Friday, April 29, 2016

Thursday, April 28, 2016 "End My Suffering."

Thursday, April 28, 2016
Week: 37
Songs to Remember: Erectile Dysfunction - Pink Guy

        That feel when it's 12:05 AM and you look at the date for the you're writing and it's April 28th, which is like, 1/4th of the year done already.

        I never noticed how study groups can be so effective. This one girl in my English class made a group chat on Facebook for, well, our English class. We have an in-class essay tomorrow and so far we've talked a lot about planning and whatever. Mostly it's just all of of us complaining together that we're gonna do shit on it.

        What's I like most about our group chat is that the group emoji is of a gun and so when you post it, it looks as if you're shooting yourself. It's at this point of the year where you really do feel like killing yourself (first off, I don't advise anybody to kill themselves) due to all the tests teachers are giving out, worrying about the future, planning, etc.

        I for one, joke about suicide and all that dark humor with my friends. I joke about it because I like to think satirically about subjects like this, making it seem less, how do I say it? Less serious, when discussing it for real. Also, since it's being made light-hearted, it's a nice stress reliever. "Oh my god, there's a fucking essay tomorrow. Where the fuck's my shotgun?" Or like, "Just shoot me already! Just fucking, kill me!"

        Again, I'm joking, I'm not being serious about any of this, I don't want people to shoot themselves, I don't want to shoot myself, at least not until the next 60 years or so, and uh, yeah. This post was supposed to be about how and why I make suicide jokes. I'm probably gonna wonder why in my adult life "Huh. Why the fuck did I joke about killing myself so often." And then I come back to this post and be like "Oh yeah. It was actually reasonable to."

        So yeah, stress makes you feel like you wanna kill yourself. The day was just a whole work day really, the SBAC this morning was unfortunately not on science (that was for the sophomores), but on math, where you had to go analytical on ziplines. Fortunately, it was only 5 questions and i was able to finish future work for Chinese and math.

        I got History shit due tomorrow but I ain't worrying about that right now. I got some more outlining to do for the essay for English, the Bio final on Saturday, a KDT performance on Saturday (by the way, nice quality denim jacket came in the mail today. Opened of course, I still don't get why my mom has to open my mail all the time), and an AP Psych AP exam on Monday.

        You could see why shooting oneself is alright with all this going on. Anyways, lots of stuff happening, I'm tired, it' 12:56 AM now, see ya.

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