Thursday, September 3, 2015 "It a Never-ending Cycle."

Thursday, September 3, 2015
Week: 4
Songs to Remember: Shadow - Legend

        What I would give to have all the time in the world to make one, big, post. I just finished my work and most of my studying for the 3 tests tomorrow and it's 10:11 PM, so I got some time today to truly say what I have to say.

        I've had tests and quizzes each day this whole, not even exaggerating, heh. I had to study, do work, and prep for the English presentation Monday night, Tuesday I had the chapter test for math as well as a vocabulary quiz for English, Wednesday was the unit test for Biology, as well as the presentation for English, and finally today, there was a test for Psychology. Luckily we had an seembly today so classes were short, and the teacher's giving us extra time tomorrow to finish the free-response essay, which I loosely prepared for.

        Never in my life did I expect it to be like this, maybe the work, but consecutive tests and quizzes is just draining. And that is why, I don't get enough sleep. Therefore, I'm tired when I get home, barely having the strength to work before dinner. Finally after regaining my energy, I spend all night to finish the work, maybe even ending up at midnight sometimes. And then the cycle repeats all over again.

        This is just one of the sources that's contributing to my depression, I don't know, I've been feeling depressed lately, and you know how I don't like to use it unless I really mean it. This work, I mean, sure, now that I'm actually able to express my feelings about it, as in, typing this all up, I actually feel like "Hey, I can do this, I CAN DO THIS". And also because I'm looking forward to the weekend. Now, moving onto the cast.

        Right now, I don't feel like, there's exciting shit happening. I can't believe I'm saying this, but it's THE SAME THING OVER AND OVER AGAIN. I go from math to the satellite kitchen to meet up with Ek and Ag, we head on over to the lockers, sit down, talk about badminton over and over again, bell rings, go to our classes, repeat the next day. Besides like, going to each other's houses on the weekends, it's just, ehhhhhhh.

        It's gotten old really fast. Luckily this upcoming weekend, my buddies and I are gonna go troll some people at Ec's school. The Skype chat so far is just Ec and his buddy Jp talking about hot chicks and linking their Facebooks. By that I mean from our schools. Ummm, so yeah. I just need something new.

        And if it weren't for my low self esteem, I'd be fucking shouting right now. But I don't know, and that's why I'm writing all this down, heh. I'll just get on with the day, go study a bit more, then sleep. Psychology, test today, great. 50 multiple choice questions in 25 minutes. Not great. Barely any time for the free response essay, so the teacher's giving us time tomorrow. Thank god because I had nothing prepared, literally studied for 5 minutes in the morning.

        English was still fine. Apparently we had another vocabulary quiz, this time it's tomorrow, when we just had one this week, along with presentations. Thank god I got mine over with, didn't really choose to but, hey, it works. That one girl STILL hasn't gone to present yet. We still have like a dozen more presentations to go. Also, the teacher said one of the most bootleg things today. He was like "Did you know, the word 'gullible' isn't included in the dictionary? It's so weird". He then explained how it was a joke and that students would go look it up in dicitonaries only to realize that they were gullible enough to believe that. Everyone was like "OHHHH". Even I was like that, that was fucking bootleg, heh, I was belieiving everything mostly because I don't really care much about it. Still pretty bootleg.

        Biology. Just a work day, get shit finished 'cause it's all due tomorrow. Even then, still lots of work, heh. Now math. Still the same, that girl's still chill, she even messaged me again today asking for help on a question, her messages are casual even, as if we were friends all along. Now, that's the shit I like to see. Anyways, graphing. I also didn't realize it, but, that one dude who hung out with Ec and I, way back during freshman year, he sits a couple seats in front of me. Didn't even notice him 'till yesterday when the teacher called his name. Hmm.

        So after lunch we had an assembly. Random ass assembly, I wasn't notified of it 'till today. I had 5th period in the F building, so we're going to the first assembly, since, everybody at one assembly would be chaotic. It was supposed to be an anti-bullying thing, so I was like "Ugh, not this again". When I realized it was at the basketball courts I was like "Uhhhh, why? Why put us in the heat and sun?" There weren't any organized seats or anything.

        There was a fucking Marines tent (like, Marines.com) and uh, giant ramp with a couple BMX people riding bikes and doing tricks on there. I was like "Uhhhhhh". It was literally, literally, just a sponsored event. The school had to make up an excuse to have these guys here. Apparently it's like a national school tour for these dudes. The school was probably like "Shit, these dudes are good. How are we gonna make this acceptable and take out class time for?" "Uhh, let's just include some anti-bullying facts in there and call it an anti-bullying assembly" "Holy hell, that's a great idea".

         A total of 4 "facts" about bullying. Literally it was just like "90% of high school students have reported that they've been cyber-bullied before". Well, no shit, literally one hate comment is equivalent to that. It was all just to promote their tour and random sponsored shit, Marines, shit. And uh, yeah. After that, we went back to class, met Em on the way back, US History, jeopardy game to prepare for the test tomorrow. Yeah, that's great. It's be even better if we were warned about it a couple days before. Nice.

        Aaaand Chinese. 'Nuff said. I just wanna take the test already so we can move seats, and I pray to the writers that I get a god seat. Alright, well I'll make a more detailed post this weekend perhaps. Long 3-days weekend, hopefully it doesn't mean more work. Anyways, see ya.