Thursday, March 27, 2014 "I Present."

Thursday, March 27, 2014
Week 32
Songs to Remember: Safety Zone - DMTN

        Well, this day proved to be less exciting than I was expecting. Let's just say I might have done something wrong.

        In first period, everyone went up to recite their lines for there parts in Romeo & Juliet. Everyone except for me and a few people. Now that's such a tease; I was expecting my teacher to reach in that box, pull out my name, and myself to go up there and recite my lines to get it over with, but no. Now instead I have to do it tomorrow.

        As you can see, it's less exciting already. In physical education, the tournament's been going (table tennis tournament) and my partner and I are stuck between the last and second to last court. We always win when we're on the last court (because the people who are on the last court are essentially free wins for us. I've been using the word "essentially" a lot recently). When we're on the second to last court though, we always lose by like a few points. It's essentially this table tennis curse (see what I mean when I say I've been using the word "essentially")

        In 5th period (Geometry), I was starting to shake a bit. I wasn't exactly nervous for the presentation, I was just nervous for the presentation. I had my notes and I just kept going over them and I just thought to myself "Yeah, I am so going to need these. And by these, I mean all of these." Then when the bell rang, I was hoping to see Tn on the way to Geography, but nope.

        So it was 6th period, I was getting out all my stuff and the most bulls****y thing happens: the other 2 dudes who were presenting WEREN'T PRESENTING. One of them was obviously not going to even attempt to even write his name on the paper to start his presentation and the other was like "Yeah I don't have mine ready." I'm like "Wow. So this is what I get." It was essentially god trying to be nice to me like "Hey Drew, since you were disappointed that you didn't recite your Romeo & Juliet lines today, I'll make sure you go first, and by first, I mean FIRST!" I got my USB drive, and I put it in the computer. Yep, there it was, my hard work from Monday (this Monday) staring at my like "Yes. Present me to your class. See what happens."

        I edited it a little bit and just stood there like "OK, this is going to be OK. Just picture everyone in their underwear." But then my mind was like "Oh no, they're hot!" I had my poem I was about to read in my left hand, my notes in my right, my body shaking, and my throat abnormally dry. At first I felt in control when I looked out from the front of the classroom. I was like "Yes, you are my pawns and I am the king." But then I was like "I take that back! I take that back!" When everyone was settled in and the teacher said "Whenever you're ready." I was thinking like "Is there a time limit on being ready?"

        So there I was, the lights dimmed a bit, everyone's eyes fixed at me, and I just went at it. "Hi, my name is Drew." and it began. I went to the poem after I introduced the presentation a bit and I could see my teacher just sitting in the back all comfy on his couch like "Yes. Present for me. Present for the whole class. Yes. Yes." I read my poem, making sure that I wanted to keep my eye contact on every row in the room (by row I mean left, right, and center of the room). I kept on hearing the sound of my paper crinkling when I was holding it. I think I held onto it too tightly, or lightly, or I was too shaky (most likely everything).

        When I was done with the poem, I was expecting applause. Nope, just silence. I moved onto the PowerPoint being all like "Now I'm going to take you all on a little trip to Switzerland." I had my assistant (forced assistant) hit the space-bar on the laptop to advance the slide to the beginning one. I spoke poorly in 3 languages, just for the first slide, thank you Google translate. I began to stutter a bit, a bit of umms and uhhs here and there, and whenever I said "uhh" or "umm" I instantly thought "Damn it." because the more "umms" and "uhhs", the lesser my grade. Wait, why was I thinking about my grade at this time when I should have been focusing on looking professional and smooth?

        Anyways, I think I zoned out a it towards the middle of the whole thing. I honestly could not remember how I managed to do the lecture for 8 minutes straight. I think my sub-conscious was taking control cause' during the middle, I kinda forgot where I was. My mind sorta fainted but my body kept on going. It was pretty weird. When it was the end of the PowerPoint, I was like "Oh." and I went to go get the chocolate and my teacher was like "Good. 8 minutes. Let's give Drew a round of applause." And I was thinking like "Holy- 8 minutes?" I guess all the stuttering and "uhhs" and umms" accounted for 3 minutes of my whole presentation.

        And then it was over and I was passing out the chocolate while some people were asking me questions. I mean, I was surprised people actually had to take notes on my presentation and I was like "Yep. Shoulda stuck with paper." The short questions people had to answer on their half-sheet of paper were like "Write 1 fact a famous person" and "Write 1 fact about transportation of the presenter's country" and stuff like that. I didn't have enough for 1 bar per person, that would be way too expensive. Instead I had it be 1 bar per every 4 people and they would just share it. The whole point of the food was for people to taste it.

        When I went to pass the chocolate to Tn's friend (the one who sits right next to her whose seat I wish was mine) I was like "Here you go" and Tn wasn't even looking at me. At least I didn't she think did. We proceeded to work on this assignment the teacher gave out which was to make a cross-word puzzle. While I was working on it, the teacher overhears Tn and her friend mention my name so he goes over there like "Oh, do you have a question for him?" and he had this face like "Oh I know what you guys were talking about." When the bell rang, I made sure that I was going to go through the door at the same time Tn does. But, something was kinda weird. I was standing at my desk, pretending to look through my backpack and stuff and I see Tn talking to who friend who sits near her (not the one next to her).

        I pretended to go through my backpack and stuff, waiting for her to begin walking to the door, but she just stands there talking to her friend. They even mentioned my name and I kinda overheard Tn saying how "Drew is so annoying" though I doubt that's aimed towards me. There's a lot of Drew's at this school. They talk and talk and I even look at my watch and I was just thought like "Whatever" and just walked out. I was figuring that she was waiting for me to leave first so then she wouldn't have to run into me on the way out.

        And that was the end of story that showed me how over-thinking is something you don't want to think about. I learned from my mistakes (with Ez) and so I'm not going to act all spiteful towards Tn just because of something I think because chances are, people don't pay enough attention about you to even act spiteful towards you.

        Anyways, I did the presentation, I got my 15 minutes of fame, and accomplished what I had to do today. What I didn't accomplish though was to talk to Tn today. Talking to her is like a drug, you just can't stop. She's also been on her phone a lot lately and by phone I mean mobile on Facenovel. Something's wrong, I just can't put my finger on it. Hope you enjoyed, see you tomorrow.