Wednesday, March 23, 2016 "Perspectives."

Wednesday, March 23, 2016
Week: 32
Songs to Remember: Fly - GOT7

        Normally I'd be tired as fuck right now and would be lying on the floor trying to take a nap, but I can't because of this one stimulating question that's got me thinking. "Why isn't prom fun?"

        The more you think about it, the harder it is to answer. "Well of course it's fun. You dress up all pretty with your friends, dance, spend time with your friends, take pictures, create memories. Why wouldn't it be fun?" And that's the thing. To be honest, I'm all up for spending time with my friends. The dancing thing, I could go without that, and umm, pictures are cool too I guess. But other than that, it's just, hmmm. I can't even explain it, like, what do you do at prom besides those things?

        Now this isn't saying I ain't going to prom, I still am. I'm trying to get into the mindset of why prom isn't fun and that doing something else would be a much better way to spend the 5 hours, because, Yn asked me if I was still going to prom, I took my experience from before and told her I'm just going by myself "for now," and uh, she tells me how she does not get why prom is so important to people. She said her friends are forcing her to go (by that she means persuading), even offering to pay for her ticket for her, even going as far as telling her "It's okay if you don't have a boyfriend, just go with friends," which is already a pretty fucking good argument, but alas, she still, and I quote: "Omg, idk how to let them know how much I HATE prom lol"

        She made an analogy that even if she had a boyfriend, she would break up with him than to force her to go to prom with him. That's like, ssssss, damn, heh. She says you don't have to create memories with prom, she hates prom because it relates to things she hates, that celebrating the end of high school and going to prom is an American thing, which I agree, and uh, her "favorite person" doesn't go to prom, so, I think I know what she means by that but I don't want her to go into detail about it, and uh, yeah.

        I asked her one more time what specifically she hates about prom, she replies: "EVERYTHING ABOUT PROM!! and PROM, and people who tell me to go to prom." Her friends have tried to convince her, I've tried to convince, giving my best fucking, Honors English level of perception and arguments and counterarguments, heh, but, looks like she's not buying it.

        It's puzzling for both of us. From her perspective, she doesn't get why people uphold prom as a "must go" or why people like prom so much. From my perspective, I fucking don't get why she wouldn't want to go, even just to hang out with friends. It really is weird, considering I did actually do research on the subject (I know, pretty fucking weird right) and there was barely anything on the phrase "I hate prom." I don't think I could truly understand the hatred for prom without having Yn's mindset.

        Incomprehensible to me. I'm assuming it's cultural differences, like, there's no prom or prom portrayal in media in Vietnam, so, just hearing about it recently, one could deem it pretty abnormal. And also, I'd assume that because she grew up in Vietnam, I grew up in the U.S with a somewhat stable finance from my parents. Yn said that highschool isn't that hard, that there are a lot of things that are much harder, and I agree.

        And now, after taking like a 1 hour break from thinking 'bout this, I now realize that I'm the one stressing over 'bout this. So what if she hates prom? I won't get a definite answer unless she straight up tells me no. And so what if I might lost out on a potential friend, right? If she chooses to not talk to me anymore because I asked her to prom, hey, it's her decision. I haven't seen her face since what? Since last semester. I don't interact with her at all now besides messaging her. She doesn't even message me unless I message her, so, I literally got nothing to lose. Literally.

        That's the fucking spirit, Drew. I mean, you've been through shit like this before! Holy shit, I just realized that now. I went on a limb and told El how I felt ;bout her. Guess what? We don't talk anymore. We're in the same club, we're in the same 6th period class, we're right next to eachother in KDT dances, but we don't talk to each other. And, I found a part of myself that realized "Drew, get the fuck out while you still can. You've got other chances you need to take." Do I regret asking El? No. No. I lost nothing from it anyways, heh.

       Gotta use them experiences, Drew, gotta use 'em. Oh and another reason why: she's going off to college, she'll encounter new as hell experiences unlike what she's experienced before. She'll get caught up in all of it, she won't stress out over messaging me, she'll be busy so me messaging her to be like "Hey, how's college going" is just like, whatever really, it's kinda just meh. So keeping the friendship by not asking, like, do I really value it that much? Even though it practically won't last for very long anyways? And who says she won't understand. I could be like "I just wanted a definite answer, no worries, heh. Alright, gotta go practice for the rally, I'll see ya later." Boom, easy, done. One of two crossroads.

       Anyways, I talked to Am about it all and she said to just do it, which I also agree. It'll be Friday during break, and uh, just gonna go with it. As for the day, Psych was just notes, English was just some bootleg presentations on 1920's stuff, Biology was just free time on Chromebooks to do this one bootleg online lab. Math was math, test tomorrow by the way, and uh, lunch was lunch. US History was an interesting one. The teacher said that he was planning on taking a trip to Europe and uh, is inviting students to come along. It's sorta like a field trip thing, except it takes place in the next school year, and, it costs around $3200.

        He told us stories about his trip about 9 years ago or so with kids from the classes he taught. Apparently he looks for bootleg dares to do while on these trips. Like, for example, "Hey, I'ma give you 8 euros if you, scream 'I love McDonalds' on that balcony there." 'Course, he has to make sure these things are morally good and safe. And pretty fucking bootleg, heh. There was one where he was challenged to convince this girl whom he thought was hot (this was in Switzerland by the way) to let him carry her on his arms and have the students take pictures. She said yeah, heh. Unfortunately, there was a really good pic of it that he liked, but the kid that shot the picture was never able to get him a copy of it, for he was part of a different school's trip. Pretty sad, pretty bootleg at the same time.

        And finally Chinese, where we do classwork. After school was practice with MASTI in collaboration for the rally on Friday. Tomorrow there is no practice, so I got some time to rest. 'Cept for the fact that there's a math test and English "quest" tomorrow. And no, haven't studied. Spent the last hour trying to sleep, after having crashed from not having my nap this afternoon. It's 11:32 PM right now, sorta feeling just meh right now. I'll see you tomorrow, see ya.