due on Friday. The class is very calming, besides the fact I get this shit happening to me each time.

        This also reminds me of a time when Ad, the KDT dude, we met at the math tutoring thing, you know, when during practice for Lunar Show or the VSA show, like, after-school and we were sitting in the audience waiting for our turn to use the stage for practice, Ad showed me a book that he was reading. It was something along the lines of "How to make friends" or whatever. Now I wouldn't really consider showing that to my buddies, but for him, I guess he felt it was a really good book, so in turn he showed it to me. I was like "Hey, looks pretty good." And that got me thinking, only started now, that uh, he seemed like a generally cool dude to hang out with or associate with.

        I don't know, something about the book he was reading and his personality, I thought it was very contradicting, like, "Why would you need to learn how to make friends when you're already pretty good at that?" And from that, made me think "If I want shit to happen, I just gotta take initiative." I'll get back to this discussion later. But after 3rd, was English. Same old seat as yesterday, but today, we do the same shit as yesterday as well, heh. And, there was lunch, today was Lw's birthday, there was some cringey-ish coerced dancing in front of the stage of the theater at the green field, what a sight. I'd expect this shit to be on Fridays, or a bit more into the school year, but I guess the 4th day works too.

        Afterwards, it was Government, and, this is where that discussion comes in. There was more group discussion today, more, philosophical, trying to get into the mindset of how the government has power over us, etc. The girl who sits in front of me, the one who takes essentially the initiative of our group, she refers to me by my name, as well as asks me for my opinion, and others' opinions of our group as well instead of having an attitude of just :Fuck it, no need to actually do work." She took a chance when talking to people like me, hoping that I'd reciprocate that initiative taking, which fortunately I do when people do, and that reflects upon how I talk to others who, I think are the same as me as I am to people like her.

        The first time you take initiative, you might not get your point across, you might, it's all based on the person you're handing the "flag" to, the initiative flag. Once they do take it, they'll be more comfortable, you get your point across, pressure is alleviated, it's easier to mention other stuff and keep it casual. And then, you're good. And also, just another interesting thing, we were to share our thoughts on power and control in the world, and so I said (to my group members), "I feel that power in my life is very restraining. I cannot express my true self due to these limitations inflicted upon myself and others." They thought it was pretty moving, and in fact, the girl across from me asked to see it and actually wrote it down, for some reason. Not sure why, maybe just 'cause it sounds kinda cool, or, it could be a yearbook quote, or, something.

        Also no work yet, or textbooks, which is nice. Finally, Chinese 3 demonstrated that I can be tired during 6th period, because I did almost fall asleep, again, with me closing my eyes periodically. It ain't the teacher's fault to be honest, I read online that apparently you feel sleepy about 7+ hours after you wake up. 2:30 PM's about 7+ hours after I wake up, so, I probably now know why.

        Now for some bits and pieces of random shit, the "catching up" I was talking about. Also a bit of throwback to the 1st season when I recorded funny shit I heard onto a sheet of paper for later reference. Last Friday, as I was walking from 2nd period to break, a dude announced "Notice me senpai! Notice me!" And a couple girls, with a ratchet aura around them, were like "What is he saying?" "It's like some mathy shit." It went something liked that, I wish I could remember exactly what they said 'cause it would've been funnier, but this is close enough.

        Now I know a lot of jokes, I know them, don't remember most of them, but I do remember the "senpai" joke, in which instead of "Notice me senpai" it's "Notice me sin pi." Like, sin, in math, and pi, like for circles. if those girls knew the math joke part of it, how do they not know the original phrase? Like, what? Absurd, and, the intitial situation I was like "W-what?" But anyways, just wanted to proclaim that you should not develop false feelings for people online. It's unfortunate that I gotta say that it's happened to me quite a few times, and I've also seen it many times.

        Just today, I was looking at some Creatures canon stuff and, stumbled upon a comment that said "They're furries." Yeah. Clicked on the profile, saw that this person had some bomb-ass aesthetic Instagram pictures (made with an app obviously, but still, they looked cool as fuck). So, I followed them, she (yes, a she) requested to follow me almost immediately. I asked her how she made her pictures, and, over the course of 10 minutes (10 minutes for like, 4 screenshots of a fairly basic app), she showed me step-by-step how to make pictures like hers. In those 10 minutes, I saw that she had a Twitter. So, out of curiosity, I went ahead and took a look.

        Yep, lots and lots of K-Pop stuff, which is pretty cool. The profile said "NSFW," I have yet to come across somebody posting both K-Pop and NSFW stuff, until now. I went to the media section, saw what she had posted, and, rethought my feelings for a bit. The more I scrolled down, the more I realized that there were a variety of people in this world, a whole ton of variety, let's just say that, heh. Talked to her a bit about K-Pop, she seemed, whatever really, but does like K-Pop a lot. Umm, especially the guys, a lot. And, that's that. Very crazy adventure, just from a comment on Instagram.

        But anyways, it's 11:49 PM, I skipped nap-time this afternoon so I'm ready for the sweet release of sleep. See ya.