Sunday, March 16, 2014 "Understandings."

Sunday, March 16, 2014
Week 30
Songs to Remember: Happy - 2NE1

        It's March 16th so it'd probably be a good time to start talking about prom, even though I shouldn't even worry about since I'm a freshman still. Also, there needs to be something done about my feelings for my own social status right now.

        Lately there have been many "prom-posals" at my school. In my opinion, it's more of an attention grabbing thing rather than what it's meant to be for. People here do lots of "ridiculous" things, usually consisting of lots of balloons, teddy bears, guitars, roses, and the like. I'm still waiting for that one big prom-posal where the guy makes a huge commotion in front of the school, only for the girl to say no. I'm still waiting for that.

        Onto a more serious note, I don't feel comfortable where I'm at right now. Last night I was thinking about my old friends, my lack of enthusiasm, and the fact that the kids at my school have no understanding of what it's like to be like a lonely person.

       My old friends post pictures on Facenovel and it looks to me that they are having the time of their lives; one of them even makes the remark "life is great". Yeah, the time of their lives.

        In class, I don't know why kids make random remarks during a video or whatever. They go "Oh cool!" even though nobody cares or listens. And that somehow gets them noticed. Things just, don't interests me as much or at least, keep my attention. Nothing in class is exciting, yet they try to make it exciting when it's the same thing over and over again. I look forward to a new year because maybe there will be cute girls in my class and maybe I'll have a seat next to them so that they can keep my attention through out the class period.

        I see kids at my school who create such a drama (more than what I'm trying to make of) about how their boyfriend broke up with them or how life is so "difficult" for them because of schoolwork or things like that. Let me just say that at least you had a "boyfriend/girlfriend" for that matter and how you expect for them to treat you for your personality while you're walking by the guys who would do anything for you. This guy is best friends with my 7th grade crush Am, and he gave her this basket filled with stuff for Valentine's day. Apparently she friend-zoned him. Best friend-zoned him. Hard.

        Oh and to those kids who think school life is hard to maintain, it is. But it's not when you're known by almost everyone in your class. The kids who don't have many friends (or any at all for that matter) and still try in class are the ones who should get noticed. I cannot focus or take homework and classwork seriously until I get my social status problems solved, or at least worked on.

         My posts have not been as exciting or filled with enthusiasm as the ones from like 2 weeks ago. I'm just not able to find the effort to put into this text. I just want to say (to my future self) that I am reaped of my excitement right now so if you're wondering why I'm acting like such an inconsiderate baby right now, you know why. See you tomorrow.