Tuesday, February 21, 2017 "Until You're Comfortable."

Tuesday, February 21, 2017
Week: 29
Songs to Remember: Until Today - Taemin

        Day something of my self-health healing. It's been going well. I do feel loafier, especially when I'm sitting here, but at the same time, all the stress right now is essentially gone.

        For the most part. Helped my dad get some stuff from Home Depot because he's busy refurbishing the room that our tenants moved out from, in order for me to move in there for my college days. At least there's actual privacy in this room, compared to this one where there's two floating transparent doors, two windows, and a glass-panel slider that leads to the backyard, which doesn't even get used, it just creates less insulation in my room.

        I also watched a movie today, for once. Decided it'd be a good time to finally watch "The Edge of Seventeen." After having the seen the trailer months and months and months back, I've been wanting to see it but I've either had no time or was too lazy to pull it up on my PC. I had the time today (or this week, rather), and so, yeah, watched it and it was pretty bad, heh. More drama than there was comedy, and, I ended up just hating the main character. The main character's personality was beyond annoying and I know it was like, over-dramatized 'cause it's a movie, but, way, way too beyond actual real-life terms.

        Like, there's a dude who obviously likes her, but (spoilers in this paragraph) she doesn't even, she cucks him out of everything until the very end. Then, when she actually gets what she wanted, which was sex with the cool dude, she's like "This ain't right." It's like, what the fuck? You get the movie dream, the movie chance that would never, ever happen in real-life, and, she blows it off, to go crawling back to the dude she cucked.

        One of the more less-enjoyable coming-of-age movies in my personal opinion. And if I were to attempt anything in that movie in actual life, my mom would beat the shit out of me. Anyways, things seemed normal for the rest of today up until about half-an-hour ago. Atr's buddy messaged me some intel, pretty good intel. She sent me a screenshot of Atr talking about (100% confirmed about me) an analogy, about the liking but not dating thing. She said, and I quote, "its like u love chocolate and have chocolate but u dont feel like eating it. i dont feel like committing to a relationship lol."

        Good analogy, I think. Kinda makes me feel a bit shitty being compared to a desert/sugary treat (just a little, and this is me just being picky/petty here), but uh, I kinda understand. It's like, you're actively seeking this sorta shit out, you don't, it's not, it's not on your "to-do" list right now. It just sorta came, arrived, out of nowhere. You accept it, because it's a good thing, but it ain't, it a PRIORITY, right now. So yeah, the analogy works, the chocolate one.

        But like, can we do stuff together? Or, would that be a no-no in her terms? That's one question that I've always wondered. What constitutes as a "relationship?" Do you both go about it until one mentions it and you both mutually agree? Or, does it start with a formal "Do you wanna be my G6?" And I guess, dating doesn't essentially make ya'll both in a relationship, does it? I'd compare dating to, testing out the waters. If it's too hot, too cold, you dip out. If it's alright, ya'll go for a swim. If it's really good, ya'll go for a 360 off-the-balcony nose-dive.

        The boundaries for the "dating," "relationship," and the "B6/G6" stages are very, very vague. I'm not saying that what Atr's interpretations of a relationship are wrong, what I'm saying is: I just wish there was like a bulletin board that says like, what they fucking want, heh. And this goes for everybody. Things would be much, much more clearer. But alas, it's only 2017, heh. Anyways, I'll take the intel with a grain of salt, treat it as privileged insight ('cause really, how many people got inside sources like this, like Atr's buddy. Shit's good).

        I'll just have to roll with what I'm dealt with for now (it's still a lot to work with, which is good). If things go downhill, you know when to hit the eject button, Drew. You were close to pressing it this time too, Drew, closest ever. If things go good, then, well, it's one way that I'd like to close off the series. Anyways, it's 10:31 PM, I'm a bit tired from the day, uhh, the Discord buddies are busy wrapping shit up like, driving and, updating League. I'll be here until then so we could do some League games, just like old times again. For now, See ya.