Friday, October 16, 2015 "Motivation."

Friday, October 16, 2015 "
Week: 9
Songs to Remember: Life is Beautiful (Hellberg Remix) - TwoThirds

        I was actually gonna put Friday as the date until I realized that it was Friday, in which I was like, "Oh, right."

        On a side note, personal issues, I've had a really bad habit of biting my fingernails. It's been going on for like, since I was 8 or something? Maybe 10, I don't really remember. I learned it from cousin, yadda yadda, I don't blame him, I probably would've learned it eventually anyways, heh.

        I bite my fingernails pretty much at home, sitting in front of my PC when I'm wondering what to do next or when I'm stuck on a math problem. It wasn't until about a week ago or something that I saw a Reddit post on /r/AskReddit where someone asked what's something bad that you keep doing or something. One of the top comments was about fingernail biting and how it was actually bad for your teeth.

        I never thought it was bad for your teeth 'till about, that time I read the comment. And ever since that day, I was like, "You know what, maybe I shouldn't bite my fingernail anymore." And from that time 'till now, so far I haven't bitten my fingernails. It's tempting, but I don't. It feels kinda nice now because whenever I see other people's fingernails, theirs are all healthy looking where as mine look, well, thin.

        So there's that, my solution's been from a freaking Reddit post. I've also been eating less lately. I do have a high metabolism, but like, around when school started, I haven't been feeling as hungry as I've usually been. I think it's because I got so much work and shit to worry about that I forget to eat, or, something like that. It's not depression though, definitely not depression, I wouldn't say I have it either.

        Alright, it's 7:40 PM now, I wrote the previous stuff when it was around 12:00 PM or so. I've been in a good mood lately, and by that, I mean the whole day. Partly because I kept myself awake, making sure to move around, drink lots of water, and staying fucking focused. But mostly because Lt's texted me, starting off with "Hey Drew, can you try this for me?" And she listed some bootleg steps like, "Think of a number, divide it by 2, add 50" and so on.

        I first thought it was that bootleg math trick where you have someone think of a number, then reverse the steps and voila, you know what number they chose. This wasn't the case. I chose 5, I got stuck at a step where I gotta get the square root of -100, which is impossible, so I'm like "Uhh, how do I do this?" and she's like "You figure it out." So I chose 10,000.to try to make it work, ended up with a really weird decimal.

        "Okay, I got 3077.8393. Did I do something wrong?" "No, this is just how I waste someone's time." And then I was just like "FUUUUUUUUU." It happened again. First the bootleg kiss thing with Yn, and now, this. And apparently she did that to her friend too, because she screenshotted it and sent it to me.

        I noticed that she responds like, once every 30 minutes, 15 if I'm lucky. I don't necessarily care if people respond quickly or not, I don't care in general, just an observation. She mentions that I should make a Kik account, I've noticed she likes to randomly interject things like that, which to me, I don't really care. So I'm like "Yeah, I've got one, it's *insert Kik name here*." And I was just thinking like "So, it's gotten to this, huh? I joked with my buddies about people who say 'You got Kik???' and now look, Lt's asking me for my Kik."

        I don't really use Kik, mostly because no one that I know uses it, well, except Lt now. And since she doesn't use Facebook, Kik's probably the second best option. She's like "Nice profile picture." And I notice that she, has a Naruto profile picture. I'm thinking like "Well, she wasn't lying when she said she liked Naruto." So I guess our convo's moved to Kik now. After a bit, she says she's at her cousin's house, the one who is in my Chinese class, getting help from him on mathwork, and uh, randomly mentions, "You should try watching this kdrama called 'I Have A Lover' it's my favorite."

        I'm like "Yeah, I'll watch it tonight, I'll let you know what I think about it." *sigh* The things I do for love, which is also a quote from my favorite show, Courage the Cowardly Dog." Also, apparently uh, Lt's like, yeah, she considers me an important person. This is what she said:

"Blank is trying to destroy our friendship. Whatever you do STAY AWAY FROM HIM"
"LOL He's in my Chinese class"
"I know. And he saw me texting you and he's trying to make things awkward. He's being all sappy and gushing about how I have no friends. I told him that Andrew is my only friend so he better not ruin it. Whatever I'm saying doesn't make sense at all but just. Stay away from him. And if he tries to talk to you just tell him to get lost."

        Also in context, if it seems like she's being hateful towards her cousin, she's not, it just sorta sounds like it, heh. But yeah, it was very touching, even in the slightly out of ordinary context. I know she has other friends, she talks to some other people, of course I'm not her "only" friend, but, you get what I mean.

        Anyways, I just finished like 3 League games with Ec, it's 11:16 PM, I'll be going to bed, and by bed, I mean watch shit 'till I get sleepy. That includes watching "I Have a Lover."