Tuesday, February 4, 2014

Tuesday, February 4, 2014

Week 25

Songs to Remember: The Day We Broke Up - ZE:A

        So there's this fundraiser/charity thing going on at my school, it's called the "Basket Boys and Girls Auction" and the description is, "Bid on your friends and classmates to win a lunch date!" If you don't get it, it's basically where you bid for a "date" with a person and they'll be forced to have lunch with you. This sounds OK. I'm not going to hate on it because it's such a gosh darn smart idea. Every single person in this club (it's a club that does like, community service together and is hosting this event) is attractive, to some degree. If I was in this auction, I think I'd be bid on for about -$12. Yes, that's right, I'd would have to pay the person for them to go have lunch with me.

        'Course, there'd always be some creepy dudes who don' really care about their money going to the charity, but more focused on the "date". OK, I take it back, after looking at the photos of all the people who are going to be auctioned (they posted their pictures on Facenovel with like a description of their personalities or something; there's like 40 people), those people are not attractive to some degree, but 80 degrees. Yeah, that's right, they're sizzling hot. How do the kids say it now a days, uuuh, "hash tag model status". Yeah, that's it.

        Also, I'd like to thank that one person who's been +1'ing all my posts so far. It just lets me know that there's someone else reading about my boring life, besides me of course. You, yeah you, you are a nice person, unlike some of the "friendly" people in this world. All those friendly people ain't got nothing on you. Funeral Suits reference thank you.

        So I just got my schedule signed today by my teachers, looks like I'll be taking English II, Word History, Algebra II/Trigonometry, P.E, Chemistry, and Chinese I. I think my schedule is pretty nice, nothing too hard (except the Algebra/Trigonometry). My Geometry teacher told me that I was to spend an hour each day on Algebra II/Trigonometry homework. Oh, and I never really do my math homework either. If my teacher gives us time in class, I'll do it. But if it's on my own time, I just copy most of it off the internet. Now I know what you're thinking, but I actually do understand the lessons. I get A's and B's on all my Geometry tests so far, and I think I've done about 50% of the homework, without looking it up on the internet. I don't encourage copying, but if a person understands it and still gets A's and B's on the major tests, then by all means copy.

        So I was trying to have some fun on some of the ask.fm's from some people at my school. I asked, "How was your day?" Then this girl answered,"it was alright, how was yours my luv" (just to let you know if you've never heard of ask.fm, it's a website where people can ask you questions anonymously and you can answer em' and post it publicly). And so I replied "It was alright as well! Did you do anything exciting today?" And then she asks who I am. I ask so hard people wanna find me. Every single time I go on a girl's ask to screw around, they always want to know who I am, and all I do is ask them how was their day. I'm onto something here; girls like it if you ask them how their day was. Trust me, I'm an expert.
       
        So not much crazy stuff happening today, at least for right now. Probably when Valentine's day comes (I thought it was this Friday, but it appears to be next Friday), there'll be a lot more things to talk about. So yeah, have a nice day.

Monday, February 3, 2014

Monday, February 3, 2014

Week 25

Songs to Remember: Walk By - Teen Top

        Well, well, well. I cannot stop using well in all my starting paragraphs. Well, looks like I'm going to have to look for a different word.

        Well, yesterday was a very ... surprising day, to say the least, and today wasn't much different either. Remember that girl that chatted with me on Facenovel and how I was sure she was ignoring me on Facenovel? Apparently, she was actually in a mental hospital for a few days ... yeah, I was not expecting that. She was in there due to her having some suicidal thoughts so, yeah. She's also going to be homeschooled until next year, I'm guessing the school's society and sociality is a bit too much for her right now.

        Things are not lightening up for me. Today in school, we were just starting to fill out our schedules for next year. I'm going to be taking English, World History, Algebra II, Chemistry, P.E, and Chinese. I was thinking about joining Honors Chemistry and Algebra II/Trigonometry, but my teachers said that one of their students had an A in my current class (Geometry) and he was still struggling. So I was like "Damn", I mean a dude who has an A in Geometry and is struggling with Algebra II/Trigonometry, even though there's not much difference than regular Algebra II, then Algebra II/Trigonometry must be pretty challenging.

 

        I got a lot of planning to do. I first got to finish my essay for P.E (yes, you heard me), then I got to "study" for my Biology test for tomorrow, and maybe I'll start on my Geography PowerPoint on Switzerland, no promises on that though. I'll see you guys in a bit.

 

        OK, so I just finished my essay, priority number one finished. Oh, and about the studying, hmmm. I'll do it later because if I can do it tomorrow , I won't do it today!

Sunday, February 2, 2014 : Part 2

Sunday, February 2, 2014

Week 24

Songs to Remember: Better Things - Passion Pit

 

Entry Part 2

 

        Well, there's a reason why I'm making a part 2 for this specific entry. Originally, I never planned to make a part 2 for this entry. I thought today was going to be a regular day. Just a regular day, emphasis on "regular". I don't know what I should be doing right now. I am going to get a lot of hate for this, or empathy, or just plain ignored. You can see that I'm building up the suspense right now. I am scared.

 

        Alright, here it goes. To give a back story for people who are too lazy to read my past posts (because no one does), back when during like the first few weeks of high school, around September, a girl messaged me on Facenovel. She messaged me saying that her friend likes me and if I liked her friend back. I asked who her friend was. She messaged me her friend's profile on Facenovel. Her friend seemed cute so I said sure. She then progressed to put me and her friend in a chat on Facenovel and we talked for a bit, she was in 8th grade at the middle school I went to and of course I'm a freshman in high school. It was getting late so I went to bed, knowing that it was the first time a girl had actually said she liked me (haha). At this time, I still had a major crush on this girl, Ez, at my high school so I knew I was in a bad place already.

 

        I've never broken up with a girl before (why would I), so being the man I was, I decided to disable the Facenovel chat for her and I, then proceeded to make my profile appear offline every time I went on. Very mature, right? Soon, like 6 weeks into high school, I figured that Ez would never go out with me, not in a million years, so I decided to go back to hooking up with that girl, let's call her Lk for now (You probably know where I'm going with this if you've read my previous walls of posts). I chatted with her a bit and she didn't seem very interested in me anymore. I was like, wow, this girl gets over guys fast. It'd only been like a month. And soon I found out that she was in a "relationship", if you would call it that, with a guy. But not just any guy, this dude lived, like across the country. We're both in California (hopefully that's not too much info) and this dude was in like Alabama or something. This dude kept on tagging himself and her in these anime photos he kept on posting, and she kept on liking them.

 

        Now I know, this all sounds very stalkery-ish (if you would call it that), but this is not even close as to what I have seen today, so hold your horses. So where was I- oh yeah. So Lk was in a "relationship" with a guy across the country. Also, all across her and his walls' were just a whole bunch of tinychat (you know, that one website that hosts quick chat rooms) invites. So I was like, OK, she's in a "relationship" with a guy across the country, but video-chatting with him and hopefully meeting each other by travelling across the country or something, aww, how cute. Yeah, this isn't even the worst part yet. Then, about a few weeks later or so, she suddenly in another "relationship" with another guy. Oh, OK, this girl's a "playah" (if that's what kids call people these days. But of course, this dude lives across the country AGAIN. What is with Lk hooking up with dudes over the internet and video-chatting with them. Soon, I've seen really weird people commenting and liking Lk's pictures. I checked their Facenovel profiles (not stalker-ish right), and every single one of them had literally no relations to Lk in any way. So I'm guessing Lk likes to hook up with cute guys over the internet right? Wrong. These dudes weren't even remotely cute. Dorky, but not cute.

 

        OK, here comes the good part, that is, if you consider really, really weird plot twists good. My whole life is a story. This is just another weird plot twist. So this is what I did. I programmed the Facenovel profile thingy so that I would get a notification every time Lk would post something, now I know what you're thinking, this is getting very stalker-ish and would result in a white van and candy. No, it's actually the opposite of that. With my new notification thingy, I could find out whenever she was posting a video chat link. Now the video-chatting website "Tinychat" posts links to your video chats on your Facenovel wall without you really knowing, so I'm guessing Lk doesn't really mind this.

 

        I've been to one of Lk's video chats before, though I was signed in anonymously so she wouldn't know it's me. She appeared to be video-chatting with this guy whom I assume was another dude she met on Facenovel. I was talking to my best friend at this time (Ec, that's his anonymous name), and I was like "hey, there's this girl who's video-chatting right now. Let's crash it." Something sort of like that. I joined in and I told my friend "Holy f*** is she even wearing any clothes. I mean, it wasn't showing her body or anything, but if you saw what I saw, you would kind of make that inference too as well.

 

        Oh, you thought that was the weird part. Oh, you're wrong. You're wrong. I am getting chills right now just thinking about this. Anyways, today I received the notification on Facenovel that Lk was in a video-chatting room right now on tinychat. I copied the link and pasted it in an incognito window (a mode on basically every browser where cookies and site data aren't collected so you can browse anonymously really). The page loaded up slowly, 50% 75%, 100%. What I saw next was- I don't even know how to describe this. And considering everything else that has been leading up for me to see this, I just don't know. Oh, and to let you know before reading on the next few lines, yes this is a very serious matter. I am scared because I don't know what to do with this knowledge. Read on if you're not afraid or don't care or whatever. On webcam, I saw what was Lk's legs spread apart, the camera was close to her thighs and she was... amsterbating, with what was most likely a d*ldo.

 

        Oh, no. Oh, no. I didn't really believe what I was seeing because it was so SHOCKING. I made sure that I didn't end up in some sort of live adult webcam room. Sure enough, Lk's name was in the top left corner of the webcam and at the bottom were "Lk joined the room", "guest_23238391 joined the room" and one other person, whom most likely was a guy. She moved the webcam up to her face and that was the last thing I saw. I quickly left the room.

 

        And that was it. About 10 seconds of what I've seen, can be turned into 100 pages of ranting. I mean, I didn't know what to expect. Sure, a girl hooking up with guys over the internet, that seems pretty normal. I didn't expect much of it, only that if she finds "love", she finds love. But not this. I mean, come on. Chatting with her on Facenovel, she seemed kind of like me. She spends her weekends at home, bored, and with really nothing to do. I couldn't believe I couldn't foresee this, mostly because it's not a common thing to think about haha. I took a break off the internet for a few minutes and began typing this post. Many things came to my mind while writing this, mostly things about what she has been doing for the past school year, her internet usage, her "liking" me, legal issues, her parents, her classmates at school, and those scumbag guys who have probably seen her vag*na on webcam.

 

        What's even worse is that Lk's parents are friends with her on Facenovel!!! Like, one click and they could see their daughter amsterbating for another guy on webcam. Another thought I have is if she's doing this for money. It's one thing to do this for acceptance or whatever, but doing this for money is on a whole new level. The worst part, is that she is about 13 or 14 right now. I am really scared, not because of what I saw, but because I don't know what to do with this knowledge now that I have it. Next year, she is going to be at my high school. I'm not sure if I'd want to hang out with her anymore haha. It's kind of creepy knowing that a person who you're speaking to in reality has done this kind of thing.

 

        Well, there you have it. That is what happened today. It's currently 4:05 PM. I screen-shotted the link. Umm, I don't know what to do. I- I- I don't know. That's what one of my past friends from my old elementary school had always chosen as the answer to everything. I don't know.

 

        Oh no, there's a meeting in the canyons. Oh no, this is rising to the clouds. This is gonna drive me crazy. It's gonna drive me mad.

Sunday, February 2, 2014

Sunday, February 2, 2014

Week 24

Songs to Remember:

 

        So I saw another "wonderful" post on my Facenovel newsfeed. I got to tell you, if you want to find stupid sh** to discuss about, just look on Facenovel. At least a few people would act ignorant and post stuff like this.

 

        This girl had posted, and I quote: " if you're an adult and not in the mood to argue with a mere 14 year old, please scroll past. anyways, it's kind of sad how adults try to scare us with the phase "the real world." what exactly is "the real world"? last time I checked, the place I'm living in right now is the REAL world. my problems are just as real as yours. my stress is just as real as yours. it doesn't matter whether or not you're paying taxes or not. everybody's situation is different. if you think that the... only real problems in our world are dealt with in adulthood, then let me tell you something, that's absolutely incorrect. go ahead and laugh at that teenager who says he/she is depressed. go ahead and laugh at that toddler who said they broke up with their best friend. go ahead and laugh at me. because believe me. you won't be laughing anymore when you realize that "the real world" is fake. the REAL world is what we live in right now. the REAL world is everyone's problems and issues combined. it doesn't matter whether you're paying your own taxes at the moment or not. the REAL world is what we're living in right now and everything combined."

 

        Oh yeah, lots of things to discuss. First of all, just getting this out there, I never knew that the term breaking up was used in connation with best friends. The more you know. Secondly, this girl talks a lot about taxes, yet she doesn't pay them. For f***'s sake, she's 14 years old and determining the impact of taxes. Like, this is the stuff I see on Facenovel every day. Now while reading this whole thing, I was more confused about her either talking the real world, or the Mtv show of the same name. That's how confusing she's making this. Getting by in " the real world" only requires money. That's all there is to it. Money, money, money. Just look at the board game, Monopoly; what are you trying to get? Money. Coincidence? I think not.

 

        And "the real world" is not "the place I'm living in right now". It's problems that are actually getting by-threatening, if that's even a real term, probably not. The real world is what houses problematic situations that could affect how you live, like I don't know, taxes, finding a job, paying rent, money, money, and debt. She's even listing things like "depression" and "breaking up with their best friend" (Like wtf, who says that?), which are just her problems. I don't see what she has to complain about, she has a decent life and I'm her sitting in front of my laptop typing on this blog when I could be experiencing the hardships of "the real world" that she has.

 

        Like, I have depression, but I still keep a fake smile. I moved away from my real best friends who I spent all of elementary school with, building a basis for the times we would have in middle school and onwards. But nope, I still got depression and I moved away. Anyways, enough bashing on this girl, I mean, she clearly doesn't understand and I'm clearly not "an adult who isn't in the mood to argue with a 14-year old".

 

        And most of these posts are mainly 40% honesty, 50% satire, and 10% thinking. I don't think when I'm posting these entries, I just type. If you're going to take me seriously, at least know that I have barely any idea of what I'm talking about. But hey, I could be right, I could be wrong.

 

        Moral of the story is: 12 oz. mouse is a very weird show. I don't recommend watching it.

Saturday, February 1, 2014

Saturday, February 1, 2014

Week 24

Songs to Remember: Get Crazy - Teen Top

 

        Yay, it's February! Oh, wait; wrong thing to be happy for. Oh no. So it's February, and because of that, I'd like to think about all my past relationsh- oh wait. Never mind.

 

        So a thought just came to me last night which almost blew my mind. I was thinking that if I liked a girl, I should just straight up go and tell her. My mind almost exploded by the sheer simplicity of that. But then I thought, she most likely, if not guaranteed, will say no. Then her excuse would be that she "doesn't really know me" or that I'm "not her type" or same lame bullsh** like that.

        Then I was thinking about how I would increase my chances with actually being a close friend or whatever, but not close enough that I'll end up in the shadow-realm, or as others like to call it: the friend zone. Now I don't want to get in depth about the friend zone because that'll take too many... chapters. Way too many chapters.

        Alright, so now I'm sure that the girl who was chatting with me on Facenovel disabled chat for me. I really do not know why. She posted a status like a week back saying she was "feeling like crap" and that how she has friends to comfort her and stuff. And this is why girls are more confusing than a math test.

        The thought of telling all the cute girls in my geography class that I like them is pretty tempting right now, but the thought of being labeled as a creeper who hits on every girl is enough for me to not do that. So, I'm going to have to go the passive route and say "Hi" to all the girls that I see when I walk to my geography class, and that does not include walking behind them and thinking to myself: "Just go up there next to her and say hi", but rather doing that action than thinking it. And then that leads to another topic about whether to act confident, but not too confident that it turns into obsessive stalker kind of confident.

        So today was a wasted day. I hope you all have a merry February 1st and a happy new year. I had no idea where I was going in this entry.