Thursday, November 5, 2015 "Stand-Still."

Thursday, November 5, 2015
Week: 12
Songs to Remember: Don't Flirt - WINNER, Don't Leave - GD&TOP

        Holy shit, I went back to look at the career week details (which is next, next week) and saw that on November 20th, there's gonna be a "Professional Gamer/Gaming Industry" coming to visit and talk about their job. I'm like "Daaaamn, I gotta see that. It can either be a pro gamer I know, or Vanderhaar, heh."

        So this week, to be honest, I have not been feeling it lately. I haven't even been talking much about Lt because, there's barely anything to talk about. It's sorta dying now, the plot's at a stand-still, no advances, just, shit. Also there's been a ton of work, tests, quizzes, I even received one of my worst scores on a quiz/test that I think I've ever received in my life, heh. If there's one thing I'm grateful for, is the candy that Lt gave me. Bad for my health, yes, but keeps me awake to do shit like, write this.

        Psychology, fucking, all I really need to worry about is studying and doing the stupid notes and copying down the answers for the study guide. There's never any homework, projects are just a pain in the ass sometimes (like from the past couple days). Today was just to wrap up presentations, the rest was free time to do shit like study for quotation explications next period.

        There's two sides to having my current English teacher. The bad side: he gives a lot of work, a lot of in-depth work, and has high expectations, The good side: if it weren't forme having him as my teacher for 2nd period Honors English, this Lt story arch wouldn't have existed, so there's a definite trade-off there, heh. I didn't really study quotes because it's pretty much impossible to memorize all of 'em. I went to Cliffnotes and Shmoop as my saving graces and studied themes and ways to format my explications. The whole thing was 4 explications, 40 minutes, hand-written. I did not get to finish my 4th explication unfortunately. Fortunately, I'm not the only one.

        4 explications with 10 minutes each, I gotta take a minute to remember where it came from, who said, context, etc. Then, plan out what I wanna write about, what theme. Then format and start writing. Really wished we could've typed it, because with the amount of time we're given, it's either quality or penmanship, and I damn well went for quality. Umm, Lt. I'm not sure the direction we're heading to, it's sorta veering off course. When walking to English, she talks about shit that happens in her US History class. After English, she talks about shit that happened in English. And the times that we worked on our poster, she talked about shit OTHER than school.

        Definitely an unpredictable person. Me, I'm predictable. Looking back on shit I've done, you could've probably seen it coming from a mile away. Anyways, still hoping for the best though. My fingers are stiff due to the coldness in my room. 51 degrees, and with these big-ass glass panels in my room (never used as doors, just stupid fucking windows), means less insulation. I'm in my room and my fingers are chilled, what the hell, man. Okay, umm, yeah, break time, hmmm, don't like it. Biology, is kicking my ass right now.

        Truthfully, I'm hanging on a thread right now. The only reason I don't have a D+ yet is because of my common sense and logic on tests and quizzes. Today we just looked at our gels, see if we did shit wrong. Our group's looked kinda shitty, couldn't really see anything. It didn't matter, all it mattered was this one solution that was to put into the last slot of the gel. I was unfortunately given that task, wasn't told that it was the most important part. And uhh, I'm guessing I punctured the gel when putting it in there. Huh. If only we were told the importance of it earlier.

        Quiz tomorrow by the way. Today, for math, we got back our quizzes, did corrections. One look at my score, I had a "Holy shit," just straight up in my head. 38/78, can you believe it, heh. Most likely the worst score I've ever received. Ever. Got a lot of shit wrong, like a lot. It ain't even 50%, and the class average for this quiz was 63%, heh. Kinda sad to be really, but hey, this is a hard chapter. My classmate, my buddy I guess, I consider him a buddy now actually, stayed after class a bit to help me correct some questions I got wrong. Found out he got the same ones wrong too, so that made me feel a lot better.

        He's the dude who asked me anonymously on ask.fm before, last year. Didn't really speak to him much, didn't really pay much attention to him. He's a really cool dude, a trooper, for helping me out. It's Vc, his name's Vc. Sophomore too, by the way. Also asked me advice on classes to take. Umm, lunch was just a bootleg meeting in the theater for Chinese class. US History, we started watching the Lusitania movie, starring that guy from The Mummy. I knew that I needed sleep, because I was falling asleep watching the movie.

        The movie was interesting too. My head literally went down once, luckily I don't think people notice, and I always kinda make it look like I'm just transitioning to a more comfortable sitting position. But holy shit, falling asleep in class, and during 5th period, only because there's a movie and the lights are out. Shit, man, this is a worrying trend, heh. And finally, Chinese, where we had Chromebooks to setup and plan a bootleg Google Hangout video group chat, in which we are to record, discuss shit, and turn it in.

        We did that about a few hours ago, starting from 9:00 PM. Ended up being an hour long. Looks like the teacher is gonna have to sift through the footage because I ain't gonna edit 1 hour long footage, heh. Also, the teacher's instructions were vague, and she didn't say there was a time limit on the footage. Also the first time she's assigned something like this.

        Tomorrow, luckily, there's no mandatory KDT practice, unless you're in Call Me Baby, which I'm not. I'll still show up though, just for the attendance, and get back my scoring sheet for my dances I auditioned. I'd stay an hour though, just so I can focus and finish work there instead of being distracted by shit like the PC in front of me, believe it or not. I can do my work anywhere in any sane condition, but put my PC near me, no work gets done, heh.

        And yeah. This has been a nice post, really glad to get all this off after a while. Tomorrow, *sigh*, is an essay for English, along with a take-home essay as well, so, double the hell. I can never really get a break, huh? Same for other people. Maybe, maybe Lt would have some free time to watch a movie this weekend? Hmmm? See, now I'm just thinking too much, heh. We all know she's gonna talk about the essay afterwards. Also, she's explained my voice before when I had mentioned it. Kinda like lacking expression, one voice, and uh, that's true.

        Hmmm, the only time I add expression to my voice is when I'm talking to my buddies online through Skype or Curse Voice. Buddies like my best buddy, Ec. Big expression in my voice is reserved for close people. Others, takes me a while to get used to using that type of shit with them. Anyways, too much talking, 2:14 AM, gotta go reclaim what I've lost: sleep. See ya.