Week: 28
Songs to Remember: Ment - Double K, I'm Not Kidding - SUHO, Sweet Heart (오빠야) - SEENROOT (신현희와김루트)
This series has strayed away from class adventures and leaned more or so toward stuff outside of class.
And it's meshing well with the other series. The other were very, very class oriented, and this series really shows the stuff that goes on outside. Very, very different, while still keeping some series staples around.
I took a long time last night to get my worries out through singing, I ain't embarrassed to admit at least that. I do enjoy singing. When I was young I even wanted to become a singer (thanks a lot media), heh. But because of having no real time or place to do it, I don't. Made a make-shift recording studio underneath my blanket, my phone as my microphone, and my laptop as my work station and recorded a cover (or 15 seconds of one).
Today I just sat, and, ate a lot. I've tried to make changes to myself for the better, a healthier lifestyle, you could say. And, I stuck with those habits for about, a day or two. Farthest was probably a week. Things settled and I just, stopped caring. But now, things have turned around, for the worst sorta, and so, this may be the tipping point where I do put my foot down and say "I'ma do it." And by the way, no it's not suicide, it may sound like it but it's not, I'm just, changing my hygiene routines, heh.
One thing that helps me with keeping myself motivated with stuff like this, for bettering myself, or myself as a person, is with competition and proving others wrong. I do find satisfaction sometimes when proving others wrong. Probably an ego thing, not sure about the egos of others I know, but, I'm hoping that my ego ain't as big as I think it is. Uhhh, yeah, motivation to make a turnaround, to better yourself, with the driving force being other people's doubts.
And it's not for meeting other's expectations, because you can care less about that. What I wanna do, is surpass those expectations. Just gimme some time, I just, need, some time. And whadya know, I got this whole week to do so, how convenient. And yes I've talked about motivation of proving others wrong before, this just so happens to be another time where, it applies.
A really cool transformation montage would be pretty nice for the series. I think it's something all the viewers would really wanna see, even for myself. I know I'm probably not gonna keep up with the habits I set for myself for this week, but, like, maybe if I cement it really hard this week, I can keep it for the rest of the year. I have seen people change, at school, from somebody you'd don't really wanna associate with to somebody who's like "Wow, I respect them." It does happen, but it is not, easy.
Anyways, it's 9:49 PM, not much, aww fuck. Just remembered to turn in my Chinese work, heh. Alright, now there's nothing much else for me to do. Oh and before I go to bed, just wanna make note that, you may feel compelled to be passive aggressive when things don't go your way. Don't show it, do don't do it, just because you didn't like the way somebody handled a situation or for the way things are going. It just confuses people, confuses things, and makes you look like an ass before, during, and afterwards. Believe me, I learned that lesson back in series 1.
Anyways, see ya.
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