Saturday, June 3, 2017 "Thanks for Watching."

Saturday, June 3, 2017
Week: 43
Songs to Remember: Happy - 2NE1, Plz Don't Be Sad - HIGHLIGHT, Press Your Number - Taemin, Dollar (달라) - HOBBY, Strange - MASC, Hit Me (전화해) - MOBB, 365 Fresh - Triple H, Egg - The Garden, Danza Kuduro - Don Omar, Movie - BTOB, Limitless - NCT 127, Body - MINO, Only You (너 하나면 돼) - 24K (투포케이), Tina (티나) - MASC, FXXK IT - BIG BANG, MAESTRO - CHANGMO (창모), WITHOUT U (니가 없는데) - Romeo (로미오), The Eye - Infinite, Oh NaNa - K.A.R.D, Caroline - Aminé, BeBe - Seo In Guk (서인국), BERMUDA TRIANGLE - ZICO, Moves Like Raindrops - kmlkmljkl, Dancing King - EXO Yu Jae Suk (유재석), iSpy - KYLE, The Best Present - Rain, All I Wanna Do - Jay Park, I'll Wait (겨울이 간다) - DAY6, 679 - Fetty Whap, Reason (feat. 리차드파커스) (헤어져야 하는 이유) [SPACECOWBOY deep future remix] - SPACECOWBOY (스페이스카우보이), Because of You (NU'EST Cover) - Nu'est, Love Paint - Nu'est, Monster - EXO, Better When I'm Dancing - Meghan Trainor, Love Affair - NIEL, Already - Taemin, Sweet Heart (오빠야) - SEENROOT (신현희와김루트), Slide - Calvin Harris, Know Me - DPR LIVE, PICK ME 2 (나야 나) - PRODUCE 101, Easy Love (쉽다) - SF9, ROCK N HIPHOP (빨리 뛰어) - BTOB, SKIT (CHEEZE사리추가VER) - Giriboy (기리보이), Sorry - Zion T., Issues - Julia Michaels, Redbone - Childish Gambino, Falling - Snakehips, 2 Beer (맥주 두 잔) - Kisum (키썸), Just a Picture - KYLE, Strip (Remix/Slow Version) - Chis Brown, All In My Head (Flex) - Fifth Harmony, Obsession - Boyfriend, TT - TWICE

        So, after 4 years, it's finally over. 4 years of trying not to be on with others when you shouldn't be, 4 years of having the chances of everything you do to turn out bad, 4 years of spending days in a bubble, 4 years of refining down the people who you really do care about.

        I'd say it didn't go by as quick as other people say. There were countless nights and days where things were stretched out and it seemed like things were never ending. I say "things" because there were a lot of events, people, times, that should just be described as "things," 'cause it really is hard to narrow down everything over the course of 4 years. This year, however, this series, this was the one that went by fast. Because I can recall all the crazy and insane events I did with my friends in the beginning of the year, how relaxing things felt, jumping to the beginning of 2017 and those days were close to almost over, KDT performances, shit happening, and jumping now to here.

        And it's like "I did all those things... just this series? Just this year?" You can go back and see for yourself, from the beginning, of Precisely Refined, and see just how much I've done in this series compared to the other three combined. I am proud of that, I really am. Sure, I didn't really cure cancer or anything like that but, for me, going from not being a part of any clubs, not really being anybody, to having people look up to me for inspiration, to being known as a person from KDT, to being somebody whose younger version would be proud of, I'm proud of, how far I've gotten.

        Before I get any further into this, I'll just recap yesterday's graduation. Didn't really get much sleep yesterday, I had to be at school by 9:00 AM, which really isn't any different from the usual start time of 8:00 AM school-days. Arrived late due to no parking but that didn't matter. Got into my teacher's classroom, my English teacher, who I chose to read my name for graduation. We all went out to the softball field for the graduation rehearsal. You basically had to stand in lines, based on who you picked to read your name, you stand, head out onto the field, stand inches from the chairs you're supposed to sit on, do the pledge of allegiance, sit, stand up again, sit, listen to some singing and bootleg rapping, listen to some speeches, and then walk up to the stage for the handshake and diploma handing (the last part wasn't done to save time). I sat in middle section, it was like a semi-circle, with the stage being in the center of the median line, I was in the middle of it.

        And like, the people who chose my teacher to read their names, I knew, nobody in the class. Well like, I knew 'em, but they're not people who'd I want to associate myself with, aaand are more or so hoodlums. Not everybody in there, but about... 99% were. Had I connected that, the people who chose the same teacher to read their names would be in the same seats and group as them for graduation, I most likely would've chose a different teacher. But it was alright, you know, the only person I really liked out of the group of hoodlums I was with, was my teacher, heh. Over the year he was, pretty cool, and so, I didn't mind him reading my name for graduation.

          And then you go home, to come back again in about 2 hours to get your diploma, and then 2 more hours because that's the time you gotta be back for graduation. So after rehearsal was over, which was around 12:00 PM in the hot sun, I got a call from Ag to go to like, Wal-Mart to get some Lei's. And of course they don't have lei's, so, we left and went to In 'n' Out for food before we headed back to the school to pick up our diplomas. If you didn't know, the diploma frame-holder that gets handed to you at graduation doesn't actually contain the diploma paper in it. It's just an empty holder, and so you'd have to get your actual diploma at a different time, for us it was earlier. So technically, you could just not attend graduation. You, wouldn't have the cool holder-thingy, but you have the official paper that certifies that you graduated High school so.

        I dropped her off at her place, I headed home to take some power naps. You see, my strategy for fully enjoying naps is to set an alarm to ring every 5 minutes or so, so that I can sleep without worrying about over-sleeping. And, I get to enjoy the sensation of going BACK to sleep. I know I'm not the only person in the world that does this, okay. But yeah, I wanted to take some naps, I closed my eyes, uh, didn't really get to sleep any, because by the time I was getting sleepy, it was time to shower and get ready and dressed to go back to the school. I also had to pick up Ag, give Jd a ticket to go see the graduation, give Nk (a KDT freshman) a ticket and a ride to the school, and unexpectedly but good timing, Ln and Rh a ride to school.

        We got back just in time to for some breathing room. Ag, Ek, Lw were in their respective rooms, everybody was in their respective rooms, I was in my teacher's room, watching people act like it's a Chuck E. Cheese's up in there. People were taking pictures, etc, I, was not really feeling anything. Not really any sadness, and I still don't. The only sadness I've felt these past couple weeks were the stress-release times at night, with me thinking about how some of the people I care about are going away, or when I was reading the letters that KDT members specifically wrote for me. And it's been only two instances.

        So yeah, in normal circumstances now, I just can't cry. I couldn't even cry during the KDT speeches, and I really wanted to show emotion. But I guess that'll be for another time. Anyways, it was time for graduation, they ask you to show 'em what's in your pockets before you enter the field 'cause apparently they're strict on phones. I, I put mine's in my shoe and got past. They, they really didn't seem to care this time though I guess, 'cause I saw people with their phones out like, 20 feet away from the inspectors. We're all waiting at the softball field, everybody, every parent, friend, they're all in sitting in the bleachers. Still, I wasn't feeling it. Maybe had I had some people that I knew to talk to during the whole thing, besides my teacher of course, but that's all very minute now.

        It was time to start walking to the field, the football field, and, do all the things listed above. And yes, it was very boring, heh, I, I do not know, how I was able to sit there for all of that. I could, visually see the sun setting. That's how long it was. Now, there were some parts where I was like "Oh, so that happened." Remember the dude whom I let put his name on my project for math? Before then, he was like "If I don't do this project, I'ma fail and I won't be able to graduate." Well, during graduation rehearsal today, he was like "Hey, this is the last time you're gonna see me. Thanks for letting me put my name on the project, and sorry I didn't do anything." I was like "It's whatever fam." Well, during graduation, he walked on stage (I didn't recognize him until I saw his fidget spinner in his hand), crouched down and did a "praise the sun" pose, hugged the principal, got his diploma, shook hands with a member of the schoolboard, walked off stage, didn't stand for any pictures, and skipped off, with a fidget spinner in his hand.

        I was like "Oh my. I caused this, I indirectly caused this." That was uh, yeah, heh. The fidget spinner really, topped it off though. But anyways, yeah, after a while, it was finally my turn to walk up on that stage. My name was called, I uh, I did my pose thingy, my signature pose, one last time, whilst walking up the stage. I shake the principals hand whilst holding onto my new diploma (holder) and looking into the camera, start exiting only to find out I forgot my diploma, the principal hands it to me again, I shake hands with the school-board member, I walk off, they take one last picture of me, and that's it. I walk back to my seat to, to wait for more names to be called and for it to be over.

        What really sucked when it was all over, was that we didn't have a "1, 2, 3" to throw our caps into the air. Nah, instead we had a "on the count 3, turn your tassels from the right side of your cap, to the left." AW YUH, very exciting am I right, heh. And it was over, and now it was time to take some pictures. I took the phone out of my shoe (which was where I hid it but ending up being very unnecessary), and saw that I got a couple of texts, one of which was from my parents. I was like "Ho shit" and looked to see that my mom said that she and my dad were going home 'cause it was getting too cold, heh.

        You might say "What the, what kind of parents do you have, not staying for their child's graduation?" Hey, my family's different from others. Staying for their son or daughter's graduation, I'd say it's more of an American thing. My parents never graduated (or at least I don't think) they graduated from High school, and this was back in Vietnam, in the 1970's into the 80's. I'd honestly be tired as fuck, if I was 50 or 60, had to sit in the hot sun for an hour and a half, and then bare the cold winds for another hour and a half. A diploma is more than enough to suffice for them, so, that's all that matters.

        I took pictures with many people, A LOT of people, actually. I took pictures with those who'd you'd already expect by now, as well as some special guests, like Tu. And, even some surprise guests that I didn't even know had showed up, including Ec and Mc. I was, aw man, I was so surprised and ecstatic that they showed up, I had no idea. I felt bad because I didn't even attend their graduations, hell, I didn't even know Ec's graduation happened until the day OF his graduation (it was about a week and a half ago), and at that time, I was still in school, heh. But damn, I was, that lit up my spirits a whole bunch (it was already lit up from seeing KDT underclass-men showing up but you get what I mean).

        Lasted quite a bit, because by the time I left, it was about 10:00 PM, and it was cold, and about 90% of everybody had left already. And nope, still, didn't really feel any sadness, just, tired. The last person I talked to at the school was my English teacher. I forgot that I left my yearbook in his classroom and luckily for me, he was still there, cleaning up and stacking desks. I grabbed my yearbook from his room, said good-byes, and left.

        I was expecting to go out to eat with my parents but since they were more than likely to be asleep at that time from sitting and listening to names for 2 and a half hours, and since we (Ag and I) didn't have time to get milk tea, as I had to pick up like, 3 other people, I asked Ag if she was still down to get milk tea or something to eat. It's weird 'cause her parents wanted her home so early from graduation, yet they still let her out late like this to get fucking, milk tea or whatever. Or in this case, ice cream and Wal-Mart. We went to this ice-cream place that apparently Ag goes to all the time after badminton practices. Place was still open, the atmosphere was very nice and light ('course, it was like, 10:30 PM at this time so), some people congratulated us on our graduation (we were still in our graduation gowns). The place was blasting some OG GD songs as well as other songs that I could understand.

        Ag and I got some ice-cream (which wasn't really ice-cream, it was, frozen milk) and ate there, and as we were enjoying our late-night ice cream, a couple of people walked in, I, didn't pay attention, I had my back turned towards the door actually. I hear from behind me "Is that Drew? Drew!" and I turn around and it was Ct with her friend. I was like "What, are, the odds." Like, huhhhh, this was, what crazy timing. What a, what a plethora of guests there were for the last episode special of the series. That was fucking awesome.

        We talked for a bit, they left soon after ordering, and then it was me and Ag's turn to leave. I actually contemplated working there, just because of the music and atmosphere. Seemed like a, pretty cool place to work at. Uhhh, and then afterwards, Ag needed to pick up some stuff from  Wal-Mart so we headed there afterwards. Nothing better than Wal-Mart, at, like 11:00 PM. Did you know some Wal-Marts are open 24/7? I didn't even know that, it's, fucking crazy. But anyways, I drove her home afterwards, drove myself home, knew that I was too exhausted to write anything with effort, so I went to bed, and now here I am. It's, 5:46 PM, but I know I won't be finished with this until late at night tonight.

        As always, I want to talk a bit about my teachers, and then I'll go over, essentially everything that I want to say. Starting off with, my Dance teacher, Ms.Cottengim. I actually had her as my P.E teacher for the jogging unit in my freshman year. She actually teaches Dance full-time now at school. Although she was missing for about 4 months for maternal leave, she, was a good teacher. Understandable, inspirational. Just, all-around chill person. Really would have liked to take Dance 2 (not the movie, the class), but ah well, maybe in a different timeline. My math teacher, Ms.Yi, was, ya know, like what I had said in the beginning of the year. "Tseng 2.0," heh. Overall, I passed her class, and uh, yeah it was a challenge. Don't really want to take it again, but uh, ya know, as a person outside of math, she's alright. My Digital Art teacher, Mr.Yanoska, I had him in my freshman year for a semester of Digital Art. It was called like, Intro to Graphic Design, or something like that. Overall really chill dude, exerts more effort than necessary for his students, very chill. My 5th period teacher, from the 1st semester, was Mr.Escobar. He'd always show bootleg videos in the beginning of his class every. Relates to his students very well, very youthful, overall, enjoys what he does, and students appreciate him for his overall personality and teaching methods.

        This semester, I had Mr.Castro as my Economics teacher. He was on an even more, flatter state, when it came to student activities. My class, we pissed him off quite a few times (not me, but, you get what I mean). He lets students come in late (for my class at least), respects that we are, seniors, and so, we, don't care for much except maybe food, heh. Umm, but yeah, overall, he has a lot of good advice about the world. He's been through quite a bit. Ms.Kang, my 6th period Chinese teacher, for the past 3 years, was a handful. Now I'm not saying in any disrespectful way, but, she, she hands out a lot of bulk work. She has given us more assignments this year than all of my classes combined maybe. Okay that might be a bit of an exaggeration but, you get what I mean. Fortunately, the way she weighs things in her class, you can't really fail unless you don't turn shit in. So there's that leighway. As a person, she's very youthful, enjoys her doggies, appreciates her students who at least give her some respect. And finally, my English teacher, Mr.Mitchell. Besides choosing him to read my name for graduation, I find inspiration from him. At the beginning of the year, I knew he was a cool teacher, and I was right. He relates to his students, is very chill about things, treats 'em all equally. My perspective on him changed when he told us all the story about how he overcame his drug addiction in his life, after some tragic endings with people he was close with. I was awed by that. Like, going from the depths of drug addiction and relapsing, all the while overcoming tragedies, to leading a stable job and being a role model and somebody for students to look up to, it's fucking amazing. And so, after that, I had even more respect for him than I already did. And I bet he even has other cool stories to tell as well, ones that, I'd like to hear someday. So of course, I'll visit back and, talk to him about things.

        And now, for the part you've all been waiting for. Just kidding 'cause this'll be the longest part of this whole thing: thoughts and feelings towards everybody I knew, over these 4 years. I'm not gonna write a page for each person, for practicality reasons, and I'm not gonna talk everybody whose name I knew over the course of 4 years. I'll keep it to people who've made an impact on me, at school, even the littlest of impacts. Alright, are you ready, 'cause I'm ready, ready to flip through this yearbook for names. Most will be people who I only met this year, or just in KDT. I'll be keeping it to only first names, as to keep at least SOME anonymity within all this. Here it is, and this is in no particular order, it's literally me going through the yearbook's order:

Nicolas - He's a freshman in KDT, joined just this year. In the beginning, I, didn't really pay much attention to him. He had on like, anime stuff, Hatsune Miku wigs, I was like "Alright, if that's what he wants to do." And I think some people think he's "cringy" or "weird" because of that, because he shows his interests publicly. He said during the KDT speeches that he felt like the people he hung out with during break and whatever, are kinda, shitty. He felt like people always looked down on him, thought he ain't amount to anything. And that's very disheartening to hear, because, after spending time with him at Fanime, he's actually a cool and chill-ass dude. Like, you can't hate him. My advice for him is to either, not express too much of that stuff, the anime stuff, in public, due to how, for most people in the bubble that is, this school, anime isn't that accepted, about 70% I suppose, don't really accept it, publicly, that is, in a classroom here. It, it all really depends on the people and circumstances, or, to keep doing what he's doing and he'll be able to find his real friends, for, the ones who accept him for sharing his interests out there.
        About a couple days ago, he messaged me saying that between me and him, I'm one of his favorite seniors from KDT. From his speech, he felt like KDT were the only people who really accepted him for who he was, didn't judge him at all for expressing himself, and I agree, that's, that's one of the best things about KDT. But uh, yeah, he finds me as sort of a role-model I guess, or at least, finds inspiration from me, and that's, it is an honor. Because for me, I, I didn't really feel like anybody last year, well, before KDT but, I uh, I always looked towards Tu as inspiration, for somebody I want to be like or similar to. And now here I am, with somebody looking at me for inspiration. I really would like to see him excel in KDT and as a person who, will make his mark on who he is in these upcoming 3 years. I want him to know that I'll always have his back, if he wants to talk or hang out, I'll be there for him.

Kayce (pronounced "Casey") - He was a freshman in my dance class, joined about a couple weeks after the school-year started. Didn't think much of him at first, but, after a while, he's one of the people who made Dance class in the morning more lively. He has a lot of energy, a lot of freshmen do. I appreciate the effort he puts in for the dances, he, he actually tries, he actually asks for help on moves he isn't sure about, and, I appreciate that. He's also into the Supreme scene and skateboards so, that's cool too.

Koby - He's a freshman in KDT. And oh boy, he is one of the most playful, nicest dudes ever. You can't get mad at him, for anything, nor does he do anything that would make you mad, but you get what I mean. Despite challenges that arrives in his way, he's able to overcome them, with his positivity and energy. He;s very strong, mentally. He has, a lot, of energy, as a lot of the freshmen do at school. He's helped and offered help to me for a lot of things, and you know, I can't ask for anything more. Koby's a great guy, and I expect great things from him.

Amy and Kate - Amy's a sophomore from KDT, Kate's a freshman from KDT. Did not really talk to them much at all, but during the beginnings of KDT for this year, they've always caught my eye. Them and their group of friends always bring such light-heartedness to KDT, to everybody. Very, positive, gives KDT the "kawaii-ness" (you will not catch me using that word) it needs, and are just, all-around nice people.

Ryan - The freshman one, from KDT. He is such a friendly dude. He puts his own style in dancing, a big fan of BTS and GOT7. He's also going to be the new secretary for KDT next year. I appreciate his energy that he puts into every, especially in dancing. I'd love to see how far he gets in these next 3 years, I'm expecting great things.

Han - She's a freshman in KDT. Same as Kate, she brought the nice energy to KDT and those around her. They have this sub-unit called "ACE" in KDT, and I sure hope to see them perform more in the future.

Marissa - She's also a freshman in KDT. She's always caught my eye once she joined. I think she joined starting the 2nd semester of the school-year, but don't quote me on that. She and her groups of friends are so nice and I appreciate the attention that give to me even though we, never really talked. I do enjoy their company, and even more, when they came to graduation.

David - Mah boy David. He's a sophomore in KDT. I remember dancing with him last year in the very beginnings of my journey with KDT. It was like me, Ad, Cc, and a couple other people. Good times, good times. Overall energetic dude, I love his company.

Julie - Oh man, she's one of the sophomores from KDT (and also the new co-president) that I'ma miss the most. She is one of the most caring, most kindest, most friendly, comforting, person I know. And I don't even talk to her that often. It's more often usually just a "hi" wave daily, and we only really talk at KDT practices and shows. She wrote in her letter that she appreciates how me and Cc and some others always hung out with her during practices, that we gave her a chance to, gave her, people to talk to essentially. Numerous times she's asked me if I ever was feeling down, and, I love how she cares about others, how she puts others before herself. It seems that at some points she's going through dark times and it's saddening that a person like her has to go through some of these things. I just want her to know that I'll always have her back, whenever she needs it. I know that next year it'll be tough balancing work with KDT but I hope she prevails. I really will miss her company.

Ryan - The sophomore one, from KDT. Oh boy, I, heh, oh boy. I remember when he randomly joined in the 2nd semester of last year. Was first very quiet, didn't introduce himself to us, he was just there. And now look at him, a very loud-mouthed person (in a good way) in KDT, heh, and the new vice-president of KDT. I love how him and I have the same interests whether it be groups like NU'EST or NCT, or fashion, or, just, whatever. I love his thoughts, the banter we have. He's a fun dude. He has gone out of his way to help me, he's helped me a lot more than I think he knows, and I'm grateful for that. I'll miss hanging out with him, and Ln, and Jd, and Atr, all the sophomores.

Lyn - The sophomore from KDT. I had her added on Facebook from my Facebook adding spree I think, from a while back. I never talked to her, at all, but I knew she liked K-Pop. One day she messaged me on Facebook, asking me to help her win a K-Pop contest. I was like "Hey, blah blah blah," and she was like "Oh, blah blah blah," and I found out she's gonna be joining KDT and I was like "Hey, me too actually." And now here we are in KDT, and she's, she's one of the co-presidents now, heh. She is also another person who has went out of their way to help me. She has helped me more than she knows, and I can't thank her enough for all the effort she's put into me. Even when she didn't even need to, she helped me. Recently, throughout this year, she's been through some rough times, and I hope with all my heart that she'll overcome all of that, because KDT needs her, people like me need her, and, KDT and others like me, would not be the same without her help.

Amie - Aw yuh, the times were good. She's a sophomore in KDT. I will miss talking about K-Pop with her, especially when there's new releases and comebacks. She's really into BTS. She definitely knows her K-Pop lore. Generally a positive, nice person. I'd say more but, the details and the history's already there in past episodes, heh.

Isaac - This time it's not a person from KDT. Him and I met in Chinese class, in Chinese 1 or Chinese 2, I can't remember. Him and I shared interests like BS-ing Chinesee work, uhhh, some video games, some general interests like a bit of airsoft, etc. I always say hi to him when I see him around school. He does parkour now, a lot of it. People at school pretty much know him as the "parkour" guy. I'll miss having bootleg times in Chinese, with that one group with Zl and Jc. That was the bomb.

Aira - She's a junior from KDT. In the beginning of this year when she joined KDT, I gotta admit, I was jealous of her dancing. But that's okay, but it gave me motivation to practice more. But yeah, she's, a really chill person. She and I share the same sense of fashion, it's great.

Yung-Chi - Mah boy Yung-chi. Him and I go way back, in my sophomore year, I remember him and I and Ad dancing in KDT during the first few KDT practices. I only say first few KDT practices 'cause I was only there for the first few KDT practices. He was in my math class this year. Didn't really talk to him much this year. Overall though, he knows, I know him, we know who we are. He's a conversationalist, everybody generally likes him. Chill dude.

Jessica - The junior from KDT. She's been very supportive for me and what I do, or done. The best time was when her, me, Tm, and Cc were all together having lunch at the plaza near the school during the Key club show. Boy was that fucking nice. I also know her from her sister, who's a KDT alumni.

Celine - Oh boy oh boy. She's a junior from KDT. Out of all the people that I doubted would talk to me, she talked to me, heh. On multiple occasions. A very friendly person, and, I wish she had more opportunities to perform with KDT this year 'cause I do enjoy talking to her. But godamn, godamn. I will miss talking to her.

Michelle - She's a junior from KDT. Not only is she a weab (in a good way), she's very friendly, kind, caring, positive, energetic. She has also, helped me, more than she knows. She's been a great help for me this year. I can't thank her enough for what she's done, not just for me, but, for KDT, ya know, bringing in all the positivity and weab banter.

Dempsey, Alan, and Erik - These guys were my buddies from Dance class. These guys brought in some nice dance energy and especially Erik, the randomness that woke me up every early morning. I loved performing with them in the dance recital. The banter and everything, it was a such a different take on it all at that time, a cloud, over all the crazy shit happening. Good period of time where it was just, the only thing to worry about was dancing. I sure will miss these Hip-hop dudes.

Tim - A junior from KDT. Him and I met during the KDT KASA show. I didn't know him at all, I, really only talked to him 'cause I guess he was friends with Cc. It was a mutual friends, sorta thing. And, ya know, I liked what he talked, I guess he liked what he talked, 'cause now we love each other's company, heh. Him and I share the same sense of humor, same relate-able banter. In his letter he said that he thinks I'm one of the funniest people he's met and that really, touched me, heh. It's crazy think how much we got to know each other over the course of only one semester. It's insane. And of course, I can't thank him enough for how much he has helped me over the course of this time. I receive a lot of help from him.

Esteban - Him and I go way back to 7th and 8th grade. Him and I talked a lot 'cause we basically had the same classes. In 7th or 8th grade, I can't remember, we had like, the same 5 of the 6 classes of our schedule. We didn't really talk much in 8th grade, and then, nothing at all these past 4 years. I think at a couple points in time I was like "Hey, how's it going" around the school. I haven't seen him in a while until towards the end of this year. He still remembers me, I still remember. Goood times, good times.

Jasmine - The senior from KDT. I remember when she was in my Geography class. What mundane times those where, heh. And now here we are. She's been a good boss, umm, I'll definitely miss her, along with the other cabinet members from this year. If you want more details, you can go see the past episodes.

Cathy - Yeeeeeahh boy, this is uh, not sure how long this is gonna be. Cathy's a senior from KDT. I've known her since freshman year, and if not then sophomore year, I don't remember. My boy Ec always said hi to her. She ended up being in my English class. I remember the one time we talked during that time was after the art show that year, when we were walking back to class, and we talked. I think that's actually in one of the episodes if I'm not mistaken. And then, over that summer, she was like "You're going into KDT," and I'm like "Yeah," and she's like "See you there," or something along the lines of that. It's a, it's a long while ago, heh. Spent 2 years in KDT with her. She's the most nicest person you could ever know, probably a bit TOO nice, for her own good, heh. Uplifting, positive, caring, helpful. And DON'T, get me started on how much she has helped me. Because I could write pages upon pages, on how she has helped me. Fortunately, she and I are heading to the same college so, hopefully we don't drift apart. I really don't want to lose a good friend like her.

Samantha - Oh boy oh boy. The senior from KDT. I knew who she was, before KDT. Not really "knew," just really, knew who her name and what she looked like. My boy Ec and I talked about her. I got to know her over time in these 2 years in KDT, as well as Dance class this year. She's had unfortunate happenings that've occured to her, and I feel bad because, she's somebody who does not deserve all that. She doesn't deserve all for that the amount of caring, friendliness, helpfulness, that has for others. And especially me, she's also another person who has helped me a lot. I hope the best of luck to her and hope that things turn out even better, than great, for her.

Vy - I already gave out details in past episodes but, KDT was bomping with her in it. She was a senior in KDT, and uhh, were mutual friends with me and Jk. Good times. She was also in my Chinese class for the 2nd year.

Jack - MAH BOY. He's been a part of Father Nude's for a while now. By that I mean, the cast and I. He's provided me, not only transportation, but also, opportunities to risk it for the biscuit. Him and I have about the same goals so, it's nice to go places thinking "AW YUH." I'd also like to thank him for some of the vocabulary I use now. He's going to the same college as me so, hopefully we party hard, or, something, heh.

Justin - I don't where to start with this dude. He's a part of the cast, Father's Nudes, since the very beginning. Him, Ek, and Ag picked me up the beginning of junior year At that time, I did not know how I was gonna survive without my best friend, who had gotten booted out to a different school after sophomore year. But they picked me up, they gave me a chance to be myself. He's starred with me in so many episodes, so many movies, specials. I can't thank him enough for the help he's given me. And if we do drift apart, ya know, it's all part of High school.

Hoyun - Another senior KDT buddy. I don't think she really liked me in the beginning when I was first in KDT. But now it's okay, heh. We had Dance class together. She helped me by giving me her opinions on things, uplifting encouragements. I appreciate what she's done for me.

All the KDT alumni - I can't possibly name them all. They've just all been great inspirations for me, and look where I am now, heh. I'd say I wouldn't be able to have gotten to where I am now without their influence.

An - To be honest, I thought this would've been a more sadder ending with her going to a college 3 hours away, but she told me she'd be coming back home every weekend, so like, aw man, there goes my sad ending, heh. But it's all good, that just means, more time to spend with her. She is probably one of my favorite people in Father's Nude's, if I had to pick favorites, which I really don't, because I love everybody in it. We have the same sense of humor, she understands my banter, I have this sort of, confidence? Not sure what you'd call it, when I'm around her. Confidence to say whatever and not get shit for it, heh. But yeah, she's very caring, very nice. She, Ek introduced me to her that one day the library during math tutoring. That was actually mentioned probably in a past episode, of The Days. You should go see it.

Andrew - The senior, the one from Father's Nudes, the one who's part of the cast. I've known him for the longest time. Not like know-know, just, I knew who he was, knew his name, knew what he looked, just never really talked to him. He'd been in the talks with Ag and soon he was like "Hey do you mind if I hang out with you guys?" (this was in an episode) and look where he is now . He's a very caring person, helpful, puts others before himself. He'll be going to a college about 6 hours away so, after this summer it'll pretty much be the last I'll ever see of him for, who knows how long. Maybe forever, maybe not, I don't know. But I'm glad we got to pick him up like Ek, Ag, and Jk did for me.

Bea - The senior from KDT. She's somebody I really connect with but never really ever get the chance to. She and I share the same interests, sense of humor, aesthetic, you name it. She is caring, she is helpful, she does put others before herself, and it is unfortunate that things sometimes doesn't go her way. I do wish the best for her, when she's 13 hours away from here in college. She really is a great person with, I bet, a lot of cool stories that I'd like to hear. Plus she's helped me a ton, a lot, more than she knows.

Bryan - I've had him in my Chinese class and he's always hung out under that tree when Ec and I were still there. Just wanna say, if he does anything great in the world, I was one of the people he knew in High school. Just saying, I went to High school with him, he knew me.

Eloisa - Not sure how long I've known her, I think, maybe since middle school. I knew who she was was, her name, what she looked like, all through Facebook, because of how many people she's said "Happy birthday" to on Facebook, heh. I never actually talked to her, AT ALL, and I had plenty of times to do so, but I didn't, until, well the senior awards night episode, and SHE, was the one to initiate too. It's unfortunate that we've only started talking now, and I do blame myself for not risking it for biscuit. Because her personality is really nice, and we share that K-Pop mutuality.

Miah - The KDT senior. I remember when I sat behind her in math for sophomore year, maybe even Junior year too. We had the same math class or so. I never really talked to her though in there. I also had Chinese class with her in Junior year. And now here we are: she was my boss in KDT. Very good boss, even though I sometimes get pissed off at some of her yelling. I am, alive, and well. For the most part. I do appreciate all that she's done for the club though.

Lusi - Another member the of the cast, of Father's Nudes. She was picked up, not necessarily picked up, but you get what I mean. She, I, Ek, and Ec interacted under that one tree during the first two series. She was also in my Geography class freshman year. She's definitely added a lot to the group, and is usually the person to start events and planning, 'cause nobody else really does in the groupchat, heh. She'll be going to the farthest UC here in California so, after the summer, it'll most likely be "See ya" forever, at least a very long time. And of course, I will miss her. We share the same sense of humor.

Eryka - One of the cast members, one of the members of Father's Nudes, one of the three that picked me up in The Days. As what I stated above, she and I go back to the 1st series. Things really entwined after and during math tutoring at the local library during those summers. She'll still be around, so I'm not too too worried of, you know, never seeing her again.

Eric, Eric, Derek, Matthew, Charles, Jonathan - These dudes, are my homedudes. They are the Discord chat, and, even after all this time, even across three schools, we still somehow manage to stay connected, even the littlest of bit. Sure we got shit going in our lives, all different kinds of circumstances and shit, but what's stopping us from enjoying a night of pool together? They introduced me to, crazy nights during the beginning of this series. From going into storm drain pipes at night, to, playing pool late at night, to just, anything. I'm curious to see where our paths lead us. I, it's all a mystery. I really would like a road trip with 'em, at least once. That'd be sick.

Eric - This is a special one for my boy Eric. I've known him since middle school, 6th grade actually, but I didn't talk to him until middle school. We hung out together for the longest time, until he had to switch schools after sophomore year. We still kept in contact though. I still consider him my best friend. We've been through a lot together, and uh, for the longest time, I wasn't sure what I'd do without him. Yeah it is soft, all of this, I'm not comfortable being like this but, heh, it's true. Luckily for me, we're both heading to the same college, so, maybe we'll still do shit together.

A few more people I'd like to mention are Yuetong, Yennie, Aaron, Khason, and EmilyO. Uhhhh, there's, I'm probably missing some people I wanna mention, so if they are not mentioned, it might be because, I've either explained enough about 'em in episodes, or, I just forgot, and if I ever forgot anything these last few days, it's that I forgot to take off my lock and take my stuff out of my school locker. Umm, but yeah. these people have either influenced me, inspired me, helped, provided excitement for some of the series, or, any combination of the above. Most of their details are in past episodes.

        Alright, finally, the moment you've all been waiting for. My final reflection on all of this shit, before I can fully lay it to rest for those who need, and most importantly, lay a part of ME to rest, because I've had to keep this up, for 4 whole years. My tiredness has been, through the roof. It's dug itself so deep, that my emotions still need to catch up to my awakened state, before I can feel any real sadness about all this. About, the past couple weeks. So it is.

        *RECORD SCRATCH* *FREEZE FRAME* Yep, this was all me. You're probably wondering how I got myself writing all of this. Let's go back a bit. *VHS TAPE REWINDS TO NOVEMBER 2013* I wanted something to look back upon. I want it to be like a book, I want all of these entries to be put together into one, big book. It'll be a great success. Now, that was all before my Word document corrupted and I said "Fuck it" until about December where I started it up again, but this time, on Google Docs. *FAST FORWARDS TO DECEMBER 2013* Here I was at my grandmother's house, writing on Google docs about what I've done so far, which was not much. I still wanted it to be a book, and then after, I wanted to make it into a TV show. I looked online to see if other people have had the same idea, to think of their days as episodes of a TV show, where they're the main character. Not much info was found, so I took it upon myself to make it all my own.

        And that was how it was all born. Okay well, I actually wanted to start something even earlier than November 2013, starting the middle of 8th grade, but that failed horribly. I still have it but I don't think I'd be willing to show it because it is, very, childish stuff. However, the format was pretty much the same. Sometimes I'd talk about my day, sometimes I'd talk my ideas about a topic. It only lasted a few posts though, and it's still there on the web. And no it wasn't a book at that time, it was a blog.

        And then it turned into a book, and then a better book, and then a TV show. Why a TV show? Well, life was pretty boring. There was no incentive to do much, no real motivation. If I envisioned there was an audience watching me, I'd want to do my best to entertain 'em, give 'em something to cheer and root for. That evolved into me wanting to look back on it all in the future, and then that evolved into "I wanna help those who might look for mutuality in terms of experiences." Back then, when I had a problem, I searched online for others who had the same problem with me, see if, others were going through what I was going through, so I wouldn't feel alone.

        I'm hoping that by providing this set of experiences, that, if people feel alone, they can see for themselves from this list that, hey, they're not alone in their feelings, their, actions, their experiences, that, somebody else went through the same thing as them, felt the same thing, did what they did. It rationalizes it all a bit, like "I would'a done the same thing," or "Hey, it's normal to feel this way, I've been through it too." So after 4 years of all of this, I can honestly say that High school, is stupid. Don't believe me? Go see my past posts yourself and tell me it's not stupid. You're forced into a bubble for 4 years, forced to see the same faces for 4 years or less, whether you like 'em or not. Forced to take classes you might not even need or want, for 4 years. Forced to interact, with the same people, for 4 years or less.

        It becomes your world for that time. Everything that happens seems like as if it were real, as if it were, the end all for everything, as if all your decisions mattered, that it dictated your future. When in reality, it's all very minute, very small, everything that you do. That rumor, it's gonna be out the window once you or anybody leaves. That embarrassing moment, that awkward moment, nobody's gonna remember it afterwards. That applies for the bad things. For the good things though, the things you do for people, those things may stay with them forever. Some people may never forget the good that you've done for them.

        Friends that you form here: most will only be, for here. They're made here to help you get through these 4 years. Sure, you can just be by yourself for these 4 years, you don't need to make friends, but then that'd get very, fucking, boring. And you won't people who'd have your back for, let's say you need a ride, or homework to copy. Or, people to help you cope with things. So if you make friends, just know that if you choose to keep 'em, be sure that they're sure to keep you as well. If you make friends, just know that you may have to leave 'em or let 'em go after the 4 years.

        Don't worry too much about popularity. Sure, you get some benefits from it, but don't focus too heavily on it. Because after the 4 years and you go to college, there's that reset where you're, essentially nobody. Even if you were very well-known, you become, without a doubt, a freshman nobody, once you step foot into college into your first class. If there's one thing you should worry about, it's time. You can do whatever you want, yeah, and you should do whatever you want in these 4 years, but just remember that what you want to do during those 4 years, you only get 4 years to do so.

        If you don't the opportunity to do something, unless it's High school exclusive, you have, an entire human-lifetime, to do what you wanted to do. But for now, just do it. Risk it for the biscuit. Take risks, take chances. Do whatever it takes to make things exciting, because things do get boring, especially with 4 years in the same place. Leave with the least regrets possible, and you won't have to worry much. There is that one saying, not sure where it is from but, if somebody from the future doesn't go back in time to stop you from doing what you want to do, it can't be too bad right? Risk it for the biscuit.

        Now let's say you're just one person out of, let's say, 3000 students, and you want to stand out. How do you get noticed? How do you stand out? Well that's easy: you stand out. You differentiate yourself from others, in any way you can. What you do for others, helpfulness, the way you talk to people who don't talk too much, the way you talk to everybody and anybody you see in class,  the way you talk to your teachers, the way you join clubs, anything..You form your own identity in by how you want to do these things. If you don't care too much about it, then don't. But if you want to be different, just be different. But just remember that being too different may get you labeled as "weird," and unless you're reminding yourself every day that it will be meaningless after 4 years, it may affect you in those 4 years. Just keep it in mind.

        One exception though for that. If being labeled as "weird" is prohibiting you from doing something you love, then fuck it, do what you love. There's countless examples I can provide that shows this, and from my own experiences as well. Just, go see the episodes.

        A few final things about me: I uh, I am 18. My vocabulary consists of terms like "Boi," "What the scallop," "bootleg," "aw yuh," "aw yup," "o shit," "ooo," "fuking," and "fam." And some other terms as well. I ended up having people who have my back, as well as me having theirs. I ended being seen as "cool," from my fellow KDT members, from what they said in their letters. I am able to drive myself from place to place by myself. I turned out to become a dancer, an artist, a performer. I would not like to re-live these 4 years over again, I am currently hoping for a brighter future. You leave the bad, with some of the good. Just try to enjoy it, just try to survive.

        My name is Andrew and I played the role of Drew in So Don't be on with Her, 100% Chance of Bad, The Days, and Precisely Refined. If you want any clarification on anything, if you have any questions about any episodes, want any details, any behind the scene looks, or just want to talk, contact me at my email at drewhtrain@gmail.com. After 4 years, after 1212 posts, I guess this is finally The End. Thank you for watching. See ya.

Friday, June 2, 2017 "Before the Last."

Friday, June 2, 2017
Week: 43
Songs to Remember: Happy - 2NE1, Plz Don't Be Sad - HIGHLIGHT, Limitless - NCT 127, Mask Off - Future

        This time, I actually have a reason to prolong things. It's 12;35 AM, and I kinda want the last post/ episode to be, well-written, and not half-assed just 'cause I want to sleep.

        And so, I will have to prolong the series by one day, one episode, one post. Tomorrow is gonna be a free day, so I'll have all the time, and no excuses, not to work on it and put every bit of detail and everything I want to say into it. So for now, see ya.

Thursday, June 1, 2017 "Korean Dance Team."

Thursday, June 1, 2017
Week: 43
Songs to Remember: Happy - 2NE1, Only You - 24K, Limitless - NCT 127, Press Your Number - Taemin

        This project, after thinking about everything, thinking about the future, being hopeful, for the future, that's there going to be more options for me (which there will be), it all seems so small. All this made me realize how small things are. For example, a bad rumor about you. Okay, so now maybe 100, 200 people, at your High school now knows about it. Some may believe it, some may not.

        You feel like your reputation's ruined, it's over, people, won't want to talk to you anymore or whatever. But by the time you graduate (which is hardly any time at all), barely, and I mean, barely, anybody will remember it, let alone think twice about it. And this can apply for so many other things. High school, is just one bubble. Not even a big bubble, just, a bubble. You're forced to stay in it, forced to see the same faces every day.

        So when bad things happen, or just things happen in general, it's all kept in there. It bounces around in the bubble, and so things do seem very big, when they're actually not. And it did take me a while to understand that. Not too too long though. And so, after becoming aware of this, it, gives me much more hope that there's going to be lot more in store for me. These series, these don't tell my whole story, not by a long shot. There's much more than that, way more than that.

        And so, the KDT senior picnic was a good way to end most of it all. I didn't cry, even though I wanted to cry. I did, however, cried at home, after reading Tm's letter about me. The underclass-men wrote letters to us and made us gift-bags, like last year. My speech wasn't as great as I had wanted it to be, but it was still alright. A lot of people opened up about how shit things were before they joined KDT, umm, it made me really see how powerful, KDT is, and uh, that's, that's one of the reasons why I'll miss it.

        I got tired after crying a bit, so I took a nap, woke up at 2:30 AM, which is right now. Still got a lot more to describe and so, however, that'll be put into tomorrow's post and episode, also known as, the last, post and episode for the series, and for the project as a whole. Man, oh man, is it going to be long. Anyways, for now, see ya.

Wendnesday, May 31, 2017 "Music-Evoked Nostalgia."

Wendnesday, May 31, 2017
Week: 43
Songs to Remember: Only You - 24K, Hello Hello - B.I.G, Happy - 2NE1, Plz Don't Be Sad - Highlight,

        I honestly don't know what to write. I don't really feel anything, or at least not yet. I've just been tired, and exhausted.

        One of the things that help me remember things the best, better than these posts even, is music. It's one of the reasons why I keep the "Songs to Remember" section, why I keep a collection of music, why I keep a time-stamp of when they're added to my collection. I listen to a song in the moment of something and soon enough that song becomes connected, it becomes synced, to that moment.

        Some songs I've listened to them on multiple occasions, making them very general, and can apply to a lot of situations and events, making me remember either not much, or a lot, usually the former. For example, Taemin's "Press Your Number." It is probably my most-played song as of today. I've listened to it in so many situations and times that it doesn't really represent any exact time. It's just, a song. Some songs, they make me remember very specific times and locations. For example, listening to "When the Moon's Reaching Out Stars" from the Persona 3 OST, it takes me back to the summer of 2013 when I was playing Yu-Gi-Oh with my cousin at my grandmother's house, 'cause he was playing Persona 3 at that time and that song kept on coming up.


        And then there are songs that are tied to bad or sad events or times, and it's a shame because, these are really good songs, but every time I hear them, it makes me think back to those times. Some of these songs include Bruno Mars' "That's What I Like," The Weeknd's "I Feel It Coming," NCT 127's "Paradise," DPR LIVE's songs, Giriboy (기리보이)'s "SKIT (CHEEZE사리추가VER), PRODUCE 101's "PICK ME 2," Romeo's "WITHOUT U" (not so much anymore but still), you get what I mean. The list goes on. All of these are really good songs, but damn, they just bring back too much bad thoughts.

        Yes, that is also why I pick songs for the opening and endings of each series. Those are things that I want to remember and so I purposely try to pick something that'd be representative of what is to come, or what had happened for the series. Listening to the songs, it's like "Ahhh I remember this. The beginning of season 3. Good times, good times " And yes, the "Songs to Remember" part of each post are what I'm listening to currently as I'm making the post, or, what I listened to the day of the post, or the like.

        Today I spent a bit of time after school with Tm. 3rd period ended with what I continued with the whole year: a whole lot of nothing, heh. It was good time to relax though. I think that if I did not have this class I would not have survived, because it gave me, so much ample time to get shit done when I did not want to do things at home, either because I was too tired or it ended up being too late that I'd be too tired to do it. Other than that, it was pretty boring, mostly because most of the topics covered was stuff I already knew or was already familiar with.

        4th period English, I, I thought I was going to have a mental breakdown after school because I had thought that my group members did not do the video after I told 'em I could not make it. I was like "Holy fuck, I am, going to be going insane after-school in order to put together 90 fucking clips." Fortunately one of my group members did put together a video, and had it on a USB flashdrive, so, that uh, that saved me. We did the final in class (which wasn't too difficult) and watched the skit videos of other groups whilst having a little potluck of, junkfood, heh.

        Anyways, I drove Tm and myself to Safeway, for my to pick up some food, as well as to Walgreens to pick up a set of grad pictures for one person. And then drove him home. I proceeded to drive to my old elementary school and home (which were located in walking distance of each other), for old times sake, to see how far I've gotten. It all looked very different, it was expected, but I didn't expect it too too much. The classroom locations stayed the same, the structures were the same, however the walls were re-painted.

        I asked about whether any of my teachers were still there, but unfortunately all but one were retired, and the one who was still there was on a field trip. I honestly did not think it was that long ago, but I guess it was. Everything looked, very small. The desks and chairs, just everything. I walked to my old, old house through the neighborhood and whilst some houses seemed familiar, I just, couldn't remember most of 'em. It was all very, very faint. I took a look at my old house and saw how, small it was. The gate, the fences, I was like "These all seemed gigantic back then. This gate felt like triple my height." And now I'm, I'm like, able to look over it, heh. "Were they this small back then." I saw the window of the house and that instantly brought back images of how my dad's room looked, how, my mom's room looked, how I spent quite a bit of years sleeping in there, sleeping next to my mom.

        It was, not as sad as I had thought. Didn't cry even, I didn't feel much. It was really just, me trying to grasp how long it's been, how feint all these memories were. Drove back home with nothing much else, uhhh, and now here I am, at 11:57 PM, with Gov work to do. I had essentially no time at all these past 2 weeks to work on the dances for the KDT picnic tomorrow, so oh well. Fortunately for me, my fellow KDT members did not practice either, so that makes things a bit better. Still need to write a speech, still need to do work. I'll try to get it all done before 2:00 AM. Please. This is the 3rd to last post, 3rd to last episode of the series. See ya.

Tuesday, May 30, 2017 "Sleep Sick."

Tuesday, May 30, 2017
Week: 43
Songs to Remember: Only You - 24K, Hello Hello - B.I.G

        It is unfortunate that I just had to come across a sickly cough that made me want to stay in bed for quite a few hours today. And I would write something because there's not much time left to write about what I want to write, but considering it's 2:35 AM, and if I were to stay up any longer, it'd do more worse than good.

        I had my yearbook signed by the people I liked in 1st period and gave out some of my grad photo-cards. And by people I liked, I mean those who made a more significant impact or role in the series while in Dance. Second period was much different, for I didn't care much about anybody in there, so I just spent the time writing letters on my grad photo-cards for people.

        Tomorrow is probably gonna be the same for 3rd period, and as for 4th period, that's just a final of which, I think I'll do fine on. And yes, tomorrow, I will have very much to do, so I'm hoping to get as much done in 3rd period as possible to finish these letters, so that I may focus on these last few things for tomorrow: speech, this whole thing, and dances. And so, see ya.