Thursday, January 7, 2016 "Quiet and Away."

Thursday, January 7, 2016
Week: 21
Songs to Remember: Roses - The Chainsmokers

        Considering it's 12:14 AM and I just wanna go to sleep, I'll just talk a little bit about things.

        School was about the same, nothing really stood out today besides me presenting with my partner in English, relating Star Wars Episode V to Maxims of Emerson. My dad has been quiet for the past couple days, he's mostly in his room, doesn't really talk to my mom or me, he's usually really loud. He's also stopped waking up early in the morning to ride in the car with me to school.

        There's been only one instance of this before, but that was years ago. I thought it was maybe something I said that caused this, but today I overheard my dad try to talk to my mom, joking or about something, just in a light manner. Or something. She just said she didn't want to talk because she didn't want to a conversation to lead to an argument and bring stress to everybody. Basically, unless theres something urgent or whatever he needed to say, there's no reason to say anything. So, my dad just sent back to his room.

        And I can sorta see where some of this stemmed from. Like, the hardest my parents have argued was when discussing about the family that's renting a room at our home. They were sorta late on payments so my dad wants to kick 'em out, but my mom thought there was no reason to, that they didn't mean any harm or weren't disruptive or whatever. That led to moments of silence for a few days, umm, then shit sorta got back to normal. Did you know we used to eat dinner together? We did. We all sat at the dinner table and ate at the same time. It changed when I got to High school though. I started staying up later, partly due to starting my work a bit later when I got home, something similar to that. So, my mom moved my shower time to 6:00 PM from 10:00 PM.

        That sorta stretched to 7:00 PM now, I eat dinner till around 7:45 PM, but by that time, my mom's already finished with hers, she eats sitting on the couch watching TV, my dad eats dinner at an earlier time of around 6:00 PM or so. Things have changed a lot these past years, and I do blame tranistions and stress to be the cause of this, I really do.

        Well, the only positive outcome of all this would have to be the peace and quiet in the day. And, I can be a bit more independent now. I have to manage my own time, and in my opinion, it's pretty offy right now. But anyways, I'm going to sleep, see ya.